the world is filled with things to like but perhaps more so with things to dislike. here is a collection of minor things that i find annoying and make me wonder if everything is ok with me. thank you for listening, please give the show a rating (or a review!) and if you want more follow me on instagram @iloveloitering or @gaelaitor

how do you create euphoria? i think i have a theory. we all have moments we can think of when it felt like our life was falling apart, whether it was a crushing loneliness or a deep heartbreak. point is, things were rough. yet here we are. maybe more alive than ever? this is a reflection on everything we've overcome and why that's the reason euphoria can exist in the first place. follow me if you wanna @gaelaitor or @iloveloitering new episodes every friday

gael spends a lot of time loitering in interesting places because what else is there to do in this world? all of his lingering here and there has filled his brain with observations, thoughts, and experiences that he must share with the world before his brain runs out of storage. so, from the comfort of his living room, and at times, wherever the wind takes him, he has decided to spill his mind to you. once in a while, you might get an interesting piece of wisdom, but if you don’t, gael hopes you at least remember this one thing: learn to love loitering because loitering is existing. New episodes every Friday! For more loitering follow @iloveloitering on all socials and for more gael @gaelaitor everywehre

hi! it's been almost a year since i uploaded an episode, so here's an explanation of why. also updating you on some exciting things happening >:) keep up with me on instagram @gaelaitor

being responsible for my life is hard

perspective

A telling of my experience with privilege, small successes, and higher education. 

A telling of what love feels like, how it starts, and what it means to me. 

A notebook of my feelings regarding being alone and why I feel shame whenever I am.  Songs used: Surrender - Suicide Cherry - Harry Styles Y Volvere - Los Angeles Negros 

fear of letting people control my emotions

what a nerd

you hypocrite 

r u tho?

TW: mentions of suicide 

i live streamed this episode

influenced

I love making friends but I am so selective and rarely find someone interesting enough to have a friendship with.

why?

This episode is to give you some background noise while you do your work.

I can't ever seem to enjoy breaks. It really just makes me feel like I should be doing something productive. While I ever feel like I have done enough? Probably not

I'm too scared to show my personality because I always catch myself saying dumb things or looking like a fool because I show my excitement, so maybe I should stop.

Your friends have probably left you out of an inside joke before, haven't they? You've also probably made a mistake that you genuinely regret but can no longer go back to the way things were. That's what I talk about this episode.

I can honestly say that I was not happy with who I was. I was lying to myself by saying I was. Are you?

Take a moment to be alone with your thoughts. Are you happy?

The first step in doing something is always the hardest. Especially when doing something new. If you would have started sooner where would you be?

Some people really have the courage to get mad at you for being mad at them.

Sometimes it's nice to hear someone ask if you are okay. Instead of always taking care of everyone, it's a good feeling to know someone is taking care of you.

This is Unfinished Thoughts. If you decide to stick around after listening to this. I really appreciate you.