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WTF is on my Mind?!

English, Cultural, 1 season, 41 episodes, 1 day, 7 hours, 40 minutes
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Author, Speaker, Whistleblower and award-winning Director Mark Vicente was behind the sleeper hit “What The Bleep Do We Know?!” Several books have been written about the film’s remarkable grassroots marketing campaign, which led to its unprecedented success.Mark was born in Johannesburg, South Africa in 1965. Taking his first photograph at age four, he quickly discovered his passion for being behind the camera. After attending film and drama school in South Africa, he began working his way up the ranks of the camera department, from Assistant to Operator to Cinematographer. His first big break came as Director of Photography on the musical “SARAFINA,” starring Whoopi Goldberg. In 1992, he set his sights on Hollywood and relocated to Los Angeles to shoot his first studio picture for Disney;  “FATHERHOOD,” starring Patrick Swayze and Halle Berry. At the age of 26, he became one of the youngest cinematographers to shoot a big-budget studio picture. Over the next few decades, he went on to shoot an additional 14 feature films and numerous documentaries, music videos and commercials. Mark soon found there were in him, untold stories he desperately wanted to express as a Director. He was driven by the conviction that tales of greatness, nobility and introspection could be exciting and financially successful. Perhaps because of the very obvious race and class iniquities in South Africa, he found himself propelled to question certain fundamental assumptions at a very young age. Beliefs about human behavior, cosmology, religion, existentialism and mysticism. Along the way, he stumbled into a few situations where leaders with malignant pathologies (masquerading as saintly philosophers) spoke the talk of self-improvement but did untold damage to their followers... and him. Looking back, he can now say he has been in at last two cults. His last foray into personal growth and his defection from NXIVM was chronicled in the HBO series “The Vow”. Mark and a few plucky whistleblowers exposed the criminal activities of the organization, resulting in multiple arrests and indictments. He doesn’t consider himself a cult expert, but by his own admission, “I’m an expert in being screwed over, waking up, and knowing how to spot them.” He’s got a pretty salty approach to most things and is fascinated by the myriad patterns in the human psychodynamic that create the best and the worst in civilization. Join Mark as he unpacks a whole range of topics to do with: Psychology, Consciousness, Morality, Narcissistic Abuse, Spirituality, Cults, Propaganda, Science, Filmmaking, and Philosophy.You never quite know what you’re going to get, as it really does depend on… WTF is on his mind?!
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NXIVM's War Against Hate

Brave Expression in the Age of Intolerance with Africa BrookeBeyond the Self - with Africa Brooke releasing cult-like thinking and rigid identities w/ Mark VicenteIdentical News MontageThe Corporation FilmNarcissistic Psychopathy: A Global Dark Force. 25th & 26th of May in Liverpool, UKGary BreckaDecoding Cults & Narcissists with Mark Vicente and Richard GrannonSupport the Show.Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/MarkVicenteWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/
5/4/202436 minutes, 50 seconds
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Art as Medicine with filmmaker Lubomir Arsov

KINGDOM ANIMATED SHORThttps://www.lubomirarsov.com/IN SHADOWBeyond The Self with Africa Brooke - releasing cult-like thinking & rigid identities - with Mark VicenteThe conversation between Mark Vicente and Lubomir explores the creative process, the power of visual storytelling, and the challenges of staying true to one's artistic vision. They discuss the importance of depth and emotional resonance in art, as well as the resistance and criticism that often arise when pushing boundaries. The conversation also touches on the themes of truth, personal growth, and the struggle to break free from societal norms. Overall, the discussion highlights the transformative power of art and the courage required to create meaningful work. In this conversation, Mark Vicente and Lubomir discuss the themes and messages in Lubomir's film 'Kingdom'. They explore the concepts of freedom, redemption, and the power of the individual to break free from oppressive systems. They also discuss the role of art in inspiring and empowering people. The film is praised for its visceral and emotional impact, and the audience feedback has been positive. Lubomir shares his thoughts on the importance of imagination and the potential for redemption in even the most damaged individuals. They also discuss the intellectual and emotional responses to the film and the power of visual storytelling.00:00 Introduction07:39 The Frustration of Finding Projects that Match Values16:15 The Emotional Connection in Filmmaking33:41 The Personal and Collective Resistance to Truth41:51 The Challenge of Portraying the Transcendent53:24 The Battle of Coercion and Oppression01:05:29 The Potential Impact and Future ProjectsSupport the showPatreon: https://www.patreon.com/MarkVicenteWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/
4/19/20241 hour, 16 minutes, 26 seconds
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Brave Expression in the Age of Intolerance with Africa Brooke

Course with Richard GrannonDECODING CULTS & NARCISSISTSAFRICA BROOKEPreorder Africa's Book:The Third Perspective: Brave Expression in The Age of Intolerance (out May 2024)An open letter: why I'm leaving the cult of wokeness by Africa BrookeOther Podcasts with AfricaTriggernometry - They've Weaponised Guilt and ShameMikhaila Peterson Podcast - A Change of Heart Towards Jordan Diary of a CEO - Victimhood & Self-sabotage Is Destroying The WorldThis conversation between Mark Vicente and Africa Brooke explores the themes of conformity, cult tactics, and the importance of individual values. Africa shares her experiences growing up in Zimbabwe and the impact of her ancestors' fight for freedom. They discuss the concept of the maverick mindset, which involves being an independent thinker and going against the grain. Africa emphasizes the need to focus on both the inner mob (self-censorship) and the external mob (societal pressure) in order to navigate expression and stand up for what is true. The conversation highlights the power of laughter and the importance of friendship and connection. Africa shares her experiences of growing up in an abusive household and the impact it had on her self-censorship and behavior. She describes the constant unpredictability and shifting dynamics in her father's behavior, which led to her developing a pattern of self-sabotage and addiction. Africa reflects on the duality of her childhood, with moments of joy and escape outside the home contrasting with the darkness within. She discusses her journey to sobriety and the realization that she was more comfortable in chaos than in stability. Africa also touches on her decision to leave the 'cult of wokeness' and the parallels between her experiences of addiction and the need for validation in the social justice movement. In this part of the conversation, Africa and Mark discuss the challenges of being labeled as an activist and the pressure to conform to certain ideologies. Africa shares her experience of being labeled as an activist and how it led to a focus on race and identity. She also discusses the dangers of cancel culture and the pressure to conform to certain beliefs. Mark and Africa explore the concept of self-censorship and the inner mob in our minds that prevents us from expressing ourselves authentically. They emphasize the importance of self-reflection and self-awareness in communication.Support the showPatreon: https://www.patreon.com/MarkVicenteWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/
4/9/20241 hour, 51 minutes, 52 seconds
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UNTO DUST - A Racist Story

In this episode: I tell a story written by Herman Charles Bosman about an unfortunate incident between a black African warrior and a white Afrikaans soldier.  Vuzamazulu Credo MutwaHerman Charles Bosmanhttps://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kaffir_(racial_term)Support the showPatreon: https://www.patreon.com/MarkVicenteWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/
3/29/202426 minutes
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Religion: Heaven or Hell?

DECODING CULTS & NARCISSISTShttps://www.richardgrannon.com/narcissistic-cults-decoded-courseIn this episode: I wandered into a Cathedral in Lisbon and asked a question on social media:"Taking a Sunday trip down memory lane. I have so many complex thoughts and feelings in cathedrals like this. A mixture of awe, sadness and outrage. Perhaps it’s worth a podcast episode. How do you feel in spaces like this?"I got thoughtful and emotional responses and wanted to record my feelings and thoughts.Support the showPatreon: https://www.patreon.com/MarkVicenteWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/
3/21/202433 minutes, 28 seconds
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Deception, Media & Betrayal - with Sarma of “BAD VEGAN”

NARCISSISTIC CULTS DECODEDhttps://www.richardgrannon.com/narcissistic-cults-decoded-courseIn this episode: Sarma Melngailis goes deep with me on the deception she experienced with con-man ‘Mr. Fox’, what people don't understand about coercive control, the problems with media, and her healing journey. “If I’d had any involvement in her case, she never would have gone to jail.” - Evan Stark,  sociologist, forensic social worker, author 'Coercive Control: The Entrapment of Women in Personal Life'https://www.sarmaraw.com/writing/2022/3/27/dear-mr-foxhttps://www.sarmaraw.com/writing/2022/4/5/bad-vegan-is-not-a-documentaryPerpetual Pup | "Not All Dogs Have To Go To Heaven"https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r461TVuKB0ohttps://www.instagram.com/sarmamelngailis/The views and opinions expressed on WTF is on my Mind? do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast. Any content provided by our guests, bloggers, sponsors or authors are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anything.Support the showPatreon: https://www.patreon.com/MarkVicenteWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/
3/8/20241 hour, 28 minutes, 47 seconds
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Lucy Walsh - I ESCAPED!

In this episode:I speak with actress, writer, producer, classical pianist, singer, and songwriter, Lucy Walsh. We discuss her new book 'Remember Me As Human', her crazy life as the daughter of Joe Walsh (The Eagles), and her escape from what she calls a high-control group in the heart of Hollywood. https://www.instagram.com/thelucywalsh/https://www.hollywoodreporter.com/business/business-news/acting-coach-gloria-gifford-accusations-toxic-conservatory-1235152816/The views and opinions expressed on WTF is on my Mind? do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast. Any content provided by our guests, bloggers, sponsors or authors are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anything.Support the showPatreon: https://www.patreon.com/MarkVicenteWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/
2/17/20241 hour, 11 minutes, 42 seconds
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Diane Bell - Sundance Award Winning Director & Dream Whisperer

In this episode:I share with Diane Bell, Sundance Award- Winning Director how she helped me regain my hope and creative fire after the NXIVM debacle.https://www.dianebell.com/https://www.instagram.com/aimfromtheheart1/https://www.instagram.com/shootfromtheheart1/Support the showPatreon: https://www.patreon.com/MarkVicenteWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/
1/23/20241 hour, 14 minutes, 15 seconds
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The Antidote

This is a follow-up to the previous episode "The Slippery Slope of Ideology"- Reading listeners' answers to the question: "What is the antidote to the information control that inflames the US and THEM-ing?"- Talking to Rick Ross after leaving NXIVM- The Socratic Method- One possible ANTIDOTE- There are more than TWO choicesAndrew Gold - HereticsRichard GrannonSupport the show on PATREONSupport the showPatreon: https://www.patreon.com/MarkVicenteWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/
1/19/202418 minutes, 29 seconds
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The slippery slope of Ideology

In this Episode:Key moments that opened my eyes to NXIVM. Cult leaders seem to be cut from the same cloth because they have the same pathology.  Thoughts on my social media posts. Some people want me to vilify specific political groups. Why I won't. Patterns are everything.The slippery slope of ideological trenches.New Course: RECLAMATIONwww.markvicente.com/courses20 Diversion tactics highly manipulative Narcissists Sociopaths and Psychopaths use to silence you. ~ Shahida Arabihttps://thoughtcatalog.com/shahida-arabi/2016/06/20-diversion-tactics-highly-manipulative-narcissists-sociopaths-and-psychopaths-use-to-silence-you/Dr. Christine Louis De Cannonvillehttps://narcissisticbehavior.net/about-me/Support the showPatreon: https://www.patreon.com/MarkVicenteWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/
1/9/202431 minutes, 37 seconds
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A Soldier's Story

WAITLISTIn this episode: Who are you being told to hate? World Triangulation Glorification of War A Soldier's StoryMoral InjuryTalking to a soldier I was supposed to killGerman WWI veteran describes killing a French soldier in a bayonet charge From @bullfrogboss8008patreon.com/markvicenteMusic: Origins by Daniel DeuschleSupport the showPatreon: https://www.patreon.com/MarkVicenteWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/
12/9/202317 minutes, 22 seconds
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Narcissistic Triangulation

In this episode: NXIVM, Gladiators, CIA, Tin Foil, Public Relations, and taking down the little runt. patreon.com/markvicenteCIA Dispatch: https://www.globalresearch.ca/cia-memo-1967-cia-coined-weaponized-label-conspiracy-theory/5822801Sign up for news about my new film at: www.empathynotincluded.comEmpathy not Included - Social Media Accounts:InstagramFacebookTik TokXMusic: Origins by Daniel DeuschleSupport the showPatreon: https://www.patreon.com/MarkVicenteWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/
12/1/202326 minutes, 43 seconds
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Hatred as a Path to Enlightenment

In this Episode: Self-hatred as a misguided attempt towards enlightenment. The polarization between the body and the spirit in spiritual groups and teachings.patreon.com/markvicenteSign up for news about my new film at: www.empathynotincluded.comEmpathy not Included - Social Media Accounts:InstagramFacebookTik TokXMusic: Origins by Daniel DeuschleSupport the showPatreon: https://www.patreon.com/MarkVicenteWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/
11/18/202318 minutes, 24 seconds
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An answer at any cost! (Y+R=A)

In this Episode: - Cognitive Dissonance.- The scientific method vs. a deeply vested need for a particular answer. - A simple formula to understand why many deny obvious evidence right in front of them! - Turning RED flags Pink.Support the showPatreon: https://www.patreon.com/MarkVicenteWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Theme Music: "In Time" by Kollen
9/23/202320 minutes, 22 seconds
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Tom Cruise, Oblivion & the NXIVM 9

SPOILER ALERT: I will be giving away major plot points of the movie 'Oblivion'.In this Episode: Tom Cruise plays Jack Harper in this 2013 sci-fi movie directed by Joseph Kosinski. The irony of Tom Cruise playing a character who wakes up inside an AI cult and then helps take it down. The NXIVM 9 were like the 'Scavs' Jack thinks are the enemy.Support the showWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Theme Music: "In Time" by Kollen
8/20/202332 minutes, 52 seconds
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Prickly People!

In this Episode: Ever been around someone who seems to correct or criticize everything you do? Do you have that person in your life that you feel you need to be really careful around? As though there are land mines everywhere. You have to tip-toe very carefully through their rules and regulations. They live with an ideology in their head that can become authoritarian in its intolerance.Support the showWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Theme Music: "In Time" by Kollen
8/6/202328 minutes, 10 seconds
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Guy Pearce on Cults, The Vow, Acting, Lying and Truth.

In this Episode: Guy Pearce talks about why he reached out to me. We had an amazing, deep, and honest conversation covering cults, groups, his fascination with The Vow, and his take on acting and being human.Guy Pearce was born October 5, 1967 in the UK to Margaret Anne and Stuart Graham Pearce. His father was born in Auckland, New Zealand, to English and Scottish parents, while Guy's mother is English. Pearce and his family initially traveled to Australia for two years, after his father was offered the position of Chief test pilot for the Australian Government. Guy was just 3-years-old. After deciding to stay in Australia and settling in the Victorian city of Geelong, Guy's father was killed 5 years later in an aircraft test flight, leaving Guy's mother, a schoolteacher, to care for him and his older sister, Tracy.Having little interest in subjects at school like math or science, Guy favored art, drama and music. He joined local theatre groups at a young age and appeared in such productions as "The King and I," "Fiddler on the Roof," and "The Wizard of Oz." In 1985, just two days after his final high school exam, Guy started a four-year stint as "Mike Young" on the popular Aussie soap Neighbours (1985). At age 20, Guy appeared in his first film, Heaven Tonight (1989), then, after a string of appearances in film, television and on the stage, he won the role of an outrageous drag queen in The Adventures of Priscilla, Queen of the Desert (1994).He has amazed film critics and audiences, alike, with his magnificent performances in L.A. Confidential (1997), Memento (2000), The Proposition (2005), Factory Girl (2006), The Hurt Locker (2008), The King's Speech (2010) and the HBO mini-series, Mildred Pierce (2011). Next to acting, Guy has had a life-long passion for music and songwriting.Support the showWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Theme Music: "In Time" by Kollen
7/23/20231 hour, 26 minutes, 40 seconds
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The Light and Dark side of Self-Help with Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle

In this Episode: I talk to Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle, Clinical Psychologist and Board President of Seek Safely.  https://www.seeksafely.org SEEK SAFELY is an organization that: Educates the public about the self-help industry. Empowers consumers of personal and professional development.Promotes professional standards in this $11 Billion/Year unregulated self-help industry.  Seek Safely Podcasthttps://seeksafely.podcastpage.io/ Dr. Doyle https://www.instagram.com/drdoylesays/ https://twitter.com/DrDoyleSays Support the showWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Theme Music: "In Time" by Kollen
7/9/20231 hour, 47 minutes, 13 seconds
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Weaponizing Filmmaking

In this Episode: Filmmaking can do extraordinary things... move people to the greatest heights and the deepest depths of themselves, and it can also be weaponized.Russian Cinema. Lev Kuleshov explains juxtaposition. Hitchcock waxes on about the power of editing. Using editing and omission to perform character assassination. The power of music to play the human instrument. Filmmakers know how to get the audience to feel anything they want. Romanticizing Psychopathy. The Empire and the Rebellion. Psychological Operations. An Army recruitment video.GHOSTS IN THE MACHINE4th PSYOP Grouphttps://youtu.be/VA4e0NqyYMwSupport the showWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Theme Music: "In Time" by Kollen
6/20/202340 minutes, 50 seconds
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Those F*@king Conspiracy Theorists!

In this episode… conspiracy theorists are idiots, right? Lloyd Evans - ex-Jehovah's Witness writer, activist and filmmaker. Author of "The Reluctant Apostate," https://www.youtube.com/@LloydEvans  Cults to Consciousness - Shelise Ann Sola— former devout Mormon. Stories of claiming independence after leaving high-control groups.  https://www.youtube.com/@CultstoConsciousness  Graham Hancock https://grahamhancock.com/  Netflix - Ancient Apocalypse https://youtu.be/DgvaXros3MY  Conspiracy Theory https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Conspiracy_theory Support the showWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Theme Music: "In Time" by Kollen
6/11/202317 minutes, 32 seconds
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What is a Cult?

In this Episode: The twenty 25 characteristics and tactics of a cult!DISCLAIMER: I AM NOT A MENTAL HEALTH PROFESSIONAL. THIS INFORMATION IS FOR ENTERTAINMENT PURPOSES ONLY AND IS NOT INTENDED TO BE A SUBSTITUTE FOR CLINICAL CARE. PLEASE CONSULT A HEALTHCARE PROVIDER FOR GUIDANCE.The first article I read that helped with my deprogramming.http://www.dreichel.com/Checklist_of_Cult_Characte.htm Visit my Patreon Page:  patreon.com/markvicenteICSA https://www.icsahome.com/Janja Lalich https://www.cultresearch.org/help/characteristics-associated-with-cults/#  Rick Ross https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/belief/2009/may/27/cults-definition-religion https://youtu.be/VLfvDHa7TD8  Steve Hassan https://freedomofmind.com/cult-mind-control/bite-model/  Consent Awareness Network https://consentawareness.net/  I Got Out https://www.igotout.org/ Midroll Music: "Sana" by Van SandanoWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Theme Music: "In Time" by Kollen
5/15/202357 minutes, 10 seconds
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Cancel Culture & The Hero's Journey

In this episode: Cancel Culture is a term that is used in modern-day society. But does it have it's roots much further back? Has it been going on for centuries, and is it a good thing or a bad thing? What does cancel have to do with our unexpressed shadow? We take a look at the consequences of this internet era 'struggle session' and what it might be doing to human beings and society at large?Website: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Music: "In Time" by Kollen
4/18/202313 minutes, 36 seconds
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The 4th "F" (FAWNING) with Dr. Ingrid Clayton

In this episode: Have you ever felt ashamed of how you went along with an abuser for months, maybe even years, even though a part of you knew the situation was toxic? That's known as FAWNING. This episode will help demystify that very normal trauma response. Dr. Ingrid Clayton will help us to understand the 4 F's (Fight, Flight, Freeze and FAWN) while discussing her own story and aspects of the NXIVM Cult.Ingrid Clayton, PhD is a writer and clinical psychologist in private practice in Los Angeles, California. With a Masters in transpersonal psychology and a Ph.D. in clinical psychology, Dr. Clayton has a holistic approach to psychotherapy, incorporating trauma-informed modalities like Somatic Experiencing, EMDR, and other experiential ways of working with the nervous system. She is the author of the memoir: Believing Me: Healing from Narcissistic Abuse and Complex Trauma, where she uncovers her personal experience of childhood trauma from a psychologist’s perspective and Recovering Spirituality: Achieving Emotional Sobriety in Your Spiritual Practice. Ingrid is a regular contributor to Psychology Today , where her article, “What is Self-Gaslighting?” is considered an Essential Read.https://www.ingridclayton.com/https://www.instagram.com/ingridclaytonphd/https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC3PvWTgJMirURfgHWj3h28gWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Music: "In Time" by Kollen
3/6/20231 hour, 37 minutes, 23 seconds
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Hypothesis of God

In this Episode: Stolen Youth. A memory of a NXIVM Level 2 module that really stuck. Is 'God' an early development somatic impulse?  Transference of mysticism. Seeing our leaders as omnipotent parents.Website: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Music: "In Time" by Kollen
2/21/202319 minutes, 55 seconds
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Airports, The Ethics Police & The WEFC

In this episode, a discussion about the magical profit margin in airports, the 'Ethics Police' in cults and social media, the denial of evil, and the true motives of the WEFC.Website: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Music: "In Time" by Kollen
2/13/202319 minutes, 49 seconds
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Emotionally Puckered Up

In this episode, a short discussion about emotional repression and its effects on us.Website: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Music: "In Time" by Kollen
1/30/202317 minutes, 16 seconds
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'The Vow' S2 - Episode 6 - Debrief

SPOILER ALERT! Scenes from Episode 6 will be discussed!In this Episode: Debrief of 'The Vow' Season 2 - Episode 6(NXIVM) ‘Letter to the Inside’ in 4 parts is available on all Podcast platforms and Youtube. 'The Vow' Opening Title Sequence MusicSon Lux – "Dream State (Run From It) [feat. Bonnie Piesse]" (Official Audio)A Little Bit Culty Podcasthttps://www.instagram.com/alittlebitculty/Consent Awareness Network#FGKIA: Freely Given, Knowledgeable Informed Agreementhttps://www.instagram.com/standfirmvoice/Mark Vicente YouTube - Holy DeceptionMark Vicente - Statement at Raniere's SentencingMark Vicente - Statement at Nancy Salzman's SentencingWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Music: "In Time" by Kollen
11/22/20221 hour, 59 minutes, 24 seconds
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'The Vow' S2 - Episode 5 - Debrief

SPOILER ALERT! Scenes from Episode 5 will be discussed! In this Episode: Debrief of 'The Vow' Season 2 - Episode 5Daniel Shaw, LCSWTraumatic Narcissism and Recovery - Leaving the Prison of Shame and FearEnd Titles Episode 5: "Regret" sung by Bonnie Piesse; co-written with Reinhold Heil, Michael Tuller and Mac Quayle. (NXIVM) ‘Letter to the Inside’ in 4 parts is available on all Podcast platforms and Youtube. 'The Vow' Opening Title Sequence MusicSon Lux – "Dream State (Run From It) [feat. Bonnie Piesse]" (Official Audio)A Little Bit Culty Podcasthttps://www.instagram.com/alittlebitculty/Consent Awareness Network#FGKIA: Freely Given, Knowledgeable Informed Agreementhttps://www.instagram.com/standfirmvoice/Mark Vicente YouTube - Holy DeceptionMark Vicente - Statement at Raniere's SentencingMark Vicente - Statement at Nancy Salzman's SentencingWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Music: "In Time" by Kollen
11/15/202251 minutes, 58 seconds
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'The Vow' S2 - Episode 4 - Debrief

SPOILER ALERT! Scenes from Episode 4 will be discussed! In this Episode: Debrief of 'The Vow' Season 2 - Episode 4.End Title Music: "Unraveling" by Bonnie PiesseMusic and Lyrics by Bonnie Piesse Produced by Bonnie Piesse and Eric Margen Lyricseverything everything is wrong there's nothing left of how we knew it breaking down all the crooked lines unraveling everything everything is gone there's no way back you can't erase memories are falling to ground spiraling it's who you who you are not who you believe in packing up and leaving in the night the only way of getting through it it's over now I think I see the light beckoning it's who you who you are not who you believe in it's who you who you are not who you believe in it's who you who you are not who you believe in (NXIVM) ‘Letter to the Inside’ in 4 parts is available on all Podcast platforms and Youtube. 'The Vow' Opening Title Sequence MusicSon Lux – "Dream State (Run From It) [feat. Bonnie Piesse]" (Official Audio)A Little Bit Culty Podcasthttps://www.instagram.com/alittlebitculty/Consent Awareness Network#FGKIA: Freely Given, Knowledgeable Informed Agreementhttps://www.instagram.com/standfirmvoice/Mark Vicente YouTube - Holy DeceptionMark Vicente - Statement at Raniere's SentencingMark Vicente - Statement at Nancy Salzman's SentencingWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Music: "In Time" by Kollen
11/8/202256 minutes, 46 seconds
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(NXIVM) Letter to the Inside - Part 4 of 4

In this Episode: (PART 4 of 4) In March 2018 I recognized Keith Raniere was about to be arrested. Along with my fellow whistleblowers, we had spent the previous 9 months trying to get people out of NXIVM. I made one final attempt en masse to get my friends (true believers) to wake up before Raniere was arrested. I wrote a long letter to a select few friends on ‘the inside’ on March 10th, 2018 - 16 days before Keith Raniere was arrested in a Mexican Villa on March 26th, 2018. I sent it mostly to lower ranks because I knew that if I included the top of the organization, the higher ranks would have blocked it. I needed my friends who received the letter to have time to absorb what I was saying before they had to report it up the chain of command. This was my desperate attempt to try and wake my friends up before the arrests began. ~ Mark Vicente Sections of the letter: Shunning, Whistleblower, The Blame Game, The Appearance of Calm, VWEEK2016, Slavery. Remember Africa, The Enablers, Your Future Selves"Mirreyes" (my kings) https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3026433/Mirreyes-rich-kids-Mexican-elite-use-Instagram-wealth.htmlYour Future Selves. Well, my rant has come to an end. As I said, that is 0.5%. I am well aware that this LONG letter may not move any of you. Too many EM’s and The Knife. Also, some of you may be True Believers. But at least we can collectively never look back and say I didn’t express this. That I didn’t try. I am writing this hopefully to your future selves who will look back at this, maybe years from now and say HOLY SHIT! It was right in front of me!  More and more information will be disclosed that will startle many of you. At first you will be convinced it is all part of the big bad conspiracy against your beloved Lord and Master and his 'innocent’ minions. But the revelations will grow and grow and be more and more shocking. Then you will have to face the horror as well, as many of us have. It will take significant decompression and time. We will be here when that day comes. We will help you. You may never talk to me as long as you live, and you likely won’t, but do ONE thing. Read ONE book: "Take Back Your Life: Recovering from Cults and Abusive Relationships" By Janja Lalich and Madeleine Landau Tobias It will change your life. It may even save your life. I miss many of you deeply.  All my love, Mark Website: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Music: "In Time" by Kollen
11/5/202233 minutes, 12 seconds
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'The Vow' S2 - Episode 3 - Debrief

SPOILER ALERT! Scenes from Episode 3 will be discussed!  WARNING! I discuss the ‘Fright Experiments’. Extreme Violence is mentioned. In this Episode: Debrief of 'The Vow' Season 2 - Episode 3.A South African accent...https://www.tiktok.com/@samihallsays?lang=en https://www.instagram.com/samihall/ Bridge over the River Kwai (1957) Directed by David Lean https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Bridge_on_the_River_Kwai (NXIVM) ‘Letter to the Inside’ in 4 parts is available on all Podcast platforms and Youtube. 'The Vow' Opening Title Sequence MusicSon Lux – "Dream State (Run From It) [feat. Bonnie Piesse]" (Official Audio)A Little Bit Culty Podcasthttps://www.instagram.com/alittlebitculty/Consent Awareness Network#FGKIA: Freely Given, Knowledgeable Informed Agreementhttps://www.instagram.com/standfirmvoice/Mark Vicente YouTube - Holy DeceptionMark Vicente - Statement at Raniere's SentencingMark Vicente - Statement at Nancy Salzman's SentencingWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Music: "In Time" by Kollen
11/1/202253 minutes, 10 seconds
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(NXIVM) Letter to the Inside - Part 3 of 4

In this Episode: (PART 3 of 4) In March 2018 I recognized Keith Raniere was about to be arrested. Along with my fellow whistleblowers, we had spent the previous 9 months trying to get people out of NXIVM. I made one final attempt en masse to get my friends (true believers) to wake up before Raniere was arrested. I wrote a long letter to a select few friends on ‘the inside’ on March 10th, 2018 - 16 days before Keith Raniere was arrested in a Mexican Villa on March 26th, 2018. I sent it mostly to lower ranks because I knew that if I included the top of the organization, the higher ranks would have blocked it. I needed my friends who received the letter to have time to absorb what I was saying before they had to report it up the chain of command. This was my desperate attempt to try and wake my friends up before the arrests began. ~ Mark Vicente Sections of the letter: Nancy Salzman, The Mantra, Permanent state of Terror, Mark Vicente's wife is a horrible abuser, Emotional Barrier Website: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Music: "In Time" by Kollen
10/29/202221 minutes, 9 seconds
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'The Vow' S2 - Episode 2 - Debrief

SPOILER ALERT! Scenes from Episode 2 will be discussed!In this Episode: Debrief of 'The Vow' Season 2 - Episode 2.Opening Title Sequence MusicSon Lux – "Dream State (Run From It) [feat. Bonnie Piesse]" (Official Audio)A Little Bit Culty Podcasthttps://www.instagram.com/alittlebitculty/Consent Awareness Network#FGKIA: Freely Given, Knowledgeable Informed Agreementhttps://www.instagram.com/standfirmvoice/Mark Vicente YouTube - Holy DeceptionMark Vicente - Statement at Raniere's Sentencing Mark Vicente - Statement at Nancy Salzman's SentencingWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Music: "In Time" by Kollen
10/25/20221 hour, 13 minutes, 20 seconds
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(NXIVM) Letter to the Inside - Part 2 of 4

In this Episode: (PART 2 of 4) In March 2018 I recognized Keith Raniere was about to be arrested. Along with my fellow whistleblowers, we had spent the previous 9 months trying to get people out of NXIVM. I made one final attempt en masse to get my friends (true believers) to wake up before Raniere was arrested. I wrote a long letter to a select few friends on ‘the inside’ on March 10th, 2018 - 16 days before Keith Raniere was arrested in a Mexican Villa on March 26th, 2018. I sent it mostly to lower ranks because I knew that if I included the top of the organization, the higher ranks would have blocked it. I needed my friends who received the letter to have time to absorb what I was saying before they had to report it up the chain of command. This was my desperate attempt to try and wake my friends up before the arrests began. ~ Mark Vicente Sections of the letter: Mastermind, The Tech, Abandon Morality, Mysticism."I've been doing this work for many years. I am nevertheless aghast at the level of contempt for women and cruelty toward women that is at the rotten core of this group. Raniere succeeds in fulfilling his sadistic need to enslave others through a kind of battering, his twisted rationales convincing followers, and not just the women, that self-torture and torture of others builds character.  In fact, what he does is utterly self-serving, exploiting others entirely to feed the delusion of his own omnipotence. Those who have been brainwashed with Raniere's hateful ideas about women will need time to free themselves from their conditioning, to be able to respect and trust themselves again."  ~ Daniel Shaw, LCSWWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Music: "In Time" by Kollen
10/21/202219 minutes, 34 seconds
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'The Vow' S2 - Episode 1 - Debrief

SPOILER ALERT! Scenes from Episode 1 will be discussed!In this Episode: Debrief of 'The Vow' Season 2 - Episode 1. A Little Bit Culty Podcasthttps://www.instagram.com/alittlebitculty/Cult DefinitionsSteve Hassan’s BITE Model What is a Cult? Whiteboard Animation Explaining the BITE Model Dr. Janja Lalich - Definition and Explanation of the Word “Cult” Rick Ross - Warning Signs Mark Vicente YouTube - Holy DeceptionMark Vicente - Statement at Raniere's Sentencing Website: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Music: "In Time" by Kollen
10/19/202254 minutes, 56 seconds
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(NXIVM) Letter to the Inside - Part 1 of 4

In this Episode: (PART 1 of 4) In March 2018 I recognized Keith Raniere was about to be arrested. Along with my fellow whistleblowers, we had spent the previous 9 months trying to get people out of NXIVM. I made one final attempt en masse to get my friends (true believers) to wake up before Raniere was arrested. I wrote a long letter to a select few friends on ‘the inside’ on March 10th, 2018 - 16 days before Keith Raniere was arrested in a Mexican Villa on March 26th, 2018. I sent it mostly to lower ranks because I knew that if I included the top of the organization, the higher ranks would have blocked it. I needed my friends who received the letter to have time to absorb what I was saying before they had to report it up the chain of command. This was my desperate attempt to try and wake my friends up before the arrests began. ~ Mark Vicente Sections of the letter: Grab a glass of wine, An Unspoken Credo, The Illuminati, Pam’s Death, Sudden Disappearance?, Multiple Attempts I began my  "Whistleblower Blog' on my website a few days before the New York Times broke the explosive article on October 17th, 2017 (Exactly 5 years before 'The VOW - Part II airs on HBO) It was my attempt to leave breadcrumbs for my friends who were trying to figure out what was going on. These are the links to the blog I referenced in the letter:(Read my blog starting on Episode 1 to understand ‘word-salad’) Episode 1 & 2 below: http://www.markvicente.com/whistleblower/2017/10/12/how-the-bleep-did-that-happen-episode-1 http://www.markvicente.com/whistleblower/2017/10/17/how-the-bleep-did-that-happen-episode-2 I didn’t realize at the time I was caught in what I now understand as 'Stage 7'.  You can read about it on my blog: http://www.markvicente.com/whistleblower/2017/10/24/how-the-bleep-did-that-happen-episode-9 "At this stage, some people try to reason with the leaders. They will either arrange for visits or write long agonizing letters. Some hope that they can change the system or get some to agree with them. They are AMAZED at the total inability of leaders to hear what they are saying. However, some will agree with their arguments, pat them on the head and try to smooth their ruffled feelings." Website: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Music: "In Time" by Kollen
10/16/202240 minutes, 7 seconds
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Episode 4 - 'The Vow' Season 1 - Q&A

In this episode: Answering questions about 'The Vow'Season 1 and an ANNOUNCEMENT about multipart WTF podcast episodes that will drop during the release of 'The Vow' Season 2 on HBOMax.'The Vow' Season 2 will start airing on October 17th, 2022 on HBO. Website: https://www.hbo.com/the-vow ESP (NXIVM) Mission Statementhttps://www.markvicente.com/esp-mission-statementWebsite: www.markvicente.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/markvicente/Twitter: https://twitter.com/markvicenteFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/markvicente/Music: "In Time" by Kollen
10/9/20221 hour, 30 seconds