Russ divulges some of his origin story sexually. Our moral compass is formed pretty early in life. It’s their to protect us from the chaos of our random environment. How do our thoughts about sex shape our self worth as we move through this life?

Part 2 of my Chat with Jeff Bettger lead singer of Ninety Pound Wuss, Raft of Dead Monkeys and Suffering and the Hideous Thieves. Jeff as involved in mens purity, grace and Redemption groups. Suffering also performed music with Mars Hill Church in Seattle, Washington where he served as a Pastor for Biblical Living / Arts Ministry until 2013. He is now working on a project called DRYBNZ. Ride and save with Lyft, the app for wallet-friendly rides. Use my link for up to $50 in free Lyft credit! Terms apply. https://lyft.com/ic/RUSS878295

Pulling a weed will always leave a brown bear spot. Sometimes long-term victory over our sexual compulsion can be the hard part. I read a heavy hearted listeners email and talk about some of my own story as it relates to life after sex addiction.

Thinking out loud episode. A friend asks, when it comes to trust, what makes you value someones advice? And when it comes to the failure rate of 12 step and megachurches what has one trusting the people leading those organizations?

A healing path is as unique as the human on that path. What can trip us up is the belief in a one size fits all corse of action. And then over time when that doesn’t work we start to think Is freedom even possible? In this episode I invite listeners in to some of the rocky places on my unique path encouraging you to embark on your own unique path.

A conversation with Cash Peters. British author and broadcaster who writes on travel and spiritual matters, published 14 books, analyses handwriting and so much more. Intro is me putting some of these recent ways of walking, thinking and awakening to use. In this new road of my jorney. Loss and maturity as I lost my Mom this week...

The ASI podcast the journey of optimistic outcasts on a somewhat happy, sad, energetic, enthusiastic, lethargic, fearful, doubt ridden yet hopeful relentless pursuit of healing. And whats that is gonna look like for the future of the ASI podcast?

Post Mars Hill Church Randall and I discuss "Christians", Seattle's LGBT community, life, Jesus, faith and social constructs in the aftermath of a failed long term "Real" organized religious experiment.

17 years and one month after starting the ASI podcast I start episode one of the series finale. An epilogue for the ASI podcast.

In the history of the ASI podcast there’s been a progression. During BLACKOUT the last show encouraged people to talk about their unwanted sexual behaviors. Bring it out in the light with someone. It doesn’t have to be your spouse but if you get caught (which is really easy right now) or you tell them it’s out in the light and you must deal with it. Through bravery and vulnerability things change and even heal over time. Being cooped up is a recipe for corals it’s also a recipe for quiet. Some intentional purposeful audio by some experts in this episode as well. ASI247.org

This episode has been sliced up in to bite size chunks, for mental digestive purposes. Status Update PART 1 What's up with ASI and Russ Shaw? PART 1 The Queen ant metaphor revisited.

Listener on ASI's Facebook group Heart, Mind, Love, Sex and Affection asks... What was your partner’s response to your acting out? Did your wife need recovery after your acting out? How was her childhood and your marriage prior to you acting out?

What is the approach when it comes to focusing in on trying to solve a sex problem? Learning some lessons from people and organisations who spend way more energy on judging the path over walking the path. What does Lady Gaga, the film Dodgeball (A True Underdog Story) and the Apostle Paul have in common? We get into the left brain, right brain understandings of reason, meaning and instruction. Are film makers, song writers and poets highlighting the fact that our feelings are deceptive or undervalued? One could say both, right? How would looking at our lives as a story transform the path we are on?

Kicking off 2019 with an important conversation with Jay Stringer author of Unwanted: How Sexual Brokenness Reveals Our Way to Healing. Revealing that which is unwanted in 2019! Knowledge brings opportunity and Unwanted is a ground-breaking resource that explores the WHY behind self-destructive sexual choices.

Christmas episode and end-of-the-year review of 2018. Lots of material to cover as Russ Reacts to email Facebook messenger and tweets with questions asked and cognitive dissonance to be resolved. Closing the lid on 2018.

Conversation with Eddie Capparucci certified sexual addiction counselor by the American Association of Christian Counselors. A talk about our secret emotional photo albums. And embracing the questions like, Why can't you just leave my in the past?

Another email and message responce show, and Russ Reads Listener surveys!

Daniel Pryor on the ASI podcast! MA, licensed, master's level counselor and life coach. Daniel offers a wide range of experience and services addressing life situations and emotional, behavioral, spiritual and relational needs, to families and individual adults of all ages.

Relapes happens. Talking autonomy and mastery as well as getting in to some of the truth about the slippage. With Stephen Kuhn

Can anything good come out of a relapse? Truth is new life giving coping skills can develop the longer we diligently continue down the path of sexual integrity. Is the endurance of temptation and our relationship with God are meant to free our souls? Or keep us in some religious bondage?

Interview with Stephen Kuhn, Author of 10 Lies Men Believe about Porn. The battle to resist pornography is brutal. Its lure just seems too powerful. We've tried for years to be strong, run away from temptation, and manage our desires in better ways. No matter how hard we try, though, we just can't get free from pornography. Some of us have lost all hope. 10 Lies Men Believe about Porn holds these lies up against the truth that sets hearts free.

Mindfulness Strategies For hopeful future Valentine’s days

So, what do I do when, feel totally frustrated and out of gas?

S03 Episode 29 - Step 8 Secrets the Gray area Between Truth and Lies

Halloween 2013 Zombies, Vampires, Sex and juxtaposed worldviews

Season 3 of this podcast is about Results! Psych Proffs and Religious professionals will not agree so… THIS SEASON let us Focused on long term RESULTS!!!! Some have been saying sexual ethics over sexual addiction in the 21st Century is a hopeless fight, Common Russ, Maybe we have evolved past monogamy as human beings! The historical record of the human race as proven weak family structures lead to weak social structures, over and over again. Once addicted, there is freedom and it is a way better life then being an addict.

In Recovery I was persuaded to put objective faith in subjective ideas. So I thought, when people where trying to present me with new attitudes toward my behavior.Truth be Told, Integrity occurs when the truth claim of the addiction that’s eroding our life becomes Subjective and life giving ethical truth becomes Objective.

An Email influnced show, Breaking the icy cold silence! "Confrontation"Call the police! Of course, but it’s easier said then done isn’t it? In most cases the perpetrator is known to the victim. In most cases the victim to hurt, blind sided and ashamed to speak up.Guest Justin Holcomb co-author of Rid of My Disgrace talks with Russ about the emotional and spiritual Impact as it relates to the reality of reporting the most devastating and the most under reported crimes in history.

Good or bad, heat or chilling cold, life is stress!Truth be told we do get disciplined over time. At work, in things we enjoy like games, relationships it all takes some time and work right? Behavior & actions are birthed out of the spirit! It's less about new advice, more information and shoving in discipline in from the outside. Lasting behavior change comes from the application of what we learn out of the over flow of a new heart!

cour•age [kur-ij, kuhr-] noun 1.The quality of mind or spirit that enables a person to face difficulty, danger, pain, etc., without fear; bravery. 2. Obsolete. The heart as the source of emotion. From Dictionary.com, a free online dictionary with pronunciation, synonyms and translations!

From Dictionary.com | find the meaning free•dom [free-duh m] noun 1. the state of being free or at liberty rather than in confinement or under physical restraint: He won his freedom after a retrial. 2. exemption from external control, interference, regulation, etc. 3. the power to determine action without restraint. 4. political or national independence. 5. personal liberty, as opposed to bondage or slavery: a slave who bought his freedom.

#10Commandments - Classic ASI

In the reality of Macro and Micro disasters, “I will Never leave you or forsake you.” - God

Faith and theology meet the real life world of woundedness, Recovery and addictions.My interview with Mike Wilkerson, one of the leaders and founders of Redemption groups at Mars Hill Church in Seattle, about his new book, Redemption: Freed by Jesus from the Idols We Worship and the Wounds We Carry.

My faith is not in the hackers ability to crack my encryption attempts.My faith is in the One who has redeamed me and my knolage of that keeps me safe. Therefore my own efforts at protecting myself are minimal at best. Either He is our Keeper, or He isn’t. Yes, we should not be presumptuous and should use Common Sense, but we have lost sight of what true common sense is. How do we define LOVE? And as a result, how will we demonstrate LOVE in response? If we are driven by dark anxious fear, it is not of God.

> Time magazine reported, At the 2003 meeting of the American Academy of Matrimonial Lawyers online porn contributing to more than half of divorces in the U.S. Richard Barry, president of the association said "Pornography had an almost nonexistent role in divorce just seven or eight years ago." > 70 percent of all internet porn traffic occurs during the 9-to-5 workday. > Today, More people are terminated from there Job for inappropriate web use then alcoholism. > The sex addict uses sex as a quick fix, or as a form of medication for anxiety, pain, loneliness, stress, or sleep. Sex addicts often refer to sex as their "pain reliever" or "tension reliever." In a popular novel, the heroine describes sex as "the thinking women's Valium." Its time for a change! The Church historically as turned a blind eye to the fact of sexual misconduct. This Church is taking a stand! Paul says to the Corinthians "It is actually reported that there is sexual immorality among you, and of a kind that is not tolerated even among pagans," This is now, today. This from the Barna report. "Born-again" Christians are more likely to go through a marital split than are non-Christians, according to a new study by the Barna Research Group.  Revelation 2:29 "Are your ears awake? Listen. Listen to the Wind Words, the Spirit blowing through the churches." (the message translation) Have Christians today got good at making every thing look good on the surface? Jesus said in Luke 4:16-19 "The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim liberty to the captives and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty those who are oppressed, to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor." Do we abide in that truth or merely believe it?

EPH 6:17 and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God,Lyrics: Linkin Park - Easier to Run It's easier to run Replacing this pain with something numb It's so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone Something has been taken From deep inside of me A secret I've kept locked away No one can ever see Wounds so deep they never show They never go away Like moving pictures in my head For years and years they've played If I could change I would Take back the pain I would Retrace every wrong move that I made I would If I could take all the shame to the grave I would, Its easier to run!

The shield of Faith - I want to call your attention to this one piece of the armor carried by the blood bought. The shield that Paul had in mind here is not the small, round dish looking thing, but the oblong, door-like shield, measuring 4' x 2 ', curved to the shape of the body and carried by the Greek and Roman soldiers. When joined together, these large shields formed a wall behind which a body of troops could hide themselves from the rain of the enemy's missiles. These military shields were made of wood, covered on the out side with thick leather, which not only deadened the shock of the missile, but protected the frame of the shield from the fire-tipped darts used in the artillery of the ancients. Contrary to popular teaching, faith is not mental delusion, behavior replacement or presumption and it is not evidenced by self-bolstering surface sucess, but a work of the Holy Spirit from the inside out. Roots to fruits.EPH 6:16 (KJV) "Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked." Rom 10:17 (NIV) Faith comes by hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word of Christ.

Episode 76 - The Exhale Episode!Stand firm, therefore, having fastened the belt of truth around your waist, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness,  EPH 6:14Ever feel like this… Putting on righteousness how does that work? Just get right!? Just stop doing that!? Like righteousness in just something I can pick up and put on?! I’ve tried, That!!! They told me just do these steps and it will all go away and I’m still stuck!Please God help! Russ attempts to answer what it is to put on the breast plate of righteousness, in the realm of sexual integrity.  

Life is 20% what happens to you and 80% how you react to that 20%Ephesians 6 (The Message)  10-12 And that about wraps it up. God is strong, and he wants you strong. So take everything the Master has set out for you, well-made weapons of the best materials. And put them to use so you will be able to stand up to everything the Devil throws your way. This is no afternoon athletic contest that we'll walk away from and forget about in a couple of hours. This is for keeps, a life-or-death fight to the finish against the Devil and all his angels. The Message Bible Copyright © 1993, 1994, 1995, 1996, 2000, 2001, 2002 by Eugene H. Peterson

Are you so sick of it!? How sick of it are you? How bad do you to get clean!? How bad to you want freedom? It is possible! You can get free of this. I tell you as a fellow travler through this life. You can Be YOU with out the affliction of sexual sin. Music by Flyleaf.

Episode 26 - Porn or sex Addiction? Aching Hunger? sOver and over the fight can be many things to you. How do we gain ground in this mind vs. spirit battle. Russ answers more Email and talks about new ways of looking at the battle more strategies to help kill this aching hunger!

Dose calling it "sex addiction" Take away some personal responsibility? Once and addict always an addict right? Russ talks about the attitude reactions needed to break those chains that keep us in slavery.

Identify the enemy. Here Russ draws some powerful emotional word pictures to address the forces holding you in bondage to slavery of sex or porn addiction.

Does God exist, and if He does, why does He allow such great injustice and evil to flourish? Is it really possible to find unconditional and lasting love? Russ's chat with Hugh Nemets the DEAD JEW WALKING. A Jewish Man's Journey from Death to Life, Check out www.DeadJewWalking.com

I just want my unwanted behavior to go away! Are there really approaches that will just merely take it away? Or is there a process of awakening, surrendering and maturity that happens in the process? Seth Taylor and I talk about pilgrimage and the expansion of sacred ground and spiritual understanding that comes with taking on such a sticky, stubborn unwanted behavior.

S07E09 If you keep doing what you’ve always done, you keep getting what you’ve always got. Most of us have heard that line before. But what about when it comes to our closely held belief structures? Where does the fear come from? Today I am humbled and honored to have Andrew and David Taylor on the Podcast. David is the identical twin brother of Seth Taylor who co-wrote the book Feels Like Redemption and who started the My Pilgrimage.com and Facebook group which I highly recommend. And Andrew Taylor is David‘s son! David and Andrew talk about launching the new My Pilgrimage podcast soon.

The Halloween, all Saints Day, Reformation Day show! Ever have a vivid dream about someone who’s passed away? And why do those dreams tend to have that person giving us wisdom and/or direction? And ASI’s dawn and sunset with Kanye?

Post Mars Hill Church Randall and I discuss "Christians", Seattle's LGBT community, life, Jesus, faith and social constructs in the aftermath of a failed long term "Real" organized religious experiment.

Season five episode 40 Scott's story Russ records a conversation with his friend Scott. Scott's not a guy from the "purity movement" but a guy who's dealt with devastating blow's via love choking fear and shame. It's marked explicit and it's intense... Listeners you've been warned.

Season 4 was a exploring what makes us do what we do and why. Energy IS and will be Spent. ASI is About trading energy spent on our genitals for energy spent on real, full life. And what's even our own personal definition of motivation? is God Love? What does Love got to do with it?

I wrote some surveys which have been on the website for a few years. My motivation in doing? So I could ask listeners nine questions that they probably have never been asked before from the perspective of someone who shared in the struggle of sexually compulsive behavior from my perspective on the other side. For the last few months people haven’t filled out the surveys completely. I get it. I go through one of the surveys and answer all the questions on this episode myself. As well as try to explain why the survey page exists.

In the midst of a global pandemic how are we pouring out? How is the fear, anxiety working its way through our bodies? Sex is a powerful coping mechanism what does it look like to move through this kind of global storm?

What's up with ASI and Russ Shaw? After some time and some movment of counchiousness. Going through the motions reminds me of that line from the film The Shawshank Redemption "Get Busy Living or get Busy Dieing" How about your future status update? Ever catch yourself, asking yourself the question "I'm I the person I thought I would be five years ago?"

What's up with ASI and Russ Shaw? is Russ Shaw a progressive? What do atheists and christians have in common especially when it comes to sexual ethics? I answer a listeners concerns about weather or not I'm a "progressive". As a body of work has it raised my self-esteem but has it lowered my faith in Christ? Some extra thoughts on the queen and metaphor. How about your future status update? Ever catch yourself, asking yourself the question "I'm I the person I thought I would be five years ago?".

What is NoFap and why is the movement still growing? Russ talks about some ASI season 6 approaches to the amazing place that is NoFap. Shares some of the stories and how he has responded to some of those posts by fapstronauts. ASI247.org

When large religious organizations hide from allegations of sexual misconduct is it encouraging a level of intimacy disorder? Rick Theissen and I talk about failures of leadership, moral code and breaking trust. And I ask Rick why he still wants to continue with hosting the GLS Despite Willow’s reputation and failures of leadership in keeping vulnerable women safe.

Episode 25 Initially planned on naming this the humble-purposeful attitude of integrity but grew in to a talk on missguided authority and trust building. I answered some emails, some messages and talk about my worldview on who I let influence me in my life and why. Do we really become most like people we let influence us in our life? Is sexually compulsiveness a symptom of equateing shallow relationship with acceptance and belonging? Is there layers to friendship and companionship? Does it point to spiritual maturity when you can still be in a relationship with someone you disagree with?

Episode 14 Jim Henderson interview. Is Spiritual Pride is more Dangerous than Sexual Immorality? Yes and why? Ask yourself, How did the church ever become a safe place for religious bullies?

Relapes happens and shame is like cancer. Stephen Kuhn and Craig Gross getting in to the thick of the impact of relapse and slippage on the ASI podcast. Is it shame or addictive and compulsive behavior thats the cancer? What motivates and changes us for the long term? A new season of ASI with more interviews and more open discussion about the attitudes that free prisoners. Season 4 Biblical truth and modern day social science asking tough questions about sex and the truth of human motivation.

Interview with Scott Mitchell Everett to Texas

An open, honest interview with Derek Hann

"These go to 11" - Nigel, (Spinal Tap)Spring, Easter, new life and a new attitude!? Are "lovers" merely sexual partners? What is true love and is love true?!

Interview with John Gaitan!

Talk to God?! Why, I thought, don’t he got it all figured out any way?What does it mean to Pray or really talk to God?PRAYER… To pray; 1.) Humbly asking God for help or assistance 2.) Praising God in thanksgiving and/or goodness in life. 3.) Building relationship, talking to God, Listening for God. Praying as you would talking to another person.

Cleaning out my hard drive I found a lotta content!So here, Some Outtake Shows. ASI247.org

Gratitude changes the heart and in turn changes attitude and mood! It’s mindfulness, Being mindful of The things we like, the people we love and the gifts we have and things were good at, and most importantly being mindful, with a thankfull heart of God who is the creator of the these things we enjoy.

How do we stop stealing when/if stealing is all we know? And how do we live in the truth when that truth may knock down like dominos the security of who we believe we actually are? The Truth is in reviled realities!

Season 5 Some intentional purposeful audio via Richard Rohr Episode 21 Crossing boundaries is part of the human experience. Question, are we ready to do the scary work of crossing the line in to stillness? Working through any life choking addiction is an inner experience. It will be an intimate walk with God. And the spirit will move in you from the inside out. Richard Rohr's talk given in Norwich Cathedral an English cathedral located in Norwich, Norfolk, a Cathedral dedicated to the Holy and Undivided Trinity. And on the subject of Trinity, Richard in 2016 wrote a book called The Divine Dance which is in bookstores everywhere and former guest Paul young wrote the forward!

Kicking off a new season, What it is! And… some news! AS I 24 hours a day, 7 Days a week!

Zombies and Some Neuroscience, Not dead undead? Sexually addicted, I was Feeling like I was in some kind of desire labyrinth, as the spirit and mind would fight to drive my “want too’s” and point me in different directions.

Addicts use there addiction to cope! Constantly slipping is birthed out of a HEART living under fear and alienation produced by tyranny of the thought filled HEADS dictatorship.

#10Commandments - Classic ASI A real life look at the social pressures to stay stuck and the reality of breaking the 10th commandment.

Russ reads listeners surveys! And what is the nature of this strange pull, thirst or hunger that hijacks our will? Is it that we don't know what to do? Or is it the difficulty level of making a hard decision? Some wisdom from a philosophy professor at Ruckers University. And live for the spirit and died to the flesh? What does that really mean anyway?

A Talk by Tim Keller on Music, sex and the romantic solution at Redeemer Presbyterian in New York City. As well as Russ Shaw's concise misfit commentary after.

My, not blind faith becoming a Christian (not a Blood sucking religious person) because of statics mathematics and irreducible complexity. Truth is what really made me a believer? Hurt can build a stoney crusty layer around the heart, if we choose to numb ourselves in the midtst of pain the result is zombieland. Feeding on flesh without careing. Taking from others with out love, shark attitude rather then servant. Why in zombie land is there more flesh eating sharks then humble willing to give servants?I'm way to selfish and not as spiritual as I would like to be. But I do thank God he's still working on me and I'm not as selfish as I was.

Just when you think your content, life gets messy and painful.Truth is life is short. And life is being poured out every day as time goes by.A special show with a closer look at Steve Jobs. What can we glean from this man and what can he teach us about overcomming addictions having a purpose driven life?

Cognitive Dissonance is the feeling of uncomfortable tension which comes from holding two conflicting thoughts in the mind at the same time.Addiction is that dissonance in the soul. I don’t want to do the things I keep doing! HELP! Truth Be Told… Can we take a good hard honest look at how we solve the dissonance of unwanted behavior?

I thought I had gotten over the abuses in my past, but I hadn’t dealt with the scars preventing me from getting close to other people and, worst of all... Theft and Disgrace, Guest author of Rid of my Disgrace, Justin Holcomb

#10Commandments

Jesus is the shepherd! Not Me, not you, not religious people! Revelation 7:17 for the Lamb in the center of the throne will be their shepherd, and will guide them to springs of the water of life; and God will wipe every tear from their eyes."

Air War and ground War! Action and Heart. Ending the 6th commandment on and encouraging note! It’s not what you do but who you are. Who your are changes what you do from the inside out.

Episode 89 – Haiti, running to the church and pushing back what’s dark in the world! How will your story help?A battle cry for purity! Wait! What’s purity? Purity, Really? Is that even possible? Russ goes in to more detail about his continued recovery. I have been free from the prison of habitual sexual sin AKA sexual addiction for going on 5 years now and I know now more then ever that I’m never going back. But…Gods still doing the work of loving surgeon in me. "putting the old, pissed off, temper tantrum having, indignant, reactionary me to death, Daily." words I wrote over a year ago. Choosing to heal and not be stuck. Growing to be less of the disaster, that is me.

Episode 87 – Death to Life, Die to begin again.The ASI Podcast and the host Russ Shaw What is ASI and why should I still listen? Addiction Recovery and redemption and dead leaves in the fall.“The question is not whether power exists for triumphant living, day by day the Question is will you use it”  - Dr. Mark D Futato Professor @ Reformed Theological Seminary

The Matrix and "ALONE" what is this feeling of being trapped inside ones self? Loneliness is an emotional state in which a person experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. How do we get fully Alive and bust out of the matrix?

Episode 54 - What do I do with my heart? (part 2)Church people many times give good manerd advice say "Just Trust God" Or "Just Repent and you'll be fine!" WHAT DOES THAT MEAN! Another year should I do another resolution? Has anyone really been in my shoes? Has any one felt how I feel, stuck in this prison of habitual sin. How do I get to real heart change? Can Jesus really help me? Or is that just more religion and psychology? So what do I do with my heart? Over coming sexual addiction is no walk in the park!

The same way that people can become addicted to drugs, alcohol or gambling, they can become addicted to sex,  anything from Internet sex to obsessive masturbation to affairs. How do we pick up the pieces and repair our relationships when the betrail cuts so deep? How do we connect in the midst of this? How do we discover the one, in the two becomeing one? Who are we? What have WE become?

Nothing can lock a soul up in total hell like isolation like sexual abuse. Russ asks Larry what kind of approaches offenders use to keep victims in the sick cycle abuse. What makes a child become a sex offender? How in this sex saturated culture of 2006 do we protect our kids from childhood sexual abuse?

Who really knows you? Ever say You don't know me! Inside your heart or out loud in a emotional lashing out! Plus Who do you love? Ever feel like I messed up to much this time. Ever feel like "It's over?" Russ encourages you to Never Quit! Ever! Never ever give up on your relationship with your spouse! Never Give up!

Episode 5 Russ and Dr. Clark talk about the doctors book Say Goodbye to Stubborn Sin. A surgeon explains the fleshy nature that holds the keys of  behavior that drives you back to those same old stubborn sins.

As someone who studied pretty extensively the correlation between trust and well-being I wonder how spiritual sojourners here may unpack penal substitutionary atonement. To me I believe the reason it is so popular is because each denomination (or non-denomination) of religion gets to sell us their jesus as a brand and how (our Jesus) keeps you from the father crumpling you up and throwing you into hell like a piece of trash. You better come back here because we’ve got the Jesus you need! PSA is Believing that God the father is so holy he can’t help but see you as totally depraved and Disgusting. In PSA they can dress it up however they want theologically but at the end of the day they unpack the one Trinitarian God as some bipolar loanshark needing his pound of flesh from his kid Jesus

Is it true that The road to recovery goes through your childhood? Does real, lasting freedom from our stubborn unwanted behaviors mean we move must go through our childhood trauma? Why can’t we just leave the past in the past? Eddie stops by the podcast once again to talk about his new book Going Deeper, How the Inner Child Impacts your Sexual Addiction.

Sympathy or empathy for the Scrooge? What does sex have to do with it? And what can the story of Scrooge teach us about the roots of the most stubborn of compulsive behaviors? ASI is a listener supported podcast donations are the reason it exists please give at ASI247.org

Last season Compulsion to Creativity!? And Attitude equles Energy yes! And Doesn’t pulling off any creative indevor take goal setting? So what are the major things that block goals from being accomplished? Mistaking scars for wounds...?

Sex has been demonized for centuries. Who is the D-EVIL? I think it’s one of the ways we get, the flesh and the spirit being at war, is confused.Are we putting a name or character to the evil we would like to see or believe is always 'out there'? Is the devil a scapegoat for trauma? Is this why is the saying, 'the devil made me do it' is so popular? Do we use the devil as a way of not really talking about but as a natural result, projecting our own trauma?

Why does ASI have a different approach to SA? Is there a relational component that's missing from most approaches? In this episode Marc Azoulay and I talk about codependency and gaslighting. What if you were the only thing that is in your way?

Season 7 kick off podcast! Russ explains in four minutes how to kick sex and or porn addiction! First show of 2020. And some plans for the road ahead.

Under the weight of habitual unwanted behaviors. Is Love a passionless, theological idea? Does a real love feel and can it even suffer or stir our affections? What does it really mean to say God Loves you? Has the startling truth about the love of God has lost its potency? Whether you grew up in a Christian home and have forgotten this essential truth, or you never knew it in the first place, we all need to be reminded and assured that God's love is real and intensely personal. Support the podcast Ride and save with Lyft, the app for wallet-friendly rides. Use my link for up to $50 in free Lyft credit! Terms apply. https://lyft.com/ic/RUSSASI or use Promo code ASIRUSS when you dowanload from the app store.

When the urge to rub one out, comes calling is there a deeper need our bodies are working to get our attention About? Could it when we are horny, it's not just sex our bodies are thirsty for?

What is the need under the hunger and thirst is really about acceptance? How do developed mental messages of value and worth shape and mold our vision of self? Is self care "selfish"? If we don’t except ourselves how can we understand what it means to except and be excepted in a functional human relationships?!

Do we end up haunting our own lives with relational unfinished business? The cognitive dissonance around relational attachments and being known. Russ continues to unpack intimacy disorder while addressing things said in earlier shows about his own journey and story.

Motivate me! Get back up one more time! How does that feel? How does it feel when ‘one more time’ loses its hope? We all want to be moved and hopefully moved forward but in seeking forward moving motivations can we sign up for motivations that are counterproductive? Motivations that sell us on moving us forward but actually put us in reverse? Russ explores what it looks like to do a deep dive on what is really motivating us to stay stuck, move in reverse or what, we all want to feel better. To see a more hopeful set of days and to boldly move forward.

A Conversation with W. Paul Young New York Times best selling author of "The Shack" and "Crossroads". Feeling at a crossroads about the direction of life? I heard it once said that our heart is like a garden hose with no shut off valve. "The Shack is a metaphor for the human heart, I had no idea it would be such a hit" - W. Paul Young

Step 2 Understanding God?! What is, and how do we break the habit of R.I. or confirmation bias?!

Part 1 of my Chat with Jeff Bettger lead singer of Ninety Pound Wuss, Raft of Dead Monkeys and Suffering and the Hideous Thieves. Was involved in mens purity, grace and Redemption groups. Suffering also performed music with Mars Hill Church in Seattle, Washington where he served as a Pastor for Biblical Living / Arts Ministry until 2013. He is now working on a project called DRYBNZ. Ride and save with Lyft, the app for wallet-friendly rides. Use my download link for up to $50 in free Lyft credit! Terms apply. https://lyft.com/ic/RUSS878295

Feels like Redemption, Part 1 of my Conversation with Seth Taylor. Do you feel like addiction is a crisis of belief? An interruption of consciousness? Both and...? All ingredients in this conversation with Mr. Seth Taylor writer, philosopher, theologian, mystic, soccer coach, and author of Feels Like Redemption published by XXX Church

Craig Gross and Shaunti Feldhah intentional purposeful audio.Find out what Craig Gross and bestselling author Shaunti Feldhahn's research reveals about the inner lives of men will open women's eyes to what the men in their life boyfriends, brothers, husbands, and sons see. Part 2 or 2 Check out menarevisual.com

Some email and message responce and some IPA or Intentional Purposeful Audio from Donald Miller about his book Scary Close

The Shack heresy, bad theology? Or is it a story that inspires healing in the human soul? Paul Young's story The Shack... Is it a theology book that explains the Trinity? Or a story that encourages healing? In my experience most people who I've met that criticize The Shack have never read it. They have only heard from other people who have criticized it and this stirs up fear. The film comes out this month and I'm sure it will cause controversy as well. But for all those who never read The Shack, should you see the film at least before criticizing it as some adaptation of a book about doctrine, theology or how we "should" think about God?

Jayson Graves of HealingForTheSoul.org! You’ve probably got a sick feeling in your stomach. Or you may be scared, lonely, and ashamed, feeling sure no one can help. Maybe you’ve hit rock bottom and you feel no one can understand. From the pain in your heart and mind you may be screaming, “Can anybody help me? Is there a way out?” Yes there is. There is hope. ASI Season 5 ASI247.org https://www.gofundme.com/savethetimemachine thank you for supporting independent art.

 Are pych experts and behavioral science finally recognizing sexual addiction as a debilitating disorder? And... Spend more time with widening our influence or deepening it?

Taking a deeper honest hard look at the 12 steps. Focusing in on 1, 2 and 3 Answering a little Email

So, What really moves the heart?! From the YouTube sessions.The Podcast on air, ASI 24 hours a day, 7 Days a week! ASI247.org

Madness… Sexual Ethics, norm formation, giving and receiving Love?! Killing the quit dragon and resurrecting the application of healing.

Albert Einstein Said "No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it." A listeners survey and Russ has an early morning coffee shop conversation with his friend Chuck. Put on your seatbelt for this controversial, inspiring and encouraging conversation. Hear as a first hand audio witness to his fear facing, demon reviling, heart freeing journey of growth and healing.

We may know the power of forgiveness but it is easier to say, and know that then put it in to practice. Truth be told forgiveness is a choice, an on going decision and a process. How do we move from to knowing the path, to walking the path?

How do you define beauty? And... What is your object of beauty?

Attitudes of sexual integrity and sexual ethics.A review of the most imporantant of the 10.The 1st and 2nd and the 3rd commandments that calls Gods people to heartfelt embrace rather than trivializing the faith.2 Corinthians 7:10 For godly grief produces a repentance that leads to salvation without regret, whereas worldly grief produces death.The correspondence bias is the tendency to draw inferences about a person's unique and enduring dispositions from behaviors that can be entirely explained by the situations in which they occur. When people observe other’s behavior they often attribute that behavior to dispositional traits rather than situational factors (Aronson, Wilson, & Akert, 2007). The tendency for people to overemphasize personality based explanations and underemphasize situational factors is known as the correspondent bias (Miyamoto & Kitayama 2002).

The longest show ever. A ask the former sex addict anything, Conclusion?Questions answered: Where have I been? Surface steps or drilling deeper? What about masturbation? Handling hypersexual dreams? In this show I’ll give you some realistic steps toward motivation, application and strategy. http://asi247.org

Russ talks about the space between thought and action. What’s the perspective from someone who admittedly has suffered from sexually compulsive behavior? With sexual harassment cases making the headlines like no other time in history is the culture finally waking up to how women have been treated for generations?

Talking Sex, Transparency and Rock and Roll with, Musician, Mariner, Chaplain and Pastor of Port Gardner Bay Church in Everett Washington.

What if Prayer is Syncing up with the way God created things to be? - Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name, your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.

A Prayer of… Is a real heart level prayer an act of surrender? Are the reasons to pray needs, peace, gratitude, vision and freedom?PRAYER… To pray; 1.) Humbly asking God for help or assistance 2.) Praising God in thanksgiving and/or goodness in life. 3.) Building relationship, talking to God, Listening for God. Praying as you would talk to another person.

What if Sexual Addiction or Compulsive sexual behavior is a symptom of needing to touch and be touched at a deeper level then the heart has previous experienced?Touch –  Dictionary.com 1.) Come so close to (an object) as to be or come into contact with it.2.) Arousing strong feelings of sympathy, appreciation, or gratitude.

Courage 1.The quality of mind or spirit that enables a person to face difficulty, danger, pain, etc., without fear.Time (life is a progression of defining moments) Identity (who you are today, not who you were)My Definitions (How do I define words that will impact my attitude and direction, today?)

TBT3, Russ answers some email and goes over some notes on the 9th commandment from the lectures by Dr. John Frame. S.A. in the news i.e. scandal surrounding Anthony Weiner.TBT? A lie does not have to be true to make a deep devastating impact. It simply has to be believed. Realizing sexual addiction is a symptom of a deeper infection. Healing from it is going to require focusing the bulk of our efforts on treating the infection over the symptoms. And seeing where we have traded truth for a lies.

Addiction... My Own Worst Enemy? What about other people in the world? Should we celebrate the death of another humen being who is our enemy?

Why do some churches focus so much energy on divorce care? "Thou shalt not commit adultery" Exodus 20:14. This has always been God's law!

The Fifth Commandment (Part 1)Honor your Mom and Dad! A requirement by God? Really a Commandment?! Yes, Love a real not self serving kind of love, can be taken on in our own heart by asking our selves   “how we do the relationship with the closest people to us?” any many times that starts with how I do relationship with Mom and Dad. Learning to Love deeper sometimes takes seeing what we learned to be the norm growing up. What does it look like to love unconditionally in a world where things can and have and will, gone so wrong? Realistically is there such a thing as unconditional love? And honestly what does it really mean to be in a Covent relationship?

Episode 82 - The Full Armor of God – last show the stuff I missed. The New Young!? Why is there so many references to the “new life” or “new beginnings” in Christianity? Can’t anybody stick with it? What dose it really mean to be young, again?Romans 8:35-39 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? 36 As it is written, "For your sake we are being killed all the day long;we are regarded as sheep to be slaughtered." 37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. John 6:37-40 All that the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never cast out. 38 For I have come down from heaven, not to do my own will but the will of him who sent me. 39 And this is the will of him who sent me, that I should lose nothing of all that he has given me, but raise it up on the last day.40 For this is the will of my Father, that everyone who looks on the Son and believes in him should have eternal life, and I will raise him up on the last day."

Sexual addiction and the prosperity gospel? What does that mean? Who am I gonna be? Why am I where I'm at.Leona lewis - Bleeding love lyrics. My heart melts into the ground Found something true And everyone's looking round Thinking I'm going crazy But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you They try to pull me away But they don't know the truth My heart's crippled by the vein That I keep on closing You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open Trying hard not to hear But they talk so loud Their piercing sounds fill my ears Try to fill me with doubt Yet I know that the goal Is to keep me from falling But nothing's greater Than the rush that comes with your embrace And in this world of loneliness I see your face Yet everyone around me Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you They try to pull me away But they don't know the truth My heart's crippled by the vein That I keep on closing You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love.Shout outs to xxxchurch and higher-calling.com Keep fighting!

Episode 57 - Building it to fullness - Email resoponce show. Where do we get bricks to build this thing?

Episode 56 - Building? What? How? Straight talk on purity!Building on a landscape what does that mean?Tips and news on home building I want to build my house the best cost efficient and environmental friendly way.I built my home doing all my own labor. Mortgage-Free!: Radical Strategies for Home Ownership.

Sexual behavior is inescapably tied to intimacy! Conflict is a state of discord caused by the actual or perceived opposition of needs, values and interests between people.How dose this even work in the reality of overcoming and the aftermath of sexual addiction? Ever feel alone. I mean down deep? Alone... like no one really knows you?Does your spouse know you? down deep does she/he know your deepest desires, dreams and fears? Does he/she know deep things like the things that made you feel safe or afraid as a child?First heart felt disappointment? First heart felt sense of belonging for you or him / her?How about her/him? do you know these deep, heart level things about her? Have you asked her/him? brought this stuff [email protected]

Email response show 21st century strategies to help you get up and fight! How do we find deliverance and victory when we have tried and failed so many times? Russ shows you some realistic steps toward Application and strategy by changing your attitude. First Get up then Walk then fight! Then when your feeling beat down having the faith and strength to repeat.

Hounded by Spirit killing limiting beliefs on purity?Setting new goals for 2017? Let's be honest about what did not work in the past shall we? Replaying a conversation I had with Seth Taylor on the topic of purity and how our thoughts and feelings on it can be of use it to keep our spirits in bondage.

How does our sexuality show love?How does our sexuality pull us off track away from love.Dan talks about the roots of a desperate sexuality that start to pull us toward a prison of our making. Luke 18:9 - 14Music by BOH Bohmusic.com

Episode 40 - The Last Bomb goes Off! Russ set off the last bomb on July 31, 2006. Love, True love tells the truth and sets priorities. Love first, then the rest of life. I love my wife enough to tell her the full truth. Making myself totally vulnerable.

The devil is no respecter of persons. He laughs, smiling as he's killing You, Your family and your future. Your not totally helpless against the attacks of the enemy. Russ gives you some new strategies to get you up on your feet and back in the fight! Lets start playing offence along with our defense! Let take back some ground in our lives! Pray! connect! Today!

Interview with the next helper in Russ's bomb squad! Ever say this? Why do I continue to fall? Why won't god just take this from me? Dose God hate me? I can't possibly please God so why even bother. My behavior was a byproduct of my heart leaking toxic waste. I needed the Haz Mat crew of guys like Rick Thiessen!

Sex or Porn Addiction? what about infidelity? The Bomb goes off! or the bomb is going to go off soon if your don't get your addiction under control. Is it time to call in the bomb squad? The cheating spouse is only a part of the problem. A major part to be sure. Have the courage to contain the blast!

I Read Surveys filled out by listeners. Then Seth and I discuss The cost of healing. More info on Seath at www.sethalantaylor.com, XXXChurch.com and ASI27.org

The red lizard story 3.0? Red lizard story is one that I’ve used in the show number of times this time I’ve added to it based on some experience from the last few years.

Russ is joined by both Seth Taylor and David Taylor author and co-author of feels like redemption and the creative minds and hearts behind My Pilgrimage. We talk about the energy of purpose, giving forward as well as the definition of perfect and the difference between it and perfectionism.

I felt like a misfit in church and spiritual community. Like I just didn't fit in. When I finally picked up the very heavy phone and finally called for help I found myself in a recovery group. After listening to the stories I realized these people are misfits too! Felt like "These are my people!" Felt like home. Yes, I can be myself here! I started to open up my vulnerable wounded heart. Truth is nobody is perfect. And some can have a very real addiction to relationships and how they unfold in the group dynamic. Some love the very healthy free flow of heart level of communication. Some are very ego driven and toxically unhealthy. I do believe in groups and the powerful healing that can happen there. So Seth Taylor and I unpack what can be healthy and unhealthy about the group dynamic.

Honored to have The Shack author Paul stop by the ASI podcast again. We share the complexities of pain, truth and trust as they feed or grow faith, fear or both in the uncertain realm of circumstances, history and relationships. And bonus material... As an author and storyteller many theologians tend to jump to conclusions about what Paul believes. 8 minutes with Paul and Jim Henderson clearing some of that up. Check out WmPaulYoung.com for more.

In this weeks fap to NoFap... The past is gone, and the future is blank pages. This is a powerful and motivational statement but what is the validity to it? If you get bit by a rattlesnake do you just sleep it off and say the past in the past? No but getting bit by a rattlesnake, How did that happen? There’s a story waiting to be uncovered there. In this weeks episode I encourages listeners to mind the story gap. ASI247.org

Single Serve Sex and Love Advice - Craving the spark? Part 3 Friends, more than friends, friends with benefits? Just be platonic? How can we discern between obedience to the laws God has in place and the appetites that become cravings of our bodies and of our sex drive?

Is there a Trifecta of Motivation? Part 1 of an upcomming 3 part series inspired by this book Drive: The Surprising Truth About What Motivates Us.

A rigorously honest talk about the 12 steps. The Good the bad and the ugly. With guest John Glisson of the purityreport.com

A River cuts through the landscape over time and over the current moves and changes. As an addict I felt caught in the current carried down the rapids all alone with no flotation devise. Truth is, the current of river of our hearts change over time. As we the current cuts through the resistance of all that pushes back against us. Rivers do change and move over time, as we will and do, define Love and freedom.

The stubborn weeds of addiction not going away? Does mowing the yard to get rid of the weeds work? Yea, for a little while! Relationships and roots of lasting life change. A hash tag that exposes the heart. Season 3 Episode 19 #WhyWeStopedTalking

"If you set out to be liked, you will accomplish nothing." - Margaret Thatcher Say hello to the bad guy! A fair and balanced response to the critics of the ASI Podcast.

Interview with Leo Shultz on the ASI podcast.The Podcast on air, ASI 24 hours a day, 7 Days a week! ASI247.org

"It is my conviction that the God of the Universe is neither surprised nor ashamed of the behaviors that we have participated in, but sees them as the very stage through which the work of healing will be played out." - Jay Stringer

John, Derek and I discuss The Flesh, Freedom and Transformation. In the bad habit of compulsive sexual behavior, do some religious organizations and leaders use shame to keep us tied to a branded dysfunctional shame management apparatus? And is it an unconscious block standing in the way of transformation?

Feels like Redemption, Part 2 of my Conversation with Seth Taylor. Do you feel like addiction is a crisis of belief? An interruption of consciousness? Both and...? All ingredients in this conversation. Seth reveals how to peel back the layers of all the things we are medicating with pornography and other “drugs”. He gives readers the tools to make their Spirits come alive. Through a compelling combination of stories and spiritually grounded teaching from his own pilgrimage, Taylor shows readers that freedom is not a myth, but rather the essence of every human being, created in the image of God.

Russ mixes Alice Cooper, Craig Gross and Shaunti Feldhah A Halloween themed show with intentional purposeful audio. On the topic of Feed my Frankenstein?! What Craig Gross and bestselling author Shaunti Feldhahn's research reveals about the inner lives of men will open women's eyes to what the men in their life boyfriends, brothers, husbands, and sons see. Check out menarevisual.com

The ASI podcast struggling to give birth in its fifth season? What goes on in the basement? And, Ozzy Osbourne and my similar progression of unwanted compulsive behavior.

My conversation with Cash Peters. British author and broadcaster who writes on travel and spiritual matters, published 14 books, analyses handwriting and so much more.

Inspired by some Facebook posts about the TV show "The Walking Dead". The gore violence and situational horror, did it go too far? And is good, thought provoking art birthed out of an intelligent creative demonstration of real live attitudes of the heart? Is stuff that we do and attitudes that we adopt either lead to a flourishing life or lead to a slow painful death? Like are our choices that simple? Come on, is it really that black-and-white? The Bible says sin leads to death, so what the really does that mean? Martin Luther's definition of Sin as the self turning in on the self. Is an attitude of continuing to walk in the "Shadow life" one of the walking dead? A candid conversation about dark art, imagery, spirits, self and ego...

Was inspired by this quote and another quote I talk about in the episode. Feeling like I am in full ADHD mode but it’s good because I am able to be me and not let my perfectionism try and polish everything up just so... If you Love anyone or anything there will be suffering. Because what you love is worth suffering for. - Richard Rohr Constructive Intentional contribution

Feels like Christmas! Year end stuff and a Merry Christmas Happy Holidays! It's the 1st Christmas day upload!

Russ anwsers listener questions. Like, whats spiritual anarchy and a christian mystic? How a growing faith over absolute certainty can bring clarity around habitual shaming bondage. And an exerpt from Ted talk by author, philosopher, prankster journalist A.J. Jacobs talks about the year he spent living biblically

In this episode ASI is lacing up our boots and install the backplate, cuirass but before gorget or bevor, and way before putting on the pauldrons. Headed out symbols forward and on display because this time we exploring the layers of sexual attraction, desire, identity and the ways we learn to trust others and ourselves.

Now really Closing the lid on 2018. One last show of 2018. Heavy on my heart recently has been listeners going through the pain of life after the bomb goes off. Revisiting The Bomb Going Off with my friend Seth Taylor author of Feels Like Redemption. Gearing up for 2019!

Episode 26 IPA Alice Cooper and The humble-purposeful attitude of integrity 2. Is sexually compulsiveness a symptom of equateing shallow relationship with value, acceptance and belonging? Is there layers to friendship and companionship?

Another Email response show...? Why do we give up so easy and why do we let the continued feeling of dissonance eat away at our very being? Some encouragement for the solving of dissonance via living in the light.

Tugging at the roots of behavior, feelings, thoughts and attitudes. What does it mean to be present and to find or seek love and live love heart and mindfully? Independence Day a longing for understanding the definitions of sin freedom, Love and grace. And preview of guest Eddie Capparucci

Craig gross of xxxchurch.com.com and x3watch.com talking about what it takes to get open and go small. Stubborn secrets sexually compulsive behavior is much like cancer. So How do we treat cancer? Identify it, then get to a trustworthy caregiver to treat that cancer. But how do we do that when most of the spiritual environment is not open, honest and accountable? How do we build trust with a culture that is, "Trust deficient" as far as religion is concerned yet very thirsty the saving grace of Jesus Christ?

Daniel Pryor of BibleBasedCounselor.com on the ASI podcast! MA, licensed, master's level counselor and life coach. Daniel offers a wide range of experience and services addressing life situations and emotional, behavioral, spiritual and relational needs, to families and individual adults of all ages.

Some Christmas and Theology. And why first person theology matters.

Talking about the dark places is not so comfortable. Things like the vulnerabilities of our leaders, who feel the pressure to put on a mask of respectability. What does it mean to talk about the scary places that don't tend to see the light of day. Is it Safe for leaders in feeling free to visit the thoughts that have us feel insecure, judgmental, alone, and unsettled?

Email Response show. Some hard truths about steps, motivation and direction.Breaking the cycle of constant darkness acclamation cycles. Truth be told, darkness has all ready given way to light.

Define Reward, The spirit under the pysh. ASI247.org “You don't have a soul. You ARE a soul. You HAVE a body.” ― C.S. Lewis C.S. Lewis - "If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world.

Is a sexaddict an Evil person? What is Evil and Why does it happen?

The philosophical battle rages on over what is Objective and Subjective.If you remove the sociology of it, And think about it "behind your eyes" don't objects you care about become a subject of study in your heart?We think or dwell on them, protect them as sacred in our affections.Much of breaking 'the chains of addiction' is realizing YOUR affections towards the object, Realize that, and you will see how the object became the subject of your desire.

Revelation! The sudden, complete or marked change in something: the present

In this podcast zero season episode Gary Wilson explains how chronic use of today's Internet porn can lead to erectile dysfunction, delayed ejaculation, anorgasmia, loss of libido, and morphing sexual tastes.

Is there a fueled spinning energy behind anger and relapse? If so is there anything we can put into practice to defuse this energy?

"Love Addiction" or as psychologists Call it "codependency". Someone on the road to healing is confronted with a partner or the relational reality of the desire for a partner. Love and connection, passion and desire, the need to be valued and feel whole all of these are a part of this conversation. Seth Taylor author of Feels Like Redemption and I talk about relationships and the individual decision to heal one's heart.

Freedom and the rise of nervous excitement around change. Stand for something or fall for anything? Love that line, I used to hold fast to that line. Still do to a degree. The question is how does one define freedom?

A podcast episode for our daughters. Another email response show. "my father openly confessed to myself, mother, and two sisters of his more than ten year struggles participating in acts of sexual sin." Miss K. Support the podcast Ride and save with Lyft, the app for wallet-friendly rides. Use my link for up to $50 in free Lyft credit! Terms apply. https://lyft.com/ic/RUSSASI

Pulling down walls with Steve Carter, former chaplain for the former NBA team Seattle Supersonics. Steve has been on a journey of healing and it shows.

Russ shares his personal experience with march 2020 and works to draw an emotional picture of our current circumstances. Is it any wonder why pop porn sites viewership is way up during these uncertain times? In this episode he explores the parallels to a major city during a power outage. As the whole world has been thrust into a kind of social psych blackout. How does that affect our relationship with our hearts, minds and bodies?

Trying and failing so many times is incredibly frustrating! Joined a purity group, accountability group or Bible study and still little lasting results? Praying to God Where is the transformation? I remember that feeling, After working so hard to change my behavior only to find myself feeling utterly disappointed, frustrated and stuck. My friend Seth Taylor felt that way too. This is why we are so exceedingly grateful to talk about the groundbreaking approach My Pilgrimage and the upgrade it’s gotten recently as result of experienced redemption. Experience that comes from authentic, flaws in the light, brave souls sojourning together.

The season zero season finale, How do you know if you a Sex Addict? Email responce show.

If the psychological community does not recognize sexual addiction as a thing, this podcaster asks, okay then what is the real problem? Many psychologists say sexually compulsive behaviors are birthed out of intimacy disorder. So Russ Shaw your professional unprofessional does some research and comes up with a definition. His findings have him reflecting on his own story, experience and definition of intimacy disorder.

If I’m honest will I be honored? Andrew shares his brave story of bringing extremely difficult things out into the light. No question that healing takes walking straight into truth and honesty. Truth be told when it comes to some of our stories honesty can be a frightening place. But can we still honor and be honest? And if we’re honest will we be honored? Andrew story brings some great insight into how the grace of God shines a bright light of love on the healing path of not only a valuable individual but a valuable family too. An episode inspired by a story in Jay Stringer’s book Unwanted

Russ Shaw, So why did I spend 10 years of my life podcasting about sexual dysfunction? Russ tells his own short story of hope and a Thanksgiving thanks to a pacific northwest wind storm.

Yea, Mars Hill Church happened were living proof. John and I discuss life, community, faith and social constructs in the aftermath of a failed long term "Real" organized religious experiment.

Part 2 The long haul of Divulgence to Declaration. Russ reads the revealing Email. Why do we let the continued feeling of dissonance eat away at our very being? Russ talks about his real life on going encounter with living in the light.

Is accountability and the act of being responsible? And if so to whom and why? Russ answers some listeners email.

I’m an audio learner a “listen and learn” kind of person. Truth be told when I was 18 and most of my peers where graduating from high school I was being arrested and taken to Jail on a burglary and grand larceny charges. When most of my peers where applying to collages I was furthering my short lived carrier as a drug dealer and all around bad guy. So what gives me the authorization or the credentials to do this podcast? Good question. Maybe this will help.

Interview with Crystal Renaud The sexual addictions of pornography and masturbation are not just men's issues. They're women's issues, too. Research shows that 40% of online porn traffic today is consumed by women and 25% of Christian women are addicted to pornography. But 70% of these women will never admit their struggle. Crystal Renaud aims to change these statistics and help women too, gain freedom from sexual addiction.

Season 4 was a exploring what makes us do what we do and why. Why do we get motivated or demotivated? And what's even our own personal definition of motivation? What does emotion got to do with it? Russ talks about Disney Pixar's Inside Out and identifying underlying emotions lost in our own bodies.

Over the years I've had many authors, speakers and pastors as guests on the podcast. I've not endorsed anyone's work as much as I've been interested in them as people. Seth Taylor's book feels like redemption and my pilgrimage program is something I stand behind not only because Seth and I are friends but because of the research I myself have diligently pursued over the last 11 years of podcasting on the topics of addiction, theology, compulsive behavior, intimacy, psychology, social psychology, Church, spirituality and well-being. From mindfulness cognitive behavioral therapy, bodywork muscle memory locked in our physical being due to past traumas too biblical Christian theology that is rooted in the experienced, transformative faith of the desert fathers. A time before the Reformation before even Roman Catholicism. The way of early Christians that walked with Jesus and live by the Spirit. Are all included in this work. And while I still don't agree with every human being on everything I am endorsing Seth Taylor and his brother's work with my pilgrimage and the book feels like redemption. If you're serious about overcoming the most stickiest of addictions and the most stubborn of compulsive behaviors I highly recommend this work.

If sex or insert other pleasurable activity is offered up, do you want to, have to or get to partake?

"I will propose an alternative way of looking at behavior that is currently called addiction, seeing it as normal human potential, that of strong bonding. Bonding is an emotional process that creates ties that cannot be shed at will" - Peter Cohen (2009) The Naked Empress: Modern neuro science and the concept of addictions

If a close friend or confidant were to ask, how is your sexual fantasy life? How would that feel? What would be stirred in you? And how would you define a sexual fantasy? Improbable or unrealistic mental pictures and movies that play in our minds provoking disruptive arousal? Or when it comes to our sexual fantasy life is something deeper or even life giving going on? I tell some stories of how desiring to understand by explaining some of my fantasies helped me reach a new level of peace, well-being and freedom. EDIT

When large religious organizations hide from allegations of sexual misconduct is it encouraging a level of intimacy disorder? We wonder why American Christians have such a hard time with compulsive pornography consumption while organizations like Willow Creek keep hiding things in the dark? And now Willow, Who’s blatant lack of integrity is exposed to the world by a newspaper (The Chicago Tribune) still want to promote their global leadership?!

A show on priorities? Seriously? Why is that important? Russ talks about self-confidence, self-control, self-discipline and what all of that has to do with priorities. Coming from a guy who’s not the most self disciplined person, what does this have to do with compulsive sexual behavior? And Russ Intersects with another beautifully delicious post from a fapstronaut. By the way, check out NoFap on Reddit. Or go to nofap.com If you do not know what an fapstronaut is.

Part 2 of 3 Single serve sex and love "advice" for singles. Fear of commitment or fear of intimacy? Fear of getting too close or fear of connection? Delving into the reality of the muddy, prickly, colorful, beautiful mess that is human relationships in a fallen world as LOVE works itself out in community and in seeking a soul mate, spouse or life partner.

Part 1 of 3 Single serve sex and love "advice" for singles. It has been said that music is a traveling companion. That music is the soundtrack that plays in the background of our stories. Some advice for singles on pinging the IP address of your heart...

Resolutions goals or a movement in attributes and character.

A deeper Temptation buster. Reboot Gratitude an experimental approach on what makes us feel and be more whole.

Fighting unwanted behavior can make you feel like two different people inside. It made me feel a little bit like a crazy person living two different lives. Sexual addiction destroys relationships marriages and families. Underneath it all aren't we all looking for some kind of freedom? Link to part 2 of this message is at asi247.org click on the music tab and scroll to the bottom.

Interview with Nate Larkin founder of The Samson Society.

Stopping will force you to learn coping Skills. TBT you don’t recovery to a more fulfilling life by stopping the behavior. You recover by realizing why you’ve been placing your faith in that old thing to save you from the pressures of life in the first place. Not if but when the conflicts and stresses of life rise up. What if you could simply wake up to a new, robust and deeply adventurous life?

Feeling like its always 4th and goal

Is what we do a completion of behaviors? Or is the completion of what we do a result or product of what we love? Like downloading an app, what we love is experienced by our body, right? So digging under behavior modification, what would it look like to rearrange the pecking order of love driven desire in our hearts?

So Sick of it!? OK, Wait, What does it mean to be relieved of the bondage of self? Define Care of God!! Step 3 - Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood God.

Interview with my friend Jay Spiegel  So many stuck hearts hungry for healing! And this season ASI is Focused on long term RESULTS!!!! Some have been saying sexual ethics over sexual addiction in the 21st Century is a hopeless fight, Not true and Jay Spiegel’s story is living proof of the hope so many long for.

developing a strategy of attitude over "You should and ought to"!

If Prayer is Syncing up God why does it feel so difficult when it should give life? Email response show… Lack of steps or lack of the attitude of application?Doing the steps, making progress and finding freedom.Praying for needs, gratitude, vision, peace, and freedom.

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GNR Lyrics; "could use some patience, yeah"

Fear relationship addiction and Psalm 23!

10th Commandments message a warning about unseen conformity

The theology behind the psychology of addiction, are we looking for salvation or shelter?

How can be encouraged and developed? And what is really driving us? “When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.”Helen Keller

Change behavior first and the heart will eventually do what it wants to, over being forced to do what it begrudgingly has to do. CS Lewis - "You don't get 2nd things by putting 2nd things 1st! You get 2nd things by putting first things first." St. Augustine - "Put God on the throne of your heart and do exactly what you want to do"

Hebrews 11 (New King James Version) By Faith We Understand 1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. 2 For by it the elders obtained a good testimony. 3 By faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that the things which are seen were not made of things which are visible.

Valentine's Day can be fraught with danger of identity theft. Breaking up is a hard thing to do is it some thing you should be considering?

Episode 102 the 6th commandment (part 2) a conclusion of self. As a former deeply, powerfully addicted sex addict Russ shares his own thoughts of Suicide and the light he struggles to walk towards.

Sexual addiction and anger! What are the real life connections? Is anger really is a huge underlying issue for people struggling with sexually addictive behaviors? Is there an addiction under the addiction to sex that is fueling all our destructive addictions we see on the surface? Is anger bad or does it do you well to be angry sometimes?And what does this have to do with the 6th commandment? How did Jesus define murder in the Sermon on the Mount?

I wanna Trust! Do you? I did, but I didn't too. Kinda like I wanna lose weight and get in shape. And it's not even the work it takes to get there that I really see as holding me back. The truth is I kept asking... Do I really trust that all that effort is going to have me really feeling any better? And what about those goodie good people trying to help me? Do they have there own ego built up by helping others or do they really care? It took me far to long to see that it was me! My own attitudes that came pouring out of me. The fule I was putting in my tank was self righteousness and that was holding back my recovery.Russ answers Listener Email and put the sights on the shalt nots.Love is the Acts of Love!? Yes. So honestly how do you deminstrate love?

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"You shall not make for yourself a graven image, or any likeness of anything that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth; you shall not bow down to them or serve them; for I The Lord your God am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children to the third and the fourth generation of those who hate Me, but showing steadfast love to thousands of those who love Me and keep My Commandments." (Exodus 20:4-6 RSV)We are all created as small c creators by his glory. Violation of the Second Commandment takes two general forms; first, the worship of false gods by means of religious statues or pictures, and second, the worship of the True God by means of religious statues or pictures.

Episode 88 - Hope and Strategy for the sexual addicted.When the struggle sometimes seems insurmountable. What kind of plan, faith or knowledge that I can accomplish integrity?And how does a heart of I get to press in and love result in a day by day want to? and how do we go from want to, to get to?How did I do that? and continue to move forward? What did it mean for me to cross the divide from surface level behavior modification to a heart level (I want to)? What fueled the determination and had my attitude move to a (I get to change) Heart condition?And What are the plans for myself and ASI in the future?

It all makes sense right!? Has my heart caught up with it yet? Praying for grace realized, Relationship of love realized, Praying for strength, Praying for peace in my own heart as an ambassador in chains. Eph 6:19-20 (ESV) and also for me, that words may be given to me in opening my mouth boldly to proclaim the mystery of the gospel, 20for which I am an ambassador in chains, that I may declare it boldly, as I ought to speak.Eph 6:19-20 (Message) And don't forget to pray for me. Pray that I'll know what to say and have the courage to say it at the right time, telling the mystery to one and all, the Message that I, jailbird preacher that I am, am responsible for getting out.

 Armor of God - Truth, Righteousness and Grace on Independence Day. Freedom ain't Cheap! Happy 4th of July! Independence Day celebrates the birthday of the United States of America. Founded July 4th 1776, with the signing of the Declaration of Independence. What and when will be your Declaration of Independence?

Fasting on the belt of truth!? What does it mean? what do I put a spiritual belt around? What is the truth about where we are, truth about who we are? How can I fastening on the belt of truth help me see clearly the truth of my own heart condition?Music by Seventh Day Slumber!

Email response show. Russ lets out some heart felt apologies to the religious people who have contacted ASI in Wile he throws down a challenge! Are you ready to prepare for war? Main Entry: cour·age Pronunciation: \kər-ij, kə-rij\ :mean mental or moral strength to resist opposition, danger, or hardship. Courage implies firmness of mind and will in the face of danger or extreme difficulty <the courage to support unpopular causes>. mettle suggests an ingrained capacity for meeting strain or difficulty with fortitude and resilience <a challenge that will test your mettle>. spirit also suggests a quality of temperament enabling one to hold one's own or keep up one's morale when opposed or threatened <her spirit was unbroken by failure>. resolution stresses firm determination to achieve one's ends <the resolution of pioneer women>. tenacity adds to resolution implications of stubborn persistence and unwillingness to admit defeat <held to their beliefs with great tenacity>.Thanks to merriam-webster.com

The full Armor of God! What dose that mean for us in this day and age? Who are the Ephesians and what do the have to do with my culture? In 1946 Benjamin "Bugsy" Siegel opened the flamingo hotel and casino in Las Vegas Nevada. A city he built from a hick town to one of the entertainment capitols of the world. Bugsy not unlike some of the people Jesus was criticized for hang in out with and Las Vegas a city not unlike Ephesus, a city the apostle Paul the man who wrote two thirds of your new testament, spent 3 or 4 years in.

The bible is centuries old! Is it really a credible book for over coming addiction in this day and age? How do I trust God’s book when I’m having a hard enough time trusting God? Or I’ve herd this all before, What does it really mean to put on the full armor of God? Music by fireflight and Curt.

Part 2 of Words that put heart in them!  Email response show. Is my negativity toward 12 step and religion hurting people? From The Bible, Luke 3 The message version. Luke 3:16-17 (The Message) But John intervened: "I'm baptizing you here in the river. The main character in this drama, to whom I'm a mere stagehand, will ignite the kingdom life, a fire, the Holy Spirit within you, changing you from the inside out. He's going to clean house—make a clean sweep of your lives. He'll place everything true in its proper place before God; everything false he'll put out with the trash to be burned."  18-20There was a lot more of this—words that gave strength to the people, words that put heart in them. The Message! But Herod, the ruler, stung by John's rebuke in the matter of Herodias, his brother Philip's wife, capped his long string of evil deeds with this outrage: He put John in jail.

 Email response show. Is my negativity toward 12 step and religion hurting people? From The Bible, Luke 3 The message version. 16-17But John intervened: "I'm baptizing you here in the river. The main character in this drama, to whom I'm a mere stagehand, will ignite the kingdom life, a fire, the Holy Spirit within you, changing you from the inside out. He's going to clean house—make a clean sweep of your lives. He'll place everything true in its proper place before God; everything false he'll put out with the trash to be burned."  18-20There was a lot more of this—words that gave strength to the people, words that put heart in them. The Message! But Herod, the ruler, stung by John's rebuke in the matter of Herodias, his brother Philip's wife, capped his long string of evil deeds with this outrage: He put John in jail.

Email response show, lets get more stories of victory! The victory over this addiction (or any other for that matter) has to do with a deep heart level thirst. The question is a thirst for what? The most important step of the 12 steps? Step one “you have a problem. Your life has become unmanageable.” But how deep does that go? Are we really ever in control really? Why is this world so broken? That is the question, Like a splinter in your mind driving you mad. A listener said to me “it seems like this is a thinking disease”, I believe there is some truth there. But how deep are our thoughts?

Episode 65 - Visualization, Impulse control - The life giving freedom of self control. Narcissism is not freedom, What does it mean to say no to your self? “Repentance” is a word a lot of stuffy religious people have sole in order to control people through fear and shame. Real repentance is, in part why your reading this right now. Your looking for change, looking answers, Right? Is something in your behavior controlling you? Your not in control of your own flesh? Not in control of you? If your seeking your are repentant.Music by Ruth, Against me! and Jonah 33.

A Talk by Russ Shaw did to a men's group in Everett WA,USA. Addressing Christian sub-culture about getting real. if we believe Grace is Amazing then why are we faking it?Pride is one of those invisible barriers that blocks you from even asking the question!

Episode 62 - Reloaded the 2 dog story.The chief was sitting at the edge of the village, obviously deep in thought. He sat there for hours and hours, seemingly unmoving. The tribe was beginning to get worried and restless, but nobody wanted to disturb him. An elder eventually got up his courage and walked over. 'Chief,' he asked, 'what's going on? You look so troubled!' The chief just sat there, and the elder thought that he had not heard. Finally the chief spoke. And he said: 'You know, it's like there are two dogs fighting inside of me all the time - a dog of glowing light and beauty and a dog of fire. This dog is not glowing with the light but, life choking smoke and consuming fire. He is mean, irritable, and angry. It is driven by fear, and has me look at the world through the lens of shortage, struggle, and judgment. This is how I am when I'm feeling small, anxious, and spiritually disconnected.The dog Light is guided by love and kindness. This is the part of me that longs to live with purpose and to have an impact on the world. It is my God given soul my authentic self, my essence and my creativity live here, as does my intuition, faith, and sense of connection and compassion.. And the fire and smoke dog is constantly fighting the glowing light dog.' The elder looked at the chief and said quietly, 'Chief, so which dog wins?' The chief sat quietly for a moment, and then replied: 'the one I feed the most.'I totally identify with that story and this one. I am this women, If we get honest we all are! The Woman At the well.

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Sex addiction recovery... Good News for home bulding!According to a news release, the women are building the home with the Winchell family as part of Habitat's Women Build program. ...He immediately made arrangements to visit Williams and promised to begin building her home on January 2. Williams had received $10000 in material from the ...Nehemiah 4:18 And each of the builders had his sword strapped at his side while he built. The man who sounded the trumpet was beside me. Lawrence-Douglas County Fire Medical personnel rescued several residents this morning from a burning apartment building. Firefighters were called shortly ...To be deductible, the insurance must have been paid on “home acquisition debt” — debt incurred to buy, build or substantially improve a principal residence ...

Episode 53 - So another year should I do another resolution? Has anyone really been in my shoes? Has any one felt how I feel, stuck in this prison of habitual sin. How do I get to real heart change? Can Jesus really help me? Or is that just more religion and psychology? So what do I do with my heart? Part 1

Episode 47, Speed Kills! Russ announces the continuation of season one. Russ encourages you to continue to uncover your real Identity. See your self the way God sees you. The adventure of discovery from Surface Identity to your Subconscious mind (triggers) and ultimately your Heart and Soul.

eEmail announcements and email responce Show!

Short show on the 4th of July. Morning not striking.Choose healing instead of self destruction and new music! with new music!

Feel like you’re in prison? Russ encourages you to make a prison brake! Plan your jail break now! Time is going by. Reach for the courage to fight and dig your way out. Break down the walls that are holding you captive. Prison is not a place for rehabilitating. It’s a place for punishment.

Sex or Porn addiction? Feel like you’re in prison? Russ encourages you to make a prison brake! Plan your jail break now! Time is going by. Lets get our head in breaking free! Is your mind consumed with digging out of this prison? Or are you getting used to the scenery? Are you still saying I need to feel this way I deserve this. Prison is not a place for rehabilitating. It’s a place for punishment.

Countless lives are being ruined by sexual sin. It infects, corrupts, and devastates. It destroys relationships, families, and lives. Everywhere men turn today, sexual temptation rears its ugly head, and the internet has made it easier than ever to get caught in the trap of sexual sin. It takes more than a little effort for men to resist the temptations. It takes a plan. Russ interviews Joe Dallas author of The Game Plan Men's 30-Day Strategy for Attaining Sexual Integrity.

 It's spring how are those seeds doing? Recovery is like a growing plant. How is your progress? Feel like birds keep eating your seeds. Don't seem to be growing in your recovery? Russ how did you get your tree to grow and produce fruit? Attitude that's how! Russ gives you some tools on how to grow a new attitude!

ASI April 2006 is number one in addiction on iTunes Why is that? How come this show is marked Explicit? Who is Russ Shaw?

James T. Brooke talks about the hours the days or weeks after the bomb has gone off. The Open wounds of heartbreak are very real and what you do in these moments will affect the rest of your life. James & Celia Brooke and Russ & Dana Shaw Talk about The book Take a Bullet.

Communicating your heart a daring endeavor indeed. The rush of actually finding out who you are,  what your going through and communicating that in community can be a bigger rush then bungee jumping or skydiving. Don't wait until your life and family are splattered on the rocks to feel alive.

Episode 15 - Sex and porn addiction? Attitude Attitude Attitude! If the robber came to kill seal and destroy and Jesus came to give live to the full then why are we stuck in sexual sin? John 10:10 What dose that mean! Find out how your life and the struggle can be the greatest adventure you will ever experince.

 Muscles getting sore? Dose this work out seem to be to hard to push through? Concentrate on the benefits and remind yourself of this when you start to weaken. Make heart exercise a habit. Habit overcomes habit! Change is pushing your self out of the rut and in to a better way of living! Episode 12

Heart exercise number 4 - Get Emotionally Naked! Joel D. Block, Ph.D Talks about his book Naked Intimacy: How to Increase True Openness in Your Relationship. Sexual behavior is tied to intimacy! Dr. Block entices the reader to take his or her clothes off emotionally with a love partner, a daring and courageous act, to be sure, but one that ultimately brings new vitality and eroticism to a relationship. Episode 11

Episode 9 - Work out your Heart Part 2 Get in the gym and do some cardio! compulsive sexual behavior is one of the top risk factors for heart disease. This addiction is heart disease! Not of the heart that pumps blood but the one that is at the core of who you are! Good news is that it's a risk factor that you can do something about!

Get in the gym and do some cardio! Sexually compulsive behavior is one of the top risk factors for heart disease. This addiction is heart disease! Not of the heart that pumps blood but the one that is at the core of who you are! Good news is that it's a risk factor that you can do something about!

Your not a sum total of your sin. Here Russ talks about the physical problem of sex addiction and the words we attach to sin. Fighting fight our enemy sin with emotional weapons. Merry Christmas!

The cognitive dissonance of the new year? What is with this hyped up feeling of the promise of a brand-new start on this day? And What can a happiness researcher teach us about addiction, compulsive behavior and well... Happiness?

If the Gospel is good news, who's good news are we following? If we hunger and thirst for righteousness's isn't there the expectancy of transformation? Isn't it true that REAL Redemption transforms the heart, awakens the mind and that changes behavior over time?

Seattle is liberal, avant-garde, socially progressive and artsy. Yeah, not a city that would come to mind when you mention "American Christian Values". Mars Hill Church flourished in the urban Ballard neighborhood at a time when the Barna research group reported Seattle was the least churched city in the US. With the crowds of people seeking God and learning about faith came the challenges of people needing relational, family and marital hopefulness as well as those seeking freedom from life-threatening addictions. Mike was the leader of what eventually became a Redemption Groups that still go on to this day. This is a post MHC Redemption Groups conversation with Mike Wilkerson.

Unpacking some history of the ASI podcast. 15 years of unpacking stubborn unwanted behavior. explaining some themes hopefully answering some questions like... What’s it like working to understanding the mystery and meaning of motivation? Do I consider myself a kind of a SA pioneer? What if any credibility of Russ Shaw The host in this body of work?

Seth Taylor stops by the show and we talk about what it must be like to be quarantined during a pandemic. What of the quick escape? Pornography has been likened to a pandemic but is it? And what of this word discipline, discipleship and what it means to achieve sexual self control? We also discussed the launching of the my pilgrimage apart from triple X church and the upcoming podcast.

When and Where's the freedom?! Some indignation over a WebMD article. Is there really any relief in sight? Russ answers some listeners email.

Love Hack? What if there is 7 subconscious needs under all human motivation?

Can one Bear story explain why PMO is so hard a habit to break? Season five re-launch! Some of the upcoming season 5 segments and format, empathy for Your Wild Side and what is G2P4E?

When it comes to higher power, the universe or God what are we really talking about? Russ reads surveys filled out by listeners to the ASI podcast.

Sin is a bad hurtful word?! Wait, then... how are words like bad habits, disorders, disfunctions better? Is it sexual sin compulsive sexual behavior? Is it hypersexuality? hypersexual disorder? Nymphomania or is it all sexual addiction? Or is it a both and?

In recovery we love stories of redemption and resurrection. And bunnies?! What can we learn from the man in black Johnny Cash about passion week, Easter, reconciliation, connection, redemption and resurrection? Yeah and what's a sex themed podcast with out bunnies?

Sexuality and our inner lives. Like, getting naked with your clothes on! What can advances in technology do to be more transparent in our secret lives?

I recently heard sexually compulsive behavior called an intimacy disorder. I thought this was interesting and had me thinking about cynicism and grace. And how both religion in the world seem to like to create enemies and othorize people. Is this a symptom of our rampant intimacy dysfunction? A show meant to provoke, encourage and challenge this week.

The dirt on Russ Shaw! If the psychological community does not recognize sexual addiction as a thing, this podcaster asks, okay then what is the real problem? Did Russ "relapse"? Is that addiction recovery language helpful when it comes to approaching unwanted sexual behavior as intimacy or attachment disorder? Russ reveals part three of the "recording".

How is our sexual integrity impacting our self-worth? Or at least our perceived self-worth based on the information that was available to us as we’ve grown to adulthood in this life. This expectation and anticipation of rewards is called the "wanting" in neuroscience language. Have you tried entering on to the freeway of healing? Where is the nearest on ramp? Why do people choose to take the off ramp? And what characters might we meet along the way? What can we expect on this yellow brick road Like journey?

Yin and Yang, child-ish or childlike, flesh and spirit. Is it that black and white? Can a child like faith really transform us from the inside out? And if so what do we do with the childish part of ourselves?

Is it sexual self control or sexual repression? His counselor said "Russ, If you don’t have an orgasm you’re not going to die!" true but is there suffering involved in surviving the not dying? Russ continues to unpack intimacy disorder while addressing things said in earlier shows about his own journey and story.

A new Novel by Wm Paul Young. Another conversation with the author of the twenty-five-million-copy bestseller The Shack talks about new Eve approach. Eve is a bold, unprecedented exploration of the Creation narrative, true to the original texts and centuries of scholarship—yet with breathtaking discoveries that challenge traditional beliefs about who we are and how we’re made.

Three things to do and not to do if your on the Ashley Madison list. The long haul of Divulgence to Declaration. Russ talks about his real life on going encounter with living in the light.

Some news and info on the very real goings on in the Seattle area and its effect on and the ripple effect of the ASI Podcast.

Faith and theology meet the real world of being alive in a world of Joy, Hurt, Woundedness, Love, Recovery and Addictions. 2011 interview with Mike Wilkerson, one of the leaders and founders of Redemption groups talking about his book, Redemption: Freed by Jesus from the Idols We Worship and the Wounds We Carry.

Is our sexuality a gift or just a biological mechanism for procreation? Intercourse... Is there a purpose for it all or is our sex drive just biological junk leaking out of a broken vessel?

Take a Cold Shower?! It is More impacting then you think! More intentional purposeful audio from a TedX talk. Joel Runyon is a javelin-throwing, world, traveling, triathlete set on doing impossible things in order to tell a great story with his life. A great lesson about over coming fear, Breaking habits, and the life giving outcome of doing the uncomfortable thing.

Seth Taylor and I Discuss polyamory, courage being oneself and a little of theology. We eat dairy or to ask the dangerous question, When it comes to debilitating compulsive behavior... can we come up with a better questions

Is there a connection between being fast and loose with our money and our genitals? And when it comes to the concept of a creator do we trust the maker of all things? Russ engages a conflict with fellow podcaster Cash Peters over the topic of money, value, being tight and constantly in a state of lack.

MY guest Marc Azoulay of Marc-Azoulay.com encourages listeners to make a mental prison break! He's a #psychotherapist in Boulder, CO USA that aims to promote #freedom and transformation. Wake up and break free! ASI247.org https://www.gofundme.com/savethetimemachine thank you for supporting independent art.

Russ tells a story about going to the ER last Tuesday. And, Russ and Jim have coffee and discuss the question; what does it mean to hack the ministry? Well, for obvious reasons the word "Christian" for example has been drug through the mud. So many "leaders" have blindly broken trust with the people they say they're so desperate to "save". Today would it mean for ministries to actually pushback what's evil and life choking in the world and make a difference in this post modern day and age, full of cold hearted certainty addicts and skeptics?

"The sparkle in your eyes Keeps me alive. And the sparkle in your eyes, Keeps me alive, keeps me alive" ~ She Sells Sanctuary is a song by the British rock band The Cult. It is from their 1985 album Love and was released as a single in May of that year, peaking at number 15 on the UK Singles Chart. (WiKi) Or Alice Cooper, Johnny Depp and the Hollywood Vampires. The challenge? In the summer of cc? Dropping the mask and treasuring Real intimacy. What kind of feelings does that stir up? Feeling like you're stuck in compulsive behavior and you can't function? That's the first step in the 12 steps right? Step 1 surrender. My life has become unmanageable? Well has it? Can you admit that are you there? I've been there that's why I do this! [email protected] by the way is my email address feel free to fire away with questions. As a matter fact that's part of this exercise ask heart hard questions! Not me but good questions.

S07E14 A Conversation with Keith Giles, Craig Weir form My Pilgrimage and yours truly Russ Shaw. Keith Giles is a licensed and ordained pastor who left the pulpit over 10 years ago to start a house church that gave away 100% of the offering to the poor in the community. He is the author of Jesus Untangled: Crucifying Our Politics To Pledge Allegiance To The Lamb and also Jesus Unbound: Liberating the Word of God from the Bible, both of which were published by Quoir Publishing. Keith is also the co-host of the Heretic Happy Hour Podcast and blogs regularly at www.KeithGiles.com. Craig Weir joins us from the gold coast of Australia and is a regular contributor to the My Pilgrimage Facebook group.

A different kind of approach that may stir up just the right amount of much needed attention. Russ's much needed conversation with David Clohessy about SNAP.

New Season of life and a new Novel by Wm Paul Young. Another conversation with the author of the twenty-five-million-copy bestseller The Shack talks a new Eve approach. The new novel is destined to be one of the most talked-about books of the decade.

As sexual integrity breaks down. And the tick, tick of the time bomb runs out... What happens when the bomb goes off? The blast, shrapnel flies everywhere breaking, (most of all) trust. Not to mention the wounds left on close relationships and family members can be extremely severe. My guess today had a bomb go off in his life in a big way. It begs the question, can we disarm the time bomb or is the bomb building revealing something deeper that needs to be diffused? It is my honor to introduce you to Joshua Shea of RecoveringPornAddict.com on ASI Season six episode eight.

Three things to think about while moving forward this summer. They all spring from the heart. The heart is the center pumping blood or motivation or life energy through the rest of your life! Russ unpacks a little Jeremiah 17:9 "The heart is wicked who can understand it"? Will we be a slave to the whims of our ego? Or will you let that deep chamber in the heart of hearts release the spiritual energy to run through our bloodstream and impact our future?

Is there a toxicity around the way some unpack or interpret the word purity? If sex addiction could be defined as an intimacy disorder how are we being organic with the flow of love in our heart, mind and emotions? What judgemental filters must be installed as to not pollute the way that we interact with others in the world? how is being open, honest or "intimate" affecting our dedication to being "pure?". Doesn't to purify or cleanse also lead to sterilization and death is that which is organic? Does us being "pure" encourage the otherazation of our neighbors who were commanded to love?

Seth Taylor and I Discuss polyamory, courage being oneself and a little of theology. We eat dairy or to ask the dangerous question, When it comes to debilitating compulsive behavior... can we come up with a better questions? www.sethalantaylor.com

Intentional Purposeful Audio from Dr. Matt Russell of Fuller Institute for Recovery Ministry. A part of the School of Theology at Fuller Theological Seminary.

A message responce show, sex, Love and excitement.

A new thing on ASI, Day one and some audio from Russell brand on 50 shades of Gray and Pornography.

Part 2 of the talk with Stephen Kuhn. QUESTIONS... What if desire wasn't actually the problem but a vehicle for the solution? What if bonds can be broken on a 'desire for truth' level rather than a 'I've got to put myself on a self discipline regiment' level?

Part 2 of my Conversation with W. Paul Young New York Times best selling author of "The Shack" and "Crossroads". "I was horribly addicted to pornography for half my life I haven't been addicted to pornography for half my life..." Feeling at a crossroads about the direction of life? I heard it once said that our heart is like a garden hose with no shut off valve. "The Shack is a metaphor for the human heart, I had no idea it would be such a hit" - W. Paul Young

Whats realistic difference between being judgemental and being discerning? Learning that love and trust are both two sides of the same battery. Me, I'm dieing to understand that lamentfull praise that poured out of David in the psalms.

Email response show! Take the effect and make it the cause? Put the cart before the horse? Want a to make a deposit but call it a withdrawal? And now that marijuana is legal is it okay for Christians to smoke weed?

Audio from a Research Animate that pulls together some of the key sexual economics arguments made by social scientists.

Death to life, frozen to warming an Interview with Piko Neal.

An honest look at step 6 of the 12 steps and… Why can not I seem to fix myself?

Solving some cognitive dissonance around motivation.

Hiding, talks about "keeping it under wraps" Founder and administrator of purity report and partners for purity talks about getting real, open, honest with confession and 'celebration' (The felling that comes from standing on solid ground.)

Drive, Purpose and Energy. What kind of energy(behind your eyes) is your heart flowing out worship? Russ answers some heavy E-mail and social media messages.

"I know you cheated on me!" Of course, he/she quickly denied it, using every excuse in the book. As I went to bed that night, the case kept haunting me... there was just something very similar about it. That's when it hit me; I could never cheat on my fiancee, but I was cheating on God. Instead of trying to please God in everything, I often please myself;

Some work I did on Episode 1 Season One. Censoring myself? Russ Shaw Censores Russ Shaw? Gonna have to give it a listen!

Where do I start and what mindfulness strategies help for a new attitude and energy of seeing deeper heart change.

Strategies for the relationships we have with our tablets and smartphones.

TBT The God who sits on the throne of our hearts is bringing us to a destination.

Self Image is Important! Ever catch yourself saying I’m a…I’m a What, a pepper?? Really though don’t we all ask is life passing me by, Who Am I and Why am I me, here now in this place, What I’m I doing here, And Why?

Time (life is a progression of defining moments) Identity (who you are today, not who you were)My Definitions (How do I define words that will impact my attitude and direction?)Big Thanks to CBS's the Morning Show for the news clip.Music via promo bumbers by Skillett – Under my skin & Stronger

Is relativity void of common sense? There is good and evil in the world evidenced by the fact we lock people in jail! So If God is the master story teller and if every good vs. evil, right vs. wrong or heaven vs. hell story reveals the character of creator God then where do I stand before the God who gives the spirit of life? Who am I as I flow through my short time here on this in between place know as earth?

Russ answers Email and starts the approach to land the plane of the tenth Commandment. Part 1 of 2

#10Commandments - Classic ASI

There is a way things just are, the Old Testament law is a giving the truth of how the creator of the universe designed things to be. This is Good news, Right? Breaking the cycle of addiction is much like breaking a horse. Or breaking Russ Shaw.

Summer 2011 Challenge! Define Freedom!free·dom/ 1. The power or right to act, speak, or think as one wants without hindrance or restraint. 2. Absence of subjection to foreign domination or despotic government.

Why do people steal? And what doses robbing for survival have to do with sexual integrity? Are we prolonging our recovery with short term trigger removal? Are we hopeless with all the triggers in the world? Russ addresses some secrets of long term sexual integrity. John 10:10 The thief comes only to kill steal and destroy, I come that they may have life and have it more abundantly. - Jesus

Repentance is putting to death the life draining, blood sucking vampire nature in all of us.

Finding Rest, A day off to just Be and not Do? A day off is a good thing! The Sabbath is one of the oldest institutions in the world, dating, as the Bible makes clear, from the very earliest appearance of man upon the earth, when God blessed and hallowed the Sabbath. Later, it was part of the Law given to Moses and Israel. Many Christians today are troubled -- considerably at times -- by the question: "Should we be observing the Sabbath yet today?" There are certain Christian groups who feel that this is the case; in fact they insist that we are not genuine Christians unless we observe the commandment of God to keep the Sabbath continuously. Then Jesus said to them, "The Sabbath was made to meet the needs of people, and not people to meet the requirements of the Sabbath. Mark 2:27 NLTHeaven and Earth were finished, down to the last detail.  2-4 By the seventh day       God had finished his work.    On the seventh day       he rested from all his work.    God blessed the seventh day.       He made it a Holy Day    Because on that day he rested from his work,       all the creating God had done. This is the story of how it all started,       of Heaven and Earth when they were created. Genesis 2:1-4 (The Message)

The 3rd commandment! Taking the lords name in vain. Profanity in making the lords name trivial or superficial. Exodus 20:7 “You shall not take the name of the Lord your God in vain, for the Lord will not hold him guiltless who takes his name in vain. Matt 23:23-24 Woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, pretenders (hypocrites)! For you give a tenth of your mint and dill and cummin, and have neglected and omitted the weightier (more important) matters of the Law--right and justice and mercy and fidelity. These you ought [particularly] to have done, without neglecting the others.     24You blind guides, filtering out a gnat and gulping down a camel!

Unberlla, Love relationships and Identity - Email show.Sexual behavior is inescapably tied to intimacy! Email responce show. heres some lyrics for ya! Rihanna - UnberllaWhen the sun shines, we’ll shine togetherTold you I'll be here forever. Said I'll always be a friendTook an oath I'ma stick it out till the endNow that it's raining more than everKnow that we'll still have each otherYou can stand under my umbrellaYou can stand under my umbrella(Ella ella eh eh eh)Under my umbrella   1 John 4:10 This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. 11Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. 12No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us. ASI247.org

After a long time Gone Russ Is back! Finishing up and tieing uo some lose ends to Close one door and open another! ASI End of a Season! Conclusion of the first season part 1 of 3

Episode 39 - Let go of the fire. Fire of love or fire of anger? Chose the fire of love or fire of judgement? The fire of faith or fire of fear? Rise above physical and emotional adversity.

Nothing can lock you up in total isolation like shame. Alone in solitary? Locked up in that cell of shame. Russ talks about a whole new level of shame you may or may not have identified. Childhood sexual abuse.

Russ talks to those affected by Sexual acting out as well as the offenders them selves and those is denial. The Bomb is ticking! tick tock Russ's bombs went off more than once each devastating blow more damaging than the next! You can defuse the bomb you can change the future!

Porn and sex addiction is something you do that gives you short term pleasure and in the long term is eroding your long term fulfillment in your own spirit and relationships. Russ calls this your mental hard drive system failure. How is the computer in operating system of your mind and heart running? Reboot and scan your heart and eliminate system failure!

Love Hack? What if there is 7 subconscious needs under all human motivation?

Out of the shadows in to the light to tell a better story. Some News on the ASI podcast and a talk by Donald Miller on the storyline of life.

Forgive and forget? How is that even possible?

Russ presents a talk by Gary Wilson. Gary is the host of www.yourbrainonporn.com. The site arose in response to a growing demand for solid scientific information by heavy Internet erotica users experiencing perplexing, unexpected effects: escalation to more extreme material, concentration difficulties, sexual performance problems, radical changes in sexual tastes, social anxiety, irritability, inability to stop, and obsessive-compulsive symptoms.

Doing Valentine day all year long and Interview with Dustin Daniels Founder of Seven Places

New year's and The truth and lies about REAL newstart, re-birth and life change.

Taking a deeper honest hard look at the 12 steps.Step 1  - We admitted we were powerless over our addiction - that our lives had become unmanageable.

focus, energy and economy “Addiction is attention deficit disorder!” - Patrick Carnes

A Honest look at the depth of the definition of Reward.

Theology and science meet on the ASI Podcast! Shedding some light on what it means to possess self control and why should we want the have it in the first place.Get down with the sickness?! Sad and bad things happen here, how we react will bring life or death.

A double life?! Sex, Love, Kindness and the Spy movie? "If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway. It is between you and God. It was never between you and them.” Mother Teresa

Life happens while were making other plans – John LennonWhen is the time to get real about recovery… Right Now!Jeff Fisher of PorntoPurity.com crashes my show and I crash his!

Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal…  1 Corinthians 13:1 (NKJV)ded·i·ca·tion (from Bing.com) devotion: the quality of being devoted or committed to something inscription: a short printed text at the beginning of a written or musical work associating it with somebody esteemed by the author     3.    piece of music: a piece of music played or requested as a tribute, especially on the radio.

Good or bad, challenging or crippling, Life is stress! The only people who don’t have stress are dead people.If to feel stress is to be alive then why under the pressure and the tension do we run back to our addictions?

Cour·age [kur-ij, kuhr-] noun 1.The quality of mind or spirit that enables a person to face difficulty, danger, pain, etc., without fear; bravery.2. Obsolete. The heart as the source of emotion.Season 2... Time (life is a progression of defining moments) Identity (who you are today, not who you were)Definitions (How do I define words that will impact my attitude and direction, today?)

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#10Commandments - Classic ASI C.S. Lewis The Problem of Pain Quotes… "Love is something more stern and splendid than mere kindness.” "Be sure that the ins and outs of your individuality are no mystery to Him; and one day they will no longer be a mystery to you." "It is in their 'good' characters that novelists make, unawares, the most shocking self- revelations." "The heart never takes the place of the head: but it can, and should, obey it." "Those who would most scornfully repudiate Christianity as a mere "opiate of the people" have a contempt for the rich, that is, for all mankind except the poor."

Artists Rendering… God given attributions and personal characteristics.

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Truth Be Told! I don’t want to do the things I keep doing! HELP! Listener asks via Email question; could my compulsive sexual behavior a symptom of an abnormal or maladaptive psychological disorder? Can psychotropic medications help get this monkey off my back?Truth from a reliable source on the subject, Yale university.

Exposing the lies of the beautiful people is really revealing our own "dogmatic assumptions".

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Quotes from the film “Inception” Cobb: What is the most resilient parasite? Bacteria? A virus? An intestinal worm? An idea. Resilient... highly contagious. Once an idea has taken hold of the brain it's almost impossible to eradicate. An idea that is fully formed - fully understood - that sticks; right in there somewhere. The seed that we planted in this man's mind may change everything. You're asking me for Inception. I hope you do understand the gravity of that request. Cobb: She locked away a secret, deep inside herself, something she once knew to be true... but chose to forget.

Exodus 20:15 (King James Version) Thou shalt not steal.Change and/or theft. Growth in to full life or short term theft for needs met today! Do we take what has not been worked for to seal in a sense of short term comfort and escape from that we fear?Deeper social norms, breaking the habit of “its out there”Proverbs 22:3 The prudent sees danger and hides himself,but the simple go on and suffer for it.4 The reward for humility and fear of the Lord is riches and honor and life.

The John Frame notes on the 7th and 8th commandment in the scope of sexual ethics. Why would we what to stealing what’s free?

With the startling increase in emotional affairs, let me reveal some of the motives of the heart under the surface and expose the fule tank of our desires for such “affairs” and why it is actually breaking the 7th commandment and on a real intimate heart level it is one of the most painful forms of adultery. Recommitting our Hearts to a "till death do us part" attitude.A shout out to rememberingourvows.com and kenbirks.com

What is Adultery? And what is spiritual debt? Adultery is one of the bloodiest of sins. A sin that literally breaks the heart of the offended party.

Vampire Myth, Episode 106. Few creatures of the night have captured our imagination like vampires... (Godsmack Lyrics) What explains our enduring fascination with vampires? What is it about the vampire myth that explains our interest? Is it the overtones of sexual lust, power, control? - #Quote Godsmack's Song Vampires I attempt to answer this question as well as so history of the Vampire Myth.

Romans 3 (amp bible) 28For we hold that a man is justified and made upright by faith independent of and distinctly apart from good deeds (works of the Law). [The observance of the Law has nothing to do with justification.] [this] faith make the Law of no effect, overthrow it or make it a dead letter? Certainly not! On the contrary, we confirm and establish and uphold the Law.

Yes, Do it! Commit to the process! Get up and Fight! Never Quit!And what does it mean to be addicted to war?!When it comes to fighting sexual addiction what is the air war and ground war?Getting honest about fighting the systems that lead to relapse. Behavior and heart! Painting beliefs on the canvas of reason!

Episode 99 FIVE! #TenCommandments

In Episode 96 Sexuality, Climax and Sabbath Russ talks about the truth about Jesus over religion and the concept in social psychology of fundamental attribution error. And askes the very real question, what are the deeper meanings and in depth reasons for the 4th commandment?Sabbath is a place our desire finds rest. Ok, then aren’t we all observing the Sabbath in one form or another? After a hard day where is it we go to find rest? And why sex?

The Ten Commandments, Sexual Ethics and the Decalogue.the 'Decalogue'Lyrics'Mountain' Good CharlotteI wasn't on a mountain When it came to meAll my life's been wasted Chasing shallow dreamsYears go by and nothing’s slowing down the timeYears go by and then they’re wastedAll this timeI thought that I gained everythingBut you're not mineand I'm so emptyI wasn't on a mountain When it came, when it came to meThat all my life's been wasted Chasing shallow dreams.

The Ten Commandments, Sexual Ethics and the Decalogue. So what about the law? Why even strive to obey about it? Obey! Come on! I hate that word! Doing it just made me feel forgotten, ignored and alone! Why do so many religious people would say 'people get what they deserve'? A very unloving reaction to hurting people. An unloving reaction to hurting people is also leaveing them alone. A life lived without direction. No teacher to teach playing the beautiful interments of life as to be free to make beautiful music. Wait, I thought religious people where suppose to help hurting people? So why is there so much of a mess due to a break in sexual ethics? Jesus says Over and over in the Gospels Jesus challanges the religious rulers with the Truth of Love and Grace. (Matt 7:11-12) ESV“If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask him!' 12 'So whatever you wish that others would do to you, do also to them, for this is the Law and the Prophets.' Jesus also said in John 14:15 'If you love me, you will keep my commandments.' John 15:10 If you keep my commandments, you will abide in my love, just as I have kept my Father's commandments and abide in his love. Luke 7:47  ESV Therefore I tell you, her sins, which are many, are forgiven for she loved much. But he who is forgiven little, loves little.'

Episode 86 - A Christmas Gift for all the ASI listners! Christmas music!John 1:14 (the message)The Word became flesh and blood,       and moved into the neighborhood.    We saw the glory with our own eyes,       the one-of-a-kind glory,       like Father, like Son,    Generous inside and out,       true from start to finish. O Holy Night Lyrics  Christmas Carol Lyrics Long lay the world in sin and error pining. Till He appeared and the Spirit felt its worth. A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices, For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn. Merry Christmas Everyone! Russ!

A need for truth in the midst of a reality of knowing the lies better. I grew up being taught and believing lies! Lies are where I feel safe. I believe lies! Even though I know if I get honest they are destroying everything! and One question I get asked a lot is this... Define Religion? Are you talking about the cold law based Religion of the Pharisees? And what does that have to do with sexual integrity? Episode 84 Music by Pillar - State of Emergency! It's a state of emergencyIt's time we seeThere's a need to take actionThis is a state of emergencyWe're too blind to seeAll of these simple distractionsAll our attention is directed to the mirrorWe want to forget that people live in terrorWe're their only way out and the time is right nowWe gotta grab a hold of this moment How far do we let it goBefore we all take controlWe are the hands We are the feetSo we gotta goStop waiting for someone else To take control(Take back the control)We could be their last hope

Visualizing the need for shoes! the ground is hard, hot, sharp and like it or not we need to strap on, to put on shoes. to get us up to embrace the comming days with readiness. Ephesians 6:15 (Amplified Bible) And having shod your feet in preparation [to face the enemy with the firm-footed stability, the promptness, and the readiness produced by the good news] of the Gospel of peace. 1 Corinthians 9:27 (Amplified Bible) 27But [like a boxer] I buffet my body [handle it roughly, discipline it by hardships] and subdue it, for fear that after proclaiming to others the Gospel and things pertaining to it, I myself should become unfit [not stand the test, be unapproved and rejected as a counterfeit].

The full Armor of God! What dose that mean for us in this day and age? Who are the Ephesians and what do the have to do with my culture?In 1962 J.C.R. Licklider writes memos about his Intergalactic Network concept, where everyone on the globe is interconnected and can access programs and data at any site from anywhere. He is talking to his own ‘Intergalactic Network’ of researchers across the country. In October, ‘Lick’ becomes the first head of the computer research program at ARPA, which sets the foundation of this elecrtonic cyber city we know as the internet. A city not unlike Ephesus, A city of blood thirsty sin and a city Jesus came to speak to. And like Ephesus city the apostle Paul the man who wrote two thirds of your new testament, spent 3 or 4 years in.

Episode 64 -The Church is great at helping to remove stains. Drugs and alcohol addicts are welcomed with open arms. I believe the church has compassion for the hurting hearts of addicts.But sexuality runs deep, Sexual addiction, sexually compulsive behavior or same sex attraction is deeper then getting out the cleansers out and scrubbing the dirty stains off the surface. What happens when all the getting saved, prayer and all the recovery material does not seem to work?What do you do when you still haven’t found what your looking for?Music by U2, Pillar and This Beautiful Republic.

A letter to Ash. A christian man publicly in the think of the fight!Ash I'm not some guru dude, I don't have it all together.You think I never felt like that? Wanting to quit? having QUIT! It's way to hard I can do this. Truth be told you can't! On your own!God did not do this to You ASH! You and I did it to our selfs God did not give it to us! That is a lie from hell. The guilt and shame you feel is from the accuser. Revelation 12:10 Calles the devil the accuser of the brethren accusing them day and night.Read more at ASI247.org

This show is expliced! Russ gets deep and does not hold back his heart for this ministry. Luke 15:1-10 (NIV) The Parable of the Lost Sheep!1Now the tax collectors and "sinners" were all gathering around to hear him. 2But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law muttered, "This man welcomes sinners and eats with them."  3Then Jesus told them this parable: 4"Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Does he not leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? 5And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders 6and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, 'Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.' 7I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.

Episode 49 -Yom Kippur, two goats what dose that mean? Blood sacriface and scape goat. What? is Russ Shaw hates homosexuals? Not, sorry. I love all people. Judgeing some with out knowing them.. hummm isn't that what the evangelicals are guilty of? Don't become what you hate. Don't make the scape goat an idol.

I'm Trouble!? ASI criticism and the analysis and evaluation of ASI. Russ Shaw responds to critics collectively. Music by Kill the Alarm.

ASI End of a Season! conclusion of the first season part 2 of 3Email storys an act of war. A courages step in to battle! Music by kill the alarm! http://killthealarm.com

The Monster Under My Bed, Secret Sex Sins. Allen Creek Community Church ac3.org Marysville, WA U.S.A. ~ 360-659-SEEK. Music by : Jacques Grant -Things_I_Used_To_Do

avoiding the 3 pronged deadly trap the troublehook

 Russ responds to some Email and reads some Email. Russ challenges religion and faith with more on vampires and Eli!? If your a judgmental Christian this show my be offensive to you but you still need to hear it.asi247.org

So why do we keep our secrets? what are those emotional reactions to our everyday aches pains of life? What nee jerk emotional reactions are keeping us in slavery to run and hide from reality? Why do we do that Porn, Drink, Drug, Gamble Shopping? All addiction suffers welcome on this one and all ASI Shows!

 Russ sits down with the captain of a bomb squad. Pastor Dan Hazen who talks about healing and equipping.  Turning on the lights and sirens arriving on the bloody seen of this very real 50% divorce rate medical supplies ready! How do we love the sinner and hate the sin when a loved one or a sibling in our family is reeling in pain? Are there bandages for those hearts emotionally bleeding all over the place?

James T. Brooke talks about the hours the days or weeks after the bomb has gone off in his Book Take a Bullet Have you been caught cheating? Has some one you love "Fell" in the area of sexual integrity? This power full book talks about the raw emotional pain of an affair and what happens next. You love or feel you loved this person so where do we go now?

Who are you letting in to the theater in your mind? Who are the actors pounding on the door of your mental theater? Are you letting them perform for you or are you going to make a choice to be like Simon and send them packing? Plus Accountability, 12 step, men's, couples, youth, support and groups, with one is best?

Heart exercise number 3 Russ responses to email. Did I have to hit rock bottom? How do I repent with out destroying my marriage and family? Internet filters or throw out the computer? Sex or porn addiction is heart disease but not of the heart that pumps blood but the one that is at the core of who you are! Episode 10

Sex or Porn Addiction? make a real heart inspired resolution. New Years Resolutions come and go but a real resolution is firm determination. On Jan 1st or June 1st be resolute! Here Russ talks about 7 definitions of the word resolution and how they relate to overcoming porn addiction.

Episode 3 Are your Ready to stop! The Reason.

Russ Shaw Takes on the lies Don't belive the lies that hold you in bondage of slavery of sex addition. Episode 2

Here Russ talks some about his journey to sex addition recovery and helps equip you with the weapons needed to fight this war with your own will. Experience the freedom of sexual self control.