A NEW intro/outro on an old recording featuring the Spirit Fingers Collective (originally posted June 13, 2023)! For more info & to join the Creative Support Group, click here: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1ydTMnFNnDY09BL3-pPmRJSqxunkKio1aoF1PLfAv84c/edit?usp=sharing FAQs about the Creative Support Group: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1ht-Boiv2wJu_rv4D769ktTLePTvTuYna_wlFnE_Vx2o/edit?usp=sharing   PATREON: https://www.patreon.com/feelinweird Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/feelinweirdpod/ Linktree: https://linktr.ee/feelinweirdpod Contact: [email protected] A list of EVERY Feelin Weird episode:https://www.patreon.com/posts/episode-list-of-63882616

  This is the last episode of Feelin Weird! Welcome to the celebration of LIFE for this podcast.  Gaby, Dagenson, Goose, Producer Kye and I all pay our respects to the podcast--along with MANY other listeners and past guests.  We send the podcast off into the abyss wrapped in LOVE. My offering to you: listen to this intentionally.  Sit or lay down and close your eyes--imagine that you are at the funeral with all of us.  Let this be an opportunity to grieve and celebrate something you loved, cared about, and are losing. Recorded June 10-15, 2023. Buy My Art/Merch: https://kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ PATREON: https://www.patreon.com/feelinweird Paypal: https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/feelinweird Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/feelinweirdpod/ Website: https://www.feelinweird.com/ Linktree: https://linktr.ee/feelinweirdpod Contact: [email protected] A list of EVERY Feelin Weird episode:https://www.patreon.com/posts/episode-list-of-63882616

My conversation with the LIFE-CHANGING support group I created (and facilitate) called The Spirit Fingers Collective! If you would like to be a part of a future life-changing support-group (facilitated by me), please fill out this short form: https://forms.gle/7nGvL9fyPZzZ3Tpc8 Information on the group:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1IrxZgaDcVtdbANjgEkyyjDRZYS99WApK0ZonFOpRvLo/edit?usp=sharing If the above links still exist far into the future, it means I am still running these groups and you can join! Recorded Jan 29, 2023. Buy MERCH: https://kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ SUPPORT via PATREON*: https://www.patreon.com/feelinweird DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

CW: contains talk of death, surgery, suicide, & grief. Sara returns!!! (ep 4) to talk about being humbled by a CATASTROPHIC year in her life AND how she learned to TRULY love herself through it.  This story is VERY touching and beautiful! Also Producer Kye & Gaby show up to talk about MAGICAL T-SHIRTS We also discuss: there is PURPOSE on the other side of pain; THE END OF FEELIN WEIRD; AA & 12-step recovery; things not going the way we want; addiction & soothing; wanting to create from love, not fear; NEEDing others; being a creative AND needing to step away from social media; learning hard lessons; feeling AND avoiding pain; taking the fear-armor off; and MORE. Recorded July 8, 2022 (intro/outro April 11&12, 2023). Buy MERCH: https://kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ SUPPORT via PATREON*: https://www.patreon.com/feelinweird DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Dayle Hendrix returns (episode 120) to talk about death & destroyers, creative endings & new beginnings, surviving capitalism, and the pre/post-apocalypse need for REAL community. We also discuss: Re-learning how to play and celebrate and have fun; Honouring and embracing destroyer/death energy; Running towards your demons; The SHADOW self; The fear of what’s inside; Being an artist AND trying to survive capitalism; Foraging for food; Elders & the internet age; Death & killing as apart of the life process; Avoiding death & discomfort; Welcoming all the parts; Trying to be “good” as a way of avoiding truth & authenticity; Community & belonging; Capitalist transactional relationships; Having basic needs covered in order to thrive; Capitalism does not support community; Relationship is healing; Being a part of community with challenging members—diversity rather than a homogenous blob; Learning how to be in real relationship with people; Holding two seemingly opposing truths at once; We are tender, beautiful & challenging creatures who NEED each other; Growth vs shut-down/fear; The spark of life is still there underneath all the hurt, it doesn’t die; and more! SEND A [email protected] before DEC 15, 2022! Dayle's podcast: MOODY Recorded May 16, 2022 (intro/outro Dec 3, 2022). SUPPORT via PATREON*: https://www.patreon.com/feelinweird Buy MERCH: https://kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Send a LESS THAN 3 minute audio file before DEC 15, 2022 to [email protected] to be a part of the "GOODBYE FEELIN WEIRD listener audio collage".  You are welcome to be anonymous if you choose. It's time for me to move on.  Thank you to all of those who have supported me and my art. Recorded Oct 20, 2022. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Hillary L. McBride PhD returns (ep 105) to talk owning the tenderness, pain, & wisdom inside; coming back to the self; becoming a parent; grief & joy; and The Wisdom of Your Body.  This is a BEAUTIFUL conversation! We also talk: making space for the parts which are still in healing process; non-hierarchical community; parenting as a return to self; humanizing podcast interactions; being small AND taking up space; growing & healing; taking your own medicine; learning how to return home; what IS the self?; letting go of colonial, patriarchal hierarchies; and MORE. Hillary's website & book "The Wisdom of Your Body" Recorded April 26, 2022 (intro/outro Oct 21, 2022). SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Shayne D. returns (ep 60, 72, 73 & 107) to talk about living on his own for the first time in his life, why people do "crazy" things; & how he's finding peace on the inside & outside. we also talk: accountability (do what you say you'll do); owning the pain we carry; generating compassion (for self & others); being highly sensitive; the humyn potential to be a saint & a demon; being Institutionalized; Borderline Personality Disorder; his father's BPD & his death; the energy of group rage; living gentle, quiet lives; the power of music & art; spirituality & religion; & more. Recorded Aug 8, 2022 (intro/outro Sept 30, 2022). SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Sone talks growth VS. fixed mindsets; hope & hopelessness;  karma; practicing LOVE & compassion; learning disabilities; & healing relationships. we also talk: being with ALL of the humyn experiences (grief & joy); energy purging; fearful-avoidant attachment styles; sitting with the hurt & not passing it on to others; skepticism & the intersection of parts; fear of failure; shame; colonial mindset; the forget/remember & freeze/thaw cycles; wanting to leave my body; love & gratitude for life; non-monogamy; secrets, white-lies & dishonesty; and a GOOSE update. Recorded May 23, 2022 (intro/outro August 25, 2022). SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Maja talks Vaginismus; mind-body connection; finding a safe therapist; trauma therapy; healing through relationship; & PTSD. CW: brief mention of sexual violence & self-harm. We also discuss: shaking, screaming, jumping up and down to release energy; behavioural therapy (CBT) as short term care; learning to hate & disconnect from the body at a young age; disconnection from body as cultural norm; the power of connection; "the problem is physical and the solution is physical"; & more! “When you have a relationship with your body, you don’t want to hurt it” Recorded April 4, 2022 (in/outro July 28, 2022). SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Karrigan shares her story with autism, sensory issues, letting go of shame, SPECIAL INTERESTS (Lady Gaga & Jurassic Park), chronic pain, Endometriosis & Adenomyosis, shitty doctors, AND getting a hysterectomy in her 20s. We also talk: ADHD; not being taken seriously by doctors; masking chronic pain; self-hatred AND no longer hating the self; being bullied for her special interests; learning to mask at a young age; finding people to unmask with; NEEDING support; the ability to read people's repressed inner worlds; patriarchy; the shame of "laziness; the importance and privilege of having a quiet & consistent home; being raised by a single mother; Gastrointestinal issues; people's discomfort with your pain; and MORE. “I planned my entire day around being in pain…and not everybody likes to hear that” Recorded November 16, 2021 (intro/outro: July 24, 2022). SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

In which I sit beside the river and share ideas about decolonizing the inner landscape, slowing down & shifting the Emotional Climate-Change (within every humyn on this planet). Also discussed: Grieving and celebrating as part of honouring life; Carrying grief from ancestors; Sensitivity as a gift to humyns; Colonial mindset ("it only has value if I decide it has value") vs Community mindset ("everything has intrinsic value whether or not I understand it"); "I don’t own my emotions"; Climate change as humyns forgetting how to belong; PEACE as a fluctuating state (like the seasons and emotions); Welcoming my anxious parts; Being a part of the earth system and the internal system; Being PART of community; Meditation & rest; “I’m too busy to rest and slow down”; The dominator/colonial mindset (the anthropocentric mindset); Remembering how to belong (to self and community); Remembering how to be apart of the non-humyn community; Decolonization (starts within—how I treat my self, my body, my emotions); Inner peace is outer peace; Realigning the inner parts; Where I’m at is exactly where I’m at (honouring that); Welcoming in all of my parts and emotions; Being a part of a humyn system that is beyond us (which is actively destroying & harming the planet and ourselves); The first step is saying “whoa, I’m stuck” and honouring that and BEing there; AND MORE. Recorded April 16, 2022. This is a PATREON Bonus Episode!  Go to www.patreon.com/feelinweird to listen to every bonus episode. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Kitty Sipple talks collective grief; multiplicity; the psychiatric industrial complex; synchronicities, magic & tarot; living in extreme states; & being Mad, Multiple and Autistic. Kitty is Mad & multiple. they are a constellation of neuroqueer/Autistic polymath polymorphic storytellers. kitty exists in this timeline as a white, disabled, trans/non-binary femme creature. We also talk: the collective self (many people within one person); Dissociative Identity Disorder; existing in different timelines; connecting through grief; grief & joy; grieving as CELEBRATING life; compassion, grace & forgiveness of self (and others); unlearning capitalism; the magic of "I'm not ALONE!"; the fool & the magician (tarot cards); making amends; disconnecting and reconnecting to community; banishing the self; witnessing animals grieve; non-hierarchical power; AUTHENTIC connection as a BALM for loneliness; trauma fundamentalism; and MORE. Kitty's website & IG @fungifemme Recorded Feb 7 (Intro: May 5&6), 2022. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Dr. Robyn talks developing relationships with our bodies; sitting and BREATHING (coregulation) in nature; rejecting & reclaiming spirituality; autism (sensory overwhelm); & MORE. Dr. Robyn Henderson-Espinoza (TransQueer Latinx Activist Scholar & Politicized Theologian) joins me for a heart-felt conversation about co-creating & rebuilding heart-centered communities and connections (with ourselves, our bodies and our communities)! We also talk: relationships as HEALING; proliferating love; a love-hate relationship with humanity; eating food together as powerful connection; the transactional nature of capitalism; needing better models to pattern ourselves after; fragmenting of self; spirituality as CONNECTION; reconnecting to our inner truth; having ideas, not answers; sitting in nature and remembering how to BE (SLOW down); defining 'god'; atheism & agnosticism; pantheism (god in everything); forest bathing & earthing; the slow road back to self; composting social media; the challenge of being around people; the paradox of being meaningfully very small and very big; and MORE! AND Non Wels joins to talk about reconnecting with our inner-child.  Pre-order his Dear Childhood Me journal. Connect with Dr. Robyn. Recorded March 14, 22 (Intro: April 4&5) 2022. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

The second episode of THE WEIRDO CALL-IN SHOW features inter-dimensional listener phone calls, listener-submitted songs AND guests like Producer Kye, Colin Show, Dagenson, Sarah Sarenson, Legal-Advisor Timmy, and FUTURE ME!  This one's weird, silly, and heart-centred! Topics include: decolonization; inner peace=outer peace; finding REAL support; belonging & connection; compassion; crying; shape-shifting tricksters; sadness RIGHT underneath anger; the paradoxical nature of reality; and MUCH more. Featuring songs from Gary Candlewaxface, Frank Bottoms, and Billy Goblinhat! Recorded March 9-16, 2022. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Natalia and I navigate shut down; taking in love; fear of people, spirits, & losing control; magic, mystery & awe; challenging trips; reclaiming spirituality; & "what is my place in this world??" Natalia joins me for what MIGHT be the most interesting & challenging podcast recording I've ever made! We discuss: psychedelics as agents of change, healing + harm; reclaiming spirituality & magic; challenging trips; fear of love, people, ghosts, demons, spirits, bears, cougars, sleeping alone, losing control; spirituality (and shame); the mystery, magic and AWE of life; the harm of capitalism; "what is my place in society?"; the importance of ART, relationships, and beauty; BELONGING; nurturing silliness, play & creativity; and MUCH more. Recorded July 13, 2021 (intro: Feb 24, 2022). SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Do you need and/or want someone to listen to and hold space for you as you grieve/feel and reconnect with your body and emotions?  Are you tired of seeing therapists who don't ACTUALLY listen or support you?  Do you like hearing my voice and want to be heard by me?  Do you want to remember how to feel, how to REALLY exist in your body?  Do you need to grieve generations of pain and sorrow?  I can be that person for you (if it feels right).   I have been sitting with people one-on-one in a relational-healing context for the last 4 months and I want to open myself up to sitting with new people. I'm not a therapist/counsellor but I do have a gift for holding space and going deep with people.  I will not psychoanalyze you, I will not try to fix you; I will support you as best as I can, in a way that actually FEELS supportive to YOU. Sliding Scale + Pay What You Can rates; no one will be turned away who is too poor. Send me an email if you're curious: [email protected]

Dayle Hendrix's entire life changed when, at age 16, she received a terminal diagnosis (Fabry Disease).  She thought she'd be dead at 30, but she's surpassed that age and now she's making sense of her diagnosis and what LIFE and DEATH mean to her.  This is one of my fav episodes! We also discuss: Being raised as a conservative Christian; Witchcraft; The loneliness & challenge of processing a terminal diagnosis; Martyrdom; Denial of death; Death rituals; Wanting to leave a legacy & be remembered; The fear of heaven and hell; Deathphobia; RUNNING AWAY FROM DEMONS; What happens after I die?; the Christian savior complex (Good intentions which harm others); Missions trips (colonialism); The challenge of looking into the mirror; Fear of death (and anxiety); Needing intimacy; Laughter as a defense mechanism; Everyone has a terminal diagnosis, they just haven’t received it from an authority figure; Ignoring death and grief = not fully living; Partying as a response to a conservative, Christian upbringing; Gentle, slow healing; Surfing the waves of life; Exercising when I feel scared (releasing the physical energy); Integrating emotional changes; Avoidance-of-death as a cultural trait; Grieving as a way of celebrating and honouring death/loss; Seeing many different perspectives; Honouring the weirdos (wackadoodles); and MUCH more. Dayle's IG @the___simple___life & Youtube! Recorded Dec 20, 2021 (Intro: Jan 18 & 19 2022). SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Dresden von Saturnalia was raised by an emotionally inept military father & an absent mother (who died when Dresden was 18).  Dresden, until recently, struggled VERY hard with stability, friendships, safety, and emotions.  He's found deep healing in his journey and has joined me to share his story. We also discuss: Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD) & Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD); the ripple effects of healing; rapid cycling of moods & shifting; processing, venting and validating anger; having FIERY emotions/passion; AFAB & identifying androgyne; collectively processing grief within community; the grief of surviving; decolonization; no longer identifying with a diagnosis; having basic safety-needs met; compassion for self & challenging people; becoming a tattoo artist; check-ins & consent; gratitude and survivor's guilt for healing; and so much more. Dresden's IG: @saturnalis.artes Recorded July 27 (intro/outro Dec 30), 2021. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

CONTENT ADVISORY: death, suicide, violence, self harm. John Penman returns (episode 76) to talk about his recent relapse into self harm (and how he's learned to treat himself with compassion), processing death, BPD, consent and psychedelics. we also discuss: self-punishment; forgiving self; being a part of a death-centric cycle; watching the self GROW; the WAVES of life; moving through GUILT & shame; accidentally killing animals + the GRIEF; monogamy & partnership & love; clear communication; neurodiversity; and MUCH more. Follow John on IG @jnpnmn Recorded May 23 & Dec1, 2021. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Amber Nicole (episode 71) reached out to me at a time when I was at my absolute lowest (~5 years ago).  She sat with me as I tried to untangle years of confusion, trauma, and deep, deep shame.  This is a conversation many years later where we discuss what those initial meetings were like and where we're both at now. We also discuss: feeling compassion for past selves; psychedelics; the grief walk; healing the inner child; learning to take love in; needing physical nurturing; relational healing; addiction; total despair; carrying trauma in the body; resentment; allowing emotion to ROLL through; running from love; being my authentic self; makin amends; therapy as an antiquated model of support; emotionphobia; believing painful stories about self; living on a challenging planet; and MUCH more. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

My guest and I are autistic.  We talk about being HIGHLY sensitive, masking, autistic burnout, neurodivergent shame, and getting a diagnosis. We also discuss: the shortcomings of the western medical system; turning off ALL emotions as a response to having big feelings; special interests; the gap between logic and heart; queer and spiritual; O.C.D., G.A.D., & major depression; BPD and not identifying with past diagnoses; understanding and respecting your own needs and boundaries; fear of taking up too much space; clear, direct communication; PLUS, Gaby, Dagenson and I chat about feeling scared and believing in our selves AND I rant about the humyn species and how confusing they/we are! Recorded June 15 & Oct 17/18, 2021. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Non Wels (You, Me, Empathy; Feely Human) and I navigate BIG feelings, jealousy, psilocybin journeys, DIY healing and art, limiting beliefs, self-harm and the belief that "I deserve to be in pain." We also discuss: perfectionism; BPD; the power of podcasts; shutting down in order to survive in our families growing up; reconnecting with our younger parts; being and Eyore; EMDR; mind-stories; unlearning; fear of joy; identifying emotions in the body; small talk; and SO much more. Learn more about Non. Recorded Sept 9, 2020 & Oct 8, 2021. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Do you need and/or want someone to listen to and hold space for you as you grieve/feel and reconnect with your body and emotions?  Are you tired of seeing therapists who don't ACTUALLY listen or support you?  Do you want to remember how to feel, how to REALLY exist in your body?  Do you need to grieve generations of pain and sorrow?  I can be that person for you (if it feels right).   I'm opening myself up to seeing people one-on-one in a relational-healing context.  I'm not a therapist/counsellor but I do have a gift for holding space and going deep with people.  I will not give advice, I will not try to fix you; I will support you as best as I can, in a way that actually FEELS supportive to YOU. Sliding scale rates; no one will be turned away who is too poor. Send me an email if you're curious: [email protected]

At age 18, Greg Washington had the chance to enter the NFL draft and instead chose to serve his country (USA) and go to war.  A few years of combat later, his two best-friends were killed and he was forced home by the military, he found himself drinking daily just to cope with his PTSD and TBI.  He almost killed himself but he had a guardian angel who intervened.  Since then, he's found healing and meaning. We also talk about: complicated grief; the cumulative effects of racism and slavery; loneliness and isolation; wanting to FEEL again; PRESSURE; opening up in a culture that teaches a man to shut down; connected healing; intergenerational trauma; taking care of family; and SO much more. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

An anonymous guest was cyberbullied and gaslit by students in his college for an entire year, he shares how this DEEPLY impacted his sense of safety and self! We also discuss: fear of eye contact; understanding trauma response (fight/flight/freeze); the impact of trauma; "I am a failure"; self sabotage; psychosis or gaslighting???; fear of "going crazy"; PTSD; sitting with emotions; coming out after being bullied; intrusive thoughts; and SO much more! Recorded Dec 15, 2020 & Aug 6, 2021. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

James W. Jesso (Adventures Through The Mind) and I discuss the potential of psychedelics for DEEP-healing, the POWER of understanding emotions. and the MAGIC of words. We also discuss: transforming a "BAD TRIP" into a life-changing experience, experiencing "I AM HOME in my body", AFTER the wave of terror, "WHAT IS mental health?", harm reduction, "these are NOT party drugs", context of use, feeling triggered, understanding emotions, being shown DEEP traumas, entheogens & plant medicines, PLUS, I have a CONVERSATION with THE UNIVERSE! James' website: https://www.jameswjesso.com/ Recorded June 8 & July 16, 2021. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Conflict is inevitable. My partner, Tuna, joins me to destigmatize conflict within relationships (especially for people with deep attachment wounds and traumas)--to normalize "sometimes it feels really hard to be in relationship (and this is how we find meaning within that)." We also discuss: FEAR of CLOSENESS, intimacy & love; crying together (healing); being HIGHLY sensitive; developing code words and unique language; learning to sit with my feelings before responding or reacting; non-violent communication; creating a world within a relationship; emotional CO-regulation; NEEDING other people; plant medicines; FULLY resolving conflict; taking my armour off, dismantling my walls; repressing needs/feelings; fear of conflict; CREATIVITY & Co-creating; and SO much more! Recorded July 4 & 6 2021. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Alex Benbow Carter (artist, musician) and I talk ALL things ANXIETY, depression and CREATIVITY. We also discuss:panic attacks during class presentations;SMALL talk;opening up to strangers;INSOMNIA;challenging relationships with our dads;HOW TO be an adult?;grieving death in family;health-anxiety ("I HAVE CANCER!!!" (except I don't));parent's divorce;finding moments of PEACE;CBT, meditation, being present;trying to avoid conflict;needing to slow my thoughts down;ART and PAIN;General Anxiety Disorder;and SO much more! Alex's IG: @alexbc_art Recorded Sept 25, 2020; June 28&29 2021. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Christina Jumper (Pickles and Vodka podcast) and I question REALITY, spirituality/Christianity, Brene Brown & celebrity WHILE also wondering "is riding a motorcycle meditation for people who need danger to feel safe??" CW: BRIEF mention of suicide. We also discuss: IS THIS A SIMULATION?; TAKING UP sssspppaaaaaccceeee; meditation or "I HATE SITTING STILL!"; RIDING motorcycles and loving it; bulimia; cannabis & psychedelics; learning to DANCE again!; reconnecting to the heart; the damage done by capitalism & religion; being KIND to the self; CYNICISM!; intellectualization as a defense; "celebrities are lost"; self-censorship; reparenting the inner child; believing there is something EVIL inside me; embracing PLAY; taking life less & more seriously; UNLOCKING the door to the meat prison & transforming it into a MEAT palace; and SO much more! Christina's IG: @picklesandvodkapodcast SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Ruth/Haha and I explore a challenging conversation which results in me feeling triggered (listen as we gently resolve it, through non-violent communication, and come back into a really beautiful connection)! We also discuss: playfulness and FUN; DEEP depression; hula-hooping & riding scooters; the fear of upsetting people; wanting SO badly to love and be loved; being KIND; giving advice; advocating for my needs; wearing LOTS of colours; reconnecting with the child self; "is reaction a CHOICE?"; being trans; expressing through clothing/fashion; SHAME; and SO much more! Ruth's IG: @drawn.by.laughing SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

In which I discuss WHY I believe that framing my neurodiverse brain and the way I experience the world as a DISORDER, a disability and/or a PROBLEM which NEEDS to BE FIXed is only ONE way to frame it (and is potentially very limiting and dangerous). I discuss: decolonization begins within (how I treat my self and my parts) (decolonizing the self); unlearning and questioning the colonial capitalist mindset; reconnecting my parts; learning love and compassion; CURIOSITY as the polar opposite of shame; and SO much more! This was recorded in response to a listener asking for clarity on what I said about "mental illness is a deep disconnection from the self" in a past audio journal. Recorded May 23, 2021. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Shayne Dyment returns (episodes 60, 72, 73) on his 2-years-out-of-prison anniversary!  Shayne spent 22 years (a life sentence) in prison for murder, he's finding his meaning and NEW ways to express himself emotionally and artistically! CW: brief talk of violence, murder, childhood sexual abuse. We discuss: BPD + ADHD; the CYCLE of violence & pain; understanding BOUNDARIES; true crime & the FASCINATION with violence & murder; learning to be a NObody; PAIN as a teacher; learning the HARD way; the dark side of celebrity; hitting ROCK bottom; stepping out of the intergenerational cycle of pain by SITTING with the pain and emotions; art, creativity, learning to EXPRESS; finding jobs that FIT our needs; understanding PROJECTIONS; the spiritual AWAKENING found in the prison experience; the desire to FIT in; colonialism, academia, hypocrisy; and SO much more! Shayne's Youtube channel! Recorded Nov 3, 2020. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Two trans artist people talk about gender, masculinity, + processing and reacting to BIG feelings!  Jared was raised female, I was raised male; neither of us identify with our gender assignment (at birth) and THUS we EACH have a unique take on GENDER. We also discuss: Gandalf as the ideal masculine archetype; reclaiming gender; men wearing skirts; crying A LOT; gender as an expression of self; dissociation & depersonalization; gender dysphoria; puffing up when feeling scared; performing gender; deprogramming binary thinking; SHAME, fear + anger; coming BACK into the body (sitting with emotions); and SO much more! Jared's IG: @eatbadart SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Hillary L McBride (Therapist, Writer, Podcaster) has a HEART-FELT conversation/connection with me about unlearning toxic masculinity (harm) and reconnecting with AUTHENTIC self (among MANY other things)(healing).  I cried, I laughed, I loved this. We also discuss: eating disorders; feminism; healing with love; patriarchy as a harm to EVERY-ONE; colonization; systems that disconnect self from self and others; therapy/counselling; understanding projections; sitting with the fear; unlearning harm through gentle connection; beauty standards; self-harm; high sensitivity; and SO much more! Hillary's website: https://hillarylmcbride.com/ SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Blair joins me to discuss relationships with our dads, being raised male, repressed emotions, cool guys, toxic masculinity, what "success" means, being young punks, the harm we've caused, unlearning bias and learning tenderness. We also talk music!, anxiety, depression, vulnerability, stoicism, feeling shy, masking fear, bullying, conflict, physicality as identity, feeling DIFFERENT, stress, aging, authentic connection, privilege as harmful for all, drinking, nurturing childlike wonder, and MUCH more! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Nic (Pynk Spots, Bitchy Shit Show, etc) talks repressing emotions, anger, disability, getting diagnosed with autism as an adult and SO MUCH more! Listen-to and/or Watch my episode (ep 002) on Pynk Spots SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Tobias didn't receive his autism diagnosis until he was in his 20s!  In this episode, he explains disability, stimming, masking, ableism, and his experiences and obstacles. We also discuss: sensory overstimulation; not having childhood memories; eye contact; closed captions; accessibility barriers; learning disabilities; CRIP CAMP; fear of disability; disability-first language; conversion therapy (ABA); shame; unlearning bias; colonialism; neurodivergence and neurotypicality; and SO much more! Tobias's instagram: @artfxg SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Hilary Jacobs Hendel (author of "It's Not Always Depression"; psychotherapist) explains AEDP, how emotions & trauma function, and how shame, depression and anxiety act as adaptive states. We also discuss: emotionphobic culture; laughter as a defence; feeling overwhelmed & dissociated; banishing parts of the self; repressing emotions; triggers; emotional neglect; "the body knows how to heal"; creating a sense of safety; and SO much more! Hilary's website: http://hilaryjacobshendel.com/ Read "It's Not Always Depression" (article) SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

(CW: brief talk of suicide & self harm) Alexis explains how white supremacy and racism has drastically impacted her mental health as a black womyn.  She talks growing up in white spaces; needing to work X times harder than white people to get half as much; and the power of collective/communal trauma & healing. We also discuss: depression; suicide + self harm; dissociation; feeling HIGHLY sensitive + emotional; challenging parents; learning to trust people; embracing softness & vulnerability; breaking the cycle of emotional repression; grieving; unlearning colonialism; learning to support and BE supported; feeling lonely; and SO much more! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

James Sebastiano Jr. talks anxiety, depression, and his pursuit to understand his mental health, all of which are topics of his recent film, Chasing The Present (available Sept 29, 2020). We also discuss:panic attacks; numbing feelings with drugs/alcohol; learning to suppress feelings at a young age; masculinity; opening up to parents; ayahuasca; getting everything you've ever wanted (and still feeling empty); spirituality; meditation; anxiety as a warning signal; self-sabotage; surrender and SO much more! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Penny Fenske (AEDP practitioner, clinical counselor) explains what Accelerated Experiential Dynamic Psychotherapy IS and how it affects people.  Penny is one of the warmest, kindest, strongest people I know and I feel so honoured to share this conversation.  I myself have gained tremendous benefits from this therapy modality! We also discuss trauma; learning to trust people; DSM diagnoses; connected-healing; BPD; depression; anxiety; attachment wounds; and we give a real-time example of what AEDP looks like. Contact Penny Fenske here:  https://www.nurturecounselling.org/about SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

PEPAḴIYE Ashley Cooper returns (episode 18) to continue the discussion about race, racism and stepping into fear.  She tells of her experience as an indigenous woman, reclaiming her identity, culture, language and sense of belonging.  This is a tender and HEARTWARMING conversation with a DEAR friend of mine. We also discuss:INTERGENERATIONAL TRAUMA; unlearning BIAS; learning to let love in; inner-child healing; gender; adult children of alcoholics; learning to PLAY again; decolonizing; feeling JOY; validation; grace in making mistakes; and SO MUCH more! Follow Ashley on instagram: @pepakiye SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Chayenne (Episode 94) returns to continue the conversation about privilege, identity and belonging. We also discuss: SHAME, white men; "all lives matter"; understanding my gender; feeling invalidated by parents; "I don't see colour"; LABELS; editing parts of the self; collective trauma; collective gaslighting + trauma response; naming "the thing' and MUCH more! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

This is a conversation about fear, connection, and the POWER of gentle kindness!  Chayenne and I enter into a topic that I feel SCARED of: RACE AND RACISM. Chayenne called me IN to this discussion (I wanted to avoid it because I felt so scared of getting it wrong and being punished). As a result, I've grown A LOT from it. We discuss:privilege; calling people IN; call-out & cancel culture; body shame; sense of self + belonging; grace; learning to make mistakes; fear/shame-based parenting; challenging parents; and SO much more! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Nicole explains the feeling of wearing an emotional sunburn for 3 weeks of every month--like being in a tunnel: impossible to see the future, seemingly lost and stuck in struggle.  This is her experience with PMDD and she wants people out there to know they're not alone. We also discuss:deleting everyone from social media, letting love in, endometriosis, everyone's unique way of processing their hurt, toxic relationships, not remembering as a survival strategy, BPD, challenges with the medical system and doctors, binge eating, support groups, and SO much more! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

My guest from episode 37 returns to explain her last two psychotic episodes and her visits to (and stays in) psychiatric emergency ("the psych ward"), where she received 8 treatments of ECT. We also discuss grief, compulsions & intrusive thoughts (OCD), wanting to be 'off meds', connection with others, and SO much more! *Listen to the FULL episode at https://www.patreon.com/feelinweird SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Artist Luke Ramsey joins me to discuss creativity and the challenges of everyday life.  We discuss the importance of adults/teachers in the creative journey; toxic shame; feeling compassion for self; wanting to quit; crying in public spaces; and SO MUCH MORE! "If you're stoking that fire of warmth and goodness within yourself then you want to resonate that in others" Find Luke's art at https://lukeramseystudio.com  or on instagram @lukeramseystudio Post a drawing inspired by this episode with hashtag #feelinweird *Listen to the FULL, unedited episode at https://www.patreon.com/feelinweird SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

My guest grew up as a happy child but when she turned 8, her "happiness faded".  She felt perpetually scared of angering her father and her mother was dealing with depression.   Eventually my guest turned to self-harm as a way of coping: digging her finger nails into her skin, she felt a sense of relief. In this episode, we discuss fear of conflict, the challenge of puberty,  fear of not being liked,  perfectionism,  feeling empowered,  needs,  fear of expressing anger,  AND MUCH more! *Listen to the FULL, unedited episode at https://www.patreon.com/posts/35498602 SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

My guest and I discuss addiction, challenging families, how to NOT pass on trauma to your kids, feeling okay with doing nothing, needing creativity, FOMO, the quest for power and fame and SO much more.   CW: brief talk of self-harm and suicide. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Tessa (@citywitch) talks about the COMPLEX relationship with their mother, their B.P.D. + Bipolar diagnoses, learning what their needs are, fantasy as escape, somatic therapy, and reparenting their inner child! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Rain Dove talks about the complex relationship between compassion and rage: how they deal with a stranger's anger being directed at them.  We also discuss:activism; gender; trusting others; trauma; 'righteous rage'; power dynamics; violence; making mistakes; and SO MUCH MORE! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Magnolia McKay talks about being raised Christian (where abstinence-based sexuality was the norm) + the pain and confusion that surrounded that experience. We also discuss:Spiritual Abuse, Divorce, Shame, Sexual Repression, being attracted to multiple genders, reclaiming her sexuality, and much MORE! Listen to Kye's Christianity story in episode P17! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Carey Niekrash spent YEARS binge-eating + restricting + over-exercising + dieting + hating herself and her body.  Holy shit, she's come a long way!  She's now an anti-diet health coach, but on this episode she talks ALL about her past.  We also discuss: BULIMIA, postpartum depression, sexual assault (TW), being highly-sensitive and an introvert, out-patient treatments, perfectionism + PRESSURE, therapy + healing, and SO MUCH more!  Visit Carey's instagram & website SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

An Anonymous guest talks about growing up in psych-hospitals and foster homes, coming from an abusive and violent home, and Mast Cell Activation Syndrome. We also discuss:  suicide attempts (TW),  psychiatric meds,  being allergic to the sun,  psychiatric diagnoses (and how useful/restrictive they are),  assisted suicide,  alternative healing,  and MUCH more! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Rhandi's brother was diagnosed as a sociopath at a young age--he tortured animals and had violent anger outbursts (like his dad, yet more dangerous).  They grew up in violent, unsafe homes in Michigan and never felt like they belonged.  Rhandi's relationship with her brother was tumultuous (at best) and his recent suicide has left her feeling confused, devastated and angry: she didn't like her brother, but she loved him. CW: suicide, sexual abuse, animal abuse, violence. This episode truly exemplifies how even the "worst" people are not ALL bad--people are complex!--and suicide leaves so many unanswerable questions... We also discuss fear of abandonment, attachment issues, toxic/chaotic family structures, longing for connection/belonging, inter-generational trauma and SO much more! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Non Wels talks about being a hyper-sensitive, weirdo-artist humyn and what it was like to grow up with an angry, scary dad!  We talk about asserting boundaries and interacting with those scary parents as adults.   We also discuss:  craving control because of chaos;  embracing the chaos;  wishing our dad's weren't alive;  feeling like a dang weirdo who doesn't fit in;  AND LOTS MORE. Listen to PART TWO here! Follow Non: @youmeempathy SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Kelsey talks emotionally neglectful parents; BPD; DBT; HEAVY emotions; HSP; dissociation; and coping mechanisms! Kelsey grew up feeling like her parents hated her and she's had troubled relationships ever since. She was eventually diagnosed with BPD, which we talk about at length, but what I find truly interesting is what some psychologists call Childhood Emotional Neglect: "Why do I feel so fucked up but can't point to any specific incident in my childhood???  My parents kept me well fed and dressed and I was physically taken care of...  WHAT's WRONG WITH ME???"  If you've ever felt like you or your emotions are "TOO MUCH", this one's for you ;)   We also discuss: DBT; dissociating; using drugs & alcohol to soothe; regulating HEAVY emotions; journaling; HSP; "irrational" fears (eg. "the boogieman) and LOTS more. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Carl M. tells the story of his father's chaotic and traumatic life (and how that affected Carl).  Carl's grandfather abandoned the family and Carl's grandmother was mentally unstable and thus, Carl's father spent most of his own childhood physically ill and in institutions (hospitals and foster care).  We discuss, directly and indirectly, the concept of intergenerational trauma and how our parents' and grandparents' pain and trauma lives in us and affects our lives. We also discuss:  electro-shock therapy,  psychiatric institutions,  Carl's bipolar diagnosis,  mental illness,  family and instability,  emotionally distant fathers,  reconnecting with Carl's father and becoming friends,  asthma and other illness,  our parents' limitations,  and MORE! Listen to Carl's album SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Aneela Kumar struggled with hair pulling (trichotillomania) since a young age (because of an underlying anxiety).  It wasn't until she was standing atop her business's building in NYC, wishing she could jump that she was able to finally make the changes to live a healthier life (quit her "stable", yet unfulfilling life, went backpacking, went back to school and started a career in a creative venture). She started a company called Habit Aware that has a Keen bracelet which helps people who suffer from BFRBs. We also discuss: how it's "not that easy" to "stop a bad habit", OCD intrusive thoughts and compulsions, purpose, pain + struggle, father dying of cancer in her teens, being a tomboy, and so much more! Find Aneela's products at: https://habitaware.com/ SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

John Penman talks: abusive cop father (trauma); bisexual shame; PTSD; BPD; self-harm; intuition; transforming pain into love; & more! He grew up with a father who was traumatized by his experience as a cop in Detroit in the post-"Crack Boom" era (when a once glorious city fell apart). His father constantly threatened to kill himself. He shot his gun in the house. He threatened to bring John to "little boy jail" if he didn't behave the way his father wanted. John's Father was transformed by his untreated PTSD into an abusive person. John was forced to be his therapist (as a child) but eventually had to cut him out of his life. Here's the story of trauma creating trauma creating trauma (the vicious cycle). We also discuss: trusting people who love us, paranoia, fear, positive affirmations, transforming pain into love, homophobia, being bisexual. cutting / self-harm (CW), inherited trauma, being your parent's therapist, trusting your intuition, being kind, plus LOTS more! Contact John: johnthepenman.com IG @jnpnmn SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Josh talks: being raised in a culture of fear and judgement; compassion; speaking in tongues; shame; self-hatred; & reclaiming spirituality! Josh Van Leeuwen was raised in constant fear of hell + a culture of fear, intolerance, homophobia, racism, ETC.  Yet, he's one of the kindest, warmest people you're likely to meet.  So how'd a person raised in fear become such a compassionate being?  LISTEN IN ON MY TALK WITH HIM! We discuss:  his mother's death,  speaking in tongues + other absurd actions caused by "the holy spirit" (eg. barking like dogs in public),  homophobia,  shame,  laughter as medicine,  self-hatred,  raising children to be loving and accepting,  sweat lodges,  RECLAIMING your spirituality!  and MORE! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Raul is disabled, queer and radical; they have Lyme Disease & Bipolar; we talk dissociation, CPTSD, Meds, support systems, being young and disabled & more! CW: violence Raul Odo has been living with chronic pain since they were 6 and were bitten by a lyme-carrying tick.  It was caught immediately, and Raul was informed that they would never have to worry about it...but somehow the antibiotics didn't kill the bacteria.  This is their story! We also discuss:  being young and disabled,  dissociating,  being homeless and sick,  inability to work a 9-5 job,  CPTSD,  kratum,  medication,  introversion vs. extroversion,  doctors who don't listen,  social media as a support community + outlet,  coming out trans/queer at a young age,  aaaaaaand MORE. Support on PATREON: patreon.com/feelinweird Buy M E R C H: kyeplant.bandcamp.com Donate via PAYPAL Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Web: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Contribute $5-to-50/month AND access EVERY regular + bonus Feelin Weird episode on the Feelin Weird PATREON: patreon.com/feelinweird

Shayne returns to talk about life outside of prison: being sensitive, freedom, optimism, trauma, suffering, enlightenment + MORE Shayne Dyment returns (from ep 60) to talk about life as a free person!  He was recently released from prison--he served 20 years for multiple murder charges--and has LOTS of thoughts and observations about life on the outside.  The answer to "how does it feel" is not as straight forward as you may think...   We also discuss:being a Highly Sensitive Person (HSP); Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) (fear of rejection / abandonment); loneliness; trauma; optimism; empathy; shame + guilt; why we suffer; our ability to change; enlightenment; psychological solitude; the power of vulnerability; AND MORE Listen to PART TWO on patreon: SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Amber talks abusive/neglectful parents; radical healing; hyper-sensitivity; compassion & empathy; & finding out her abusive dad was repressing his homosexuality (after he died)! She found out her angry, violent father was gay after he died (via his hidden dildo and porn collection) but he never let on that he had a secret. But what chance did he have? His dad used to drive him into the country to beat the shit out of him and leave him to find his way home. Amber suspects it's because her grandpa knew her dad was "different". I call amber my guru--she considers herself a claircognizant medium. She went through a four year period of deep, crippling depression but managed to work through her trauma in a strange and wonderful way. This is a wild story! We also discuss: OCD, getting pregnant at 16 and kicked out of her house, cutting + depression + hopelessness, optimism, compassion, being HYPER SENSITIVE, her dad's speedo collection, a secret, magical letter she wrote me, and lots more! Listen to the FULL episode on patreon ​​Support on PATREON: patreon.com/feelinweird Buy M E R C H: kyeplant.bandcamp.com Donate via PAYPAL: feelinweird.com Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Email: [email protected]  Access EVERY regular + bonus Feelin Weird episode on the Feelin Weird patreon: patreon.com/feelinweird

Joey talks surviving a SEVERE eating disorder; outpatient recovery; binge + purge; sexual assault (CW); & the harm of "clean eating". Joey (poet/artist) tells her story of surviving a severe eating disorder--at her worst, she was bingeing 5 times per day but eventually she checked herself into an outpatient recovery program. PLUS we talk about the inter-connection between eating disorders and mental health. Joey is a writer who lives in New York (AND ALSO A REALLY NICE + FUNNY PERSON!). We also talk: unplanned pregnancy + abortion, sexual assault (CW), "clean eating" as a gateway drug to disordered eating, binge + purging, set point weight theory, writing as an outlet, AND MUCH MORE! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

My high-school partner & I chat agoraphobia; coming out; being FLAKEY; benzo addiction; fatphobia & our past relationship! Two teenagers with panic disorders dated but never realized they were both experiencing similar anxieties.  My first romantic partner talks to me about growing up with severe social-anxiety and weed-induced depersonalizations and dissociation:  she was open about her struggles, I kept mine locked up. She also talks about agoraphobia, benzo addiction, coming out, growing up in homophobic environments, protective bubbles, BEING FLAKEY, medication, weight gain, fat phobia, body-positivity, roller derby, patience, dating a Christian straight edge teenager (me), and moooooore. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

We talk religious brainwashing; cocaine addiction; becoming a Christian missionary across the world; being a mom; sexual assault (CW); conversion therapy; and abusive parents. PART ONE! From religious brainwashing to cocaine addiction to becoming a Christian missionary across the world, this is a story of a mother-of-two who is processing the abuse she experienced in her younger years. Her parents were hippies in the 70's but a bad trip led them to the Jesus Movement and later to become extremely conservative evangelical Christians who sheltered their children from the outside world. This is the dark side of "the light".   We discuss: psychological manipulation, sexual repression, abusive parents, being a prophet, sexual assault (TW), denouncing your upbringing, conversion therapy, the long-term effects that brainwashing has on children, and MOOOOOOORE!   Listen to PART TWO here! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Nathalie Maragoni (associate family & marriage therapist) was diagnosed at age 11 with OCD, but presented her first symptoms at age 4.  She explains how ERP (exposure response prevention) saved her from her own torment.  She's currently in the midst of completing her masters degree and training hours so that she can specialize in helping people with OCD and anxiety disorders. We also talk about: Pure O, scrupulosity, sexual orientation, intrusive thoughts and compulsions, and muuuuuuuuuuuuuuch more (obvs)! ​​Support on PATREON: patreon.com/feelinweird Buy M E R C H: kyeplant.bandcamp.com Donate via PAYPAL: feelinweird.com Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Email: [email protected]  Access EVERY regular + bonus Feelin Weird episode on the Feelin Weird patreon: patreon.com/feelinweird

We talk: being a highly sensitive person (HSP) & an empath; being a "good" kid; bible college; perfectionism; organized religion; & feeling inadequate PART ONE! My guest was class valedictorian, got good grades, went to bible college, and didn't drink or have sex until she was 20, so how did she end up in rehab a few years later?  She appeared to be "excelling" in life (destined for great things), but she was SEVERELY depressed--her coping mechanism was disordered eating, and later alcohol and drugs. This is PART ONE of her story. We talk about: being a highly sensitive person and an empath;  organized religion;  perfectionism;  stage fright;  feeling inadequate;  being a female in a male-dominated music scene;  overwhelming pressure to "succeed";  comedy specials;  and SO much more. Listen to PART TWO here! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Tilly tells her story of surviving (and thriving) with a B.P.D. (borderline personality disorder) diagnosis!   Tilly Baker (diagnosed with B.P.D.) is one of the most magical, wonderful people on this planet!  She's an angel with GREAT style and mental health issues. We talk ALL things BPD.  This is one hell of an episode; you'll love it AND fall in love with her. Tilly's IG: @tillybaker SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Tanille Geib, multi-disciplinary artist/educator, talks with me about the power of vulnerability! We also talk about: aging, rejecting beauty standards, rejection & desire, healing the self, complex PTSD (CPTSD), burnout, self-care, trauma and SO much more! Contact Tanille: http://www.tanillegeib.ca/ Instagram: @tanillegeib SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Kimberley Quinlan specializes in treating Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) and Body Focused Repetitive Behaviors (BFRB's) and she talks to me about THE STRUGGLE.  How did the daughter of a hard-working farmer in Australia end up as a family & marriage therapist in Los Angeles?  Listen to this episode! She explains how Exposure and Response Prevention (ERP), Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT), and Habit Reversal Training (HRT) are the only medically proven techniques for dealing with intrusive thoughts and BFRBs. Kimberley's resources: http://kimberleyquinlan-lmft.com/ Instagram: @CBTschool BFRB.ORG .......... Access ALL Feelin Weird episodes + bonus content at:  http://www.patreon.com/feelinweird Instagram: @feelinweirdpod   Facebook: @feelinweird   [email protected] rate/review/subscribe to the podcast on iTunes!

CW: sexual assault, violence, murder, and suicide. Shayne Dyment has spent 22 of his 47 years in prison.  In the last few years, he has been diagnosed with BPD and ADHD which has allowed him to access support for his illnesses.  BASICALLY, Shayne is a glowing example of how untreated trauma and mental illness can manifest in EXTREME pain and suffering.  Oh, also, he's currently serving a life sentence for murder...  But, don't let that trip you up, because Shayne is one of the most sensitive, well spoken people I've ever talked to.  JUST LOOK at the episode photo--that's the smile of a kind soul.  In the last few years, he's discovered theatre and poetry and piano and has found them to be TREMENDOUS outlets for his internal pain and his feelings.   This is a MUST listen.  I know I say every episode is my favourite, but this one hits me right in the feelings.   We also talk about:  being abandoned by parents who struggled with addiction;  sexual abuses he faced and hid from himself and the world due to shame;  fear of rejection + abandonment;  being HIGHLY sensitive;  overcoming fear;  solitary confinement;  intuition & empathy;  extreme feelings of loneliness;  understanding your triggers;  the power of validation and support groups;  and SO much more. ..........   ​​Support on PATREON: patreon.com/feelinweird Buy M E R C H: kyeplant.bandcamp.com Donate via PAYPAL: feelinweird.com Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Email: [email protected]  Access EVERY regular + bonus Feelin Weird episode on the Feelin Weird patreon: patreon.com/feelinweird

Corinna talks being an empath, intuit & witch; bipolar; TAROT; plant medicines; addiction & sobriety; AND she gives me a tarot reading! CW: sexual assault, disordered eating, suicide, bullying, emotional abuse, violence. This is one of my favourite episodes ever. If you've ever experienced trauma (every humyn on this planet), you will get something out of this conversation, I promise. Corinna (@riseupgoodwitch) is a witch and a politically radical intuit who is actively healing herself and others. She's also been diagnosed with bipolar and sees the inter-connectivity between science and magic. We also discuss:  multiple sexual assaults, being HIGHLY sensitive, FEELING the trauma on this planet, being traumatized by the medical system, going off meds entirely ("I DON'T NEED SUPPORT!"), having healing powers BUT needing to heal self in order to actually support others, challenging the system, making healing accessible to ALL (not just wealthy folks), watching your parents heal and transform, sitting with "I don't deserve love", people pleasing as trauma, traumatized parents who won't go to therapy, traumatic repression w/in the family structure ("everything's fine"), drinking too much and yelling at people, harming people, enjoying being in your thirties, substance use as a coping mechanism for trauma, manic episodes, heroin, opioid, benzo, & alcohol addiction, intentional psychedelic use, cannabis abuse (using to escape and numb), mood stabilizers, having an abusive father, emotional regulation, being a community support worker, social work, grieving & healing, making amends!, feeling WITH plants, MAGIC, a family assassination!!! trauma (+inherited trauma), toxic masculinity, AND so much more! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Kolina talks anxiety, depression & OCD; getting diagnosed in her 20s; compulsive behavior; being vocal about your struggles; relapse; & mindfulness. CW: suicide. We also discuss:  the hierarchy of mental illness and suffering, therapy, checking, medication (& medication stigma), normalizing your experience, AND so much more! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Bradford talks: being sober, single, gay & 38; giving up his marriage, crystal meth, & alcohol; feeling invisible; putting up a tough exterior; AA (12-step) & making amends! Bradford (Ep. 33) returns!!!  It's been one year since we talked and one year of sobriety for him.  Soon after our last talk, he moved to LA (after 13 years in Seattle) and has been rebuilding his life ever since.  He gave up his three greatest loves: his ex, alcohol and crystal meth, but now he has an overwhelming support system and the cosmos is telling him it likes him better sober.  But what's it like to be sober, single, gay and almost 39 years-old in a city like Los Angeles???  Often it seems like sobriety will solve all of our problems, but that's often not the case; the struggle is real. We also talk about: his drag career + why he's not performing currently;  fear of rejection;  shame;  other people's success;  putting up a tough exterior to avoid hurt;  and SO much more! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Alice talks CFS; Underactive Thyroid Disease; doctors who don't listen; General Anxiety Disorder; depression; panic attacks; IBS; radical acceptance & being a mental health advocate! Alice Sickface (Mental Health Worker; Body Positivity Influencer) spent one year with crippling depression (and some confusing health concerns).  Later she was diagnosed with an Underactive Thyroid (after her first doctor shrugged it off MANY times) which was the culprit.  She works in the mental health field yet still struggled with the stigmatization of her own mental health and the necessity for pharmaceuticals to treat her General Anxiety Disorder.   We also talk about: Hypothyroidism, mono (glandular fever), her greatest fear coming true (and her surviving), mental health related tv shows, dyspraxia, CBT, "success", Against Me!, and SO much more! Follow Alice on instagram: @alicesickface SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Lola talks psychological & sexual abuse; victim blaming; BPD; bulimia; living in constant fear; self-harm; suicidal ideation; healing & helping others to heal! CW: suicide, self-harm, cutting, sexual abuse, rape, disordered eating. Lola (Med Student; Brazil) was psychologically and sexually abused by a trusted family member for ten years when she was young.  As a teen. her first romantic relationship was emotionally abusive and in her early 20's, she was raped by a stranger.  She lived in constant fear for over ten years until one day she decided she NEEDED to speak up about it (or else she might explode).  Lola was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder in her 20's.  She's now in medical school, soon to be a doctor, and has found healing in speaking about her experience with abuse.  This is her story. We also talk about:  medication,  cutting,  suicidal ideation,  victim blaming,  internet support communities (instagram),  getting the wrong diagnosis,  and SO much more! *Take head to the keywords in this description so you understand what may be a trigger for you!  This is a difficult topic for most people but it is of the UTMOST importance that we listen to survivors of sexual and emotional abuse!* SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Lady Lucia talks SEX WORK; climate justice; witchcraft & tarot; burlesque dancing; eating disorders; being raised Buddhist; & looking outside of capitalism for liberation! We also discuss: her first time having sex for money, sex work stigma and decriminalization, funding her activism by stripping, spirituality + witchcraft, sugar-daddying, the empowerment of burlesque dancing, animal liberation, gender & womyn's studies, idealism + disillusionment, FOSTA, existential depression, eating disorders, general anxiety disorder, and SO much more! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Sabrina Benaim (poet/writer) explains how finding a squash-ball-sized tumor in her twenties led to her vocalizing her feelings and mental health struggles through slam poetry.  Her first mental breakdown was in tenth grade, but she wasn't diagnosed until she was 24.  When she was a kid, she felt like a weirdo, and learned to not talk about her feelings, but now she tours the world, sharing her poems with audiences, breaking down stigma and spreading awareness of mental health.  Sabrina and I alternate between laughter and seriousness in this wonderful episode! We also talk about:  writing as catharsis/therapy,  travelling with mental illness,  depression + anxiety,  panic attacks,  isolation,  positive social media,  dance as therapy,  spirituality + meditation + tarot cards,  synchronicities,  John Mayer,  powerful films,  and MUCH more! Sabrina is the author of Depression and Other Magic Tricks and can be found on instagram @badass_sab SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Stuart Ralph (The OCD Stories podcast) had his first OCD symptom at age 7 but didn't start treating it until age 26.  He shares his story AND his wealth of knowledge about OCD & treatment!  PLUS, there's a new theme song :) We also talk about: Misconceptions of OCD; fear of how others will react to your diagnosis; Pure O; relapse; ERP and ACT; OCD vs. OCPD; Different types of OCD; private vs. public healthcare; meditation & mindfulness; and SO much more! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Alli G (therapist) talks OCD (since age 7); skin picking; being a social worker for holocaust survivors; perfectionism; & the importance of listening & validating people's experiences! CW: suicide, eating disorder. We also talk about: the beginning of her eating disorder (a comment from her mother); suicidal ideation; being the symptom bearer of the family; her FIRST session as a therapist; psychoeducation (having to educate family members about your illness); the positive side of "mental illness"; medication (and how it saved her life); her mentally ill father; why NOT to say "calm down"; and SO much more! A quote from this episode: "If people could see the suffering that we have to go through, physically, on our bodies, mental illness wouldn't be a stigma. People would be like, "holy shit--why didn't you get help sooner??" And we're like "I tried, but you told me I was being too dramatic--you told me to calm down!" SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Danika Ransome talks about her experience growing up with BPD, fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome.  We also discuss nine symptoms of BPD, which gives the listener a better idea of what it's like to experience the disorder. CW: bullying, self-harm, violence. We talk about: dissociation + depersonalization; fear of abandonment; self-harm; her chaotic childhood (bullying & violence), using social media as a support system; body positivity; self-medication; validation;  laughter as a coping mechanism; chaotic relationships; anger; and SO much more. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Holly Lowery (ED recovery coach + anti-diet advocate) talks about her history with disordered eating & recovery AND presents healthier ways to have relationship with food & eating. We also talk about: myths & misconceptions about food & eating, eating disorder grey areas, atypical anorexia/bulimia, "clean eating" communities, diversifying our online representations of beauty, the damage disordered eating inflicts, set-point weight, fear of food and weight gain, food restricting, getting rid of the word "exercise", over-exercising, the link between depression/anxiety and eating disorders and SO much more. This episode is awesome!  There are SO many misconceptions about eating disorders (most people aren't even aware of their disordered eating habits) and they affect SO many people.  Food is not a moral issue! Holly's IG: @hollylowerydavis Books mentioned: Health at Every Size by Linda Bacon AND Intuitive Eating by Evelyn Tribole.   If you wonder whether you have an eating disorder or not, take NEDA's quiz https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/screening-tool SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Janet talks binge eating & purging; her mother's death; fatphobia; body-shaming & positivity; the myth of "good" and "bad" food; 12-step programs & the challenges of recovery and MORE! CW: suicide, self-harm, addiction, death. Janet Ford (artist & author) talks about her 22 years of disordered eating.  It started at age 14, as her mom was dying, and soon she became addicted to both-binge eating and purging as a coping mechanism.  At one point she was binge/purging 4-8 times per day (each purge could cost $100 and she spent ~3 hours in the bathroom afterwards each time).  She lied, cheated and stole so she could afford the habit.  BUT, there's redemption!  This is a fascinating story for anyone, whether you suffer from eating disorders or not. We also talk about: misconceptions about bulimia, body positive instagram accounts, diet culture, breaking down "good" and "bad" food, the concept of 'health', adults as role models for children, recovery and SO much more! Janet is the author of Delusions of Grandeur and the soon-to-be-published 100 Days of Bulimia.  She can be reached on Instagram @fordjanet or [email protected] SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Paul G (artist/musician) talks about: their journey from CIShet monogamous male TO agender, pansexual, polyamorous person; the paradox of the universe; the gender binary; non-violent communication; co-dependency; toxic masculinity; ayahuasca retreats; & body dysmorphia. We also talk about: the coming out process, Wu Wei, cannabis + alcohol dependency, misconceptions about polyamory, accepting diversity, what it's like to be non-conforming in a binary world, rejecting and embracing labels, gender dysphoria, the paradox of the universe, Wu Wei (trying not to try), the importance of respect, and SO much more. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Cher shares his experience with D.I.D.*; being trans; having an abusive step-father; being bullied; and his various alters ("alternate personalities"). CW: suicide, emotional & physical abuse, homophobia, transphobia, bullying. D.I.D. is often portrayed through a negative lens in the media, but now we have a chance to hear first hand what it's like to live with. Cher also talks about: his transphobic father and mother (a doctor) who doesn't believe in meds or mental illness; coping with trauma and PTSD; shame spirals; suicide attempts; anxiety and depression; medication; therapy; being misgendered as a child; and SO much more. (*the media has labeled D.I.D. "Multiple Personality Disorder" though it is not a personality disorder--it's also referred to as split personalities or multiplicity). SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

He was in rehab at age 14 and living in a homeless shelter in his 20s.  He crashed a car into a house and was locked out of his apartment by police.  He's sober now (and an amazing photographer)!  My anonymous guest tells his story of addiction, recovery, grief, suicide attempts, and finding peace. CW: suicide, self-harm, death, addiction. We also talk about: relapse, his father's death, detox, blackouts and fighting, the shame cycle, losing everything, spirituality, meditation, getting around "god", 12-step recovery programs, and MUCH more. You will love this one, I promise.  He has a WILD story and a big heart. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Haley O. talks about her experience with depression, PTSD and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors (called "BFRBs" eg. skin picking).  She talks about her diagnoses (Turrets, ADHD, OCD, anxiety and depression) and about the two major traumatic situations that led to her BFRB and major depression. CW: sexual abuse. We also talk about: having sensitive nervous systems, PTSD, trauma and guilt, support groups, high-stress jobs, reaching out for help, courage, redefining "success" for yourself and SO much more. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

An anonymous guest tells the story of how she was rejected from an out-patient program (rehab) after hitting a "bottom".  She talks about BPD, addiction, rehab, self-sabotage, coping mechanisms & health insurance. CW: overdose, addiction, hospital. We also talk about: drugs, alcohol, anxiety, depression, self-hatred, abstinence-based recovery, shitty AND good therapists/doctors, fear of being "too much", labels and diagnoses, therapists, healing, meditation, meds, (CW) overdoses, drug interactions, creating our crazy-person-commune in Cincinnati and MUCH more. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

My guest talks about her bipolar mother & wealthy, absent father, how her childhood traumas transferred into addictions which she later went to rehab for, AND how she's learning mindfulness in order to deal with her anxiety, depression and relational challenges. CW: self-harm, addiction. We also talk about: having to parent your parent, codependency, The Chopra Centre (Squamish, BC rehab), having a mentally ill mother & wealthy absent father, cannabis addiction, meditation, non-violent communication, self-esteem, CHALLENGING relationships & challenges within relationships (being hyper critical of yourself, your partner and your relationship), mindfulness, privilege, major depression, bipolar, BOUNDARIES, being hard on yourself, and much more. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Levi Chase (Ep 16) talks about their first threesome, fear & attraction towards men, non-monogamy, being sensitive & neurotic, AND my recent suicide attempt. CW: suicide, self-harm.   We also talk about: making friends on dating apps, the validity of our queerness, group sex, non-monogamy and all the confusion associated with it, relationships, (CW) why we shouldn't kill ourselves, AND about how much we love each other! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

An anonymous guest (Ep 92) talks about her experience as a psych nurse and a mom who also deals with bipolar, OCD and BPD.  She's been a patient AND a nurse in the psychiatric emergency unit. CW: suicide, sexual abuse, incest. We also talk: overdosing in her twenties, having psychotic & depressive episodes as a mom, working shitty jobs, dealing with suicidal patients, knowing your boundaries, Sexual abuse and incest as a child, creating our own narratives and believing them, developing a protective shell, CBT and DBT, communication, recognizing warning signs, feeling rejected, making small changes, being kind and generous to people, meditation and mindfulness apps, empowering people to change, the demographic of psych wards, Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), and SO much more. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Krystal P talks about her experience living with Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD); her traumatic upbringing (alcoholic, abusive parents), healing trauma, dissociation; toxic people; & grounding techniques. CW: sexual assault, abuse. We also talk: the body's response to trauma, putting up a tough front as a protective strategy, social anxiety, stepping outside of her comfort zone as therapy, travelling as therapy, kindness from strangers, empathy, coping strategies (lavender), triggers, (CW) being raped, grounding techniques and SO much more. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Gillian C (Ep 6) and I chat butt stuff & sexual trauma. CW: sexual assault, rape. We discuss: BOTTOMING (the empowerment of receiving sex), SHAME (about turn-ons, bottoming & bodies), being non-binary, drunk sex, non-consensual sex, DADDIES, feeling like you're not worthy of love, the culture of suppressing trauma, putting yourself in compromising/dangerous situations, self-improvement culture, the body's response to trauma, somatic therapy, misogyny, hetero dudes, moving beyond binaries and into contradictions, HARRY STYLES and JUSTIN BIEBER, self-acceptance, escaping sexualized trauma, facing rejection, anal sex, and SO much more. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Tesla (18) talks about her experience having alcoholic parents, living with her grandma, psych wards, depression, anxiety, cutting & body positivity. CW: suicide, self-harm, hospital. We also talk: hating school and being an outcast, having mental illness run in the family, medication, internet communities as support, (CW) being suicidal, getting good grades despite dealing with depression and anxiety, her parents separating when she was young, and SO much more! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Bradford (Ep 57) talks about his addiction to crystal meth (+ alcohol, cocaine, & MDMA), getting robbed, fired & divorced leading up to his relapse, drug-induced psychosis AND his experience in rehab & recovery.  This is a really wild & wonderful story! CW: sexual assault We also talk: gay shame, meth dens, adult movie theatres, being honest with yourself, being sober, moving to LA, "the program" and the 12 steps, getting a sponsor, scruff, fear, triggers, self-love, being okay with yourself, (CW) sexual assault, getting robbed, losing his job, and so much more! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Kelsey Germain talks about Vaginismus, a PAINFUL disorder that has DEEPLY impacted her sex-life (and life in general).  She also talks about her upbringing as a Jehovah's Witness! CW: sexual assault; self-harm. We also discuss: pain management, self-harm, drunk sex, masturbation, how vaginismus has impacted relationships, realizing your own strength, boundaries, grounding exercises, communication, painful pap tests, support groups, self-worth, learning your own body, atheism, sexual assault, and so much more! The intro and the outro focus on my struggles with substances.  The journey continues! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Grey Traynor talks about his experiences growing up with anxiety, depression, people-pleasing and perfectionism. We also talk: realizing you're gay at a young age; the "I'll feel better when..." trap; perfectionism as a survival tool; scholastic success as a measure of your worth; getting the things you wanted and then feeling empty; how to handle life; therapists; being "different"; ego vs. soul; Gilmore Girls; and much more! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Leanne Inuarak-Dall talks about her skin picking disorder (aka Dermatillomania, a Body Focused Repetitive Behavior or "BFRB").  She explains how it started, what it feels like, and why she struggles with it. We also talk: ADHD; shame; being shy; codependency; fear of doctors; ex-partners; moving far away; family; physical anxiety; and much more! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Norah talks about her experiences with anxiety, depression and skin picking disorder (Dermatillomania, a Body Focused Repetitive Behavior or "BFRB"). We also talk: exercise, meditation and art as therapy; the purpose of creating and life in general; depression food; thoughts leading to downward spirals; growing up in the boonies; panic attacks, society as the cause of depression and SO MUCH MORE. This is a really good one--one of my favourites. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)  

Alexis Kastner joins me to talk about FEAR of: failing, letting people down, being drugged, empty houses, flying, cougars, making decisions, and more! We also talk: panic attacks; needing control; being paranoid; bravery; nightmares; personal space; decision making; AND, at the end, Alexis talks about the scariest thing she's ever done. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Sarah Hager talks about her experience with the auto-immune disorder called Graves' Disease AND O.C.D.; panic attacks; getting fired for her anxiety; and her fear of EVERYTHING! We also talk: rituals; living with a disease; accessing health services; cheap counselling; being "chill"; mental vs "physical" illness; anxiety; dungeons and dragons; meds; stress; her podcast; how to be "normal"; using anxiety to our benefit; job interviews; fear of falling apart, getting sick & dying; and SO MUCH MORE!   Listen to her podcast, 'Adventure.exe'! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Anya and I talk about all things mental health!  We discuss: Borderline Personality Disorder; dissociating;   knowing your limits;   fear;   naming your scary thoughts and feelings;   (TW!) cutting;   being an angsty teen;   'the dark uglies';   anxiety;   ADHD;   dissociating and shutting down;   bailing on plans;   FRIENDSHIP;   (TW!) suicidal ideations (how to deal with them and cope);   STAR TREK;   Believing you're a bad person;   being vulnerable;   fear of being "too much" or not enough for others;   and SO MUCH MORE! PLUS, Anya sings a song for us :) https://anyadedyna.bandcamp.com/track/dark-uglies ​​Support on PATREON: patreon.com/feelinweird Buy M E R C H: kyeplant.bandcamp.com Donate via PAYPAL: feelinweird.com Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Email: [email protected]  Access EVERY regular + bonus Feelin Weird episode on the Feelin Weird patreon: patreon.com/feelinweird

Stephanie West returns (EP 3) to talk text message anxiety; dopamine shortages; negative self-talk; being overwhelmed; procrastination; & impostor syndrome! We also talk: being overstimulated, overwhelmed and and anxious; the cycle of self care and mental illness; sugar daddies; negative self-talk, self worth & self-loathing; consequences; privilege; mindfulness; ADHD; perfectionism; and SO MUCH MORE! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

(Pt 2) Crystal talks: suicidal ideation (CW); setting attainable and reasonable goals; reaching out for support; feeling overwhelmed; trusting that things will work out; & the challenge of receiving compliments! Crystal (musician/artist AKA White Poppy) returns! We also discuss: being an HSP introvert; suicidal ideation; being overwhelmed by daunting tasks;  putting unnecessary pressure on ourselves and how we can learn to strip that away and find calm;  black and white thinking (all or nothing); the importance of reaching out, talking and therapy;  being okay with not being okay; mindfulness; DBT (dialectic behavior therapy);  trauma (the body holds it and it will come out one way or another);  the power of talking (counselling, journaling, support groups, etc);  journaling;  Theory U (the fear of change and the state of being uncertain what will happen when you've made a change in your life);  marcel the shell (Jenny Slate);  ambiguous words we don't REALLY know the meaning of but use all the time (eg. 'success' and 'happiness'); DIY initiatives;  reinventing the live music experience (especially for introverts); change;   keeping it simple;   and SO MUCH MORE! This episode is AMAZING.  Go listen to Crystal's music (aka White Poppy) on her bandcamp! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Crystal talks radical acceptance; becoming a mental-health worker; transferring addictions; body shame; disordered eating & more! (Pt 1) Crystal (musician/artist aka White Poppy) returns to the podcast!  We talk all things 'COPING with feelings' We also discuss: addiction;    grounding items;  impulsive behaviour;  disordered eating (overeating, compulsive eating, binge eating, etc);  Austin Powers;  body shame (hating your body);  addictions;  transferring addictions;  'when is someone an addict?';  self-love;  self-care;  recovery as a constant (always happening; always a journey; more to learn);  radical acceptance (Tara Broch);  becoming a mental health worker;  heteronormativity;  ego (and how to work with an ego);  and SO MUCH MORE! Also, Crystal reveals that she's actually a self-identified doctor and will be a recurring guest as Doctor Crystal. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Psalm talks being bullied; growing up in a small town; ADHD; toxic masculinity; finding QUEERness; challenging gender norms; & creating your own meaning! Psalm Frond and I went to high-school together!  Psalm and I were never friends and this is one of our first substantial conversations--we share SO many similarities!  They tell their story about growing up in a small town, being picked-on for being WEIRD, and coming to terms with queerness (which was maybe there all along).   We also talk: being called "gay" or "fag" as an insult; being misgendered & the "category crisis"; being home-schooled & alternative education;  clothing style as personal & political activism;  being bullied and in turn fighting back;  childhood queer experiences;  patriarchy, toxic masculinity, and the cult of masculinity;  being labeled as "other" and "gay" by others;  not conforming;  toxic environments;  the importance of having families/people with different values in your life;  challenging your own gender & coming to terms with our own queerness or otherness;  privilege;  being a willing (sometimes unknowingly) agent of patriarchy;  and SO MUCH MORE! This is a really cool episode (especially for me) and if you're queer or were ever an outsider, a weirdo, or a freak, you will connect with it! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Piotr Burek, tells his story of testing positive for HIV and how he's learned to navigate his emotions and live a healthy life.   We also discuss: feeling like you've been given a death sentence, being outed without consent, complex family dynamics, moving to safer places, dating a sex worker, disclosing (to partners and others), STIs, being overwhelmed, the process of testing HIV+ as a young person, feeling dirty, shame, catholic guilt, stigma around disclosure and HIV, feeling vulnerable, using drugs and alcohol to numb feelings, antiretroviral drugs, support systems, cruising sites, support groups, having a sex life after testing positive, serodiscordant relationships, awareness of transmission risks, serosorting, sex positivity, polyamory, monogamy, "soul mates", being cheated on, jealousy, ownership, taking responsibility for your own health, sex risks, AIDS, being LGBTQIA2+ and SO MUCH MORE! This is SUCH an interesting conversation! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

PEPAḴIYE Ashley Cooper is a member of the Tsartlip First Nation on Vancouver Island (BC).  She tells the story of how her family, culture, language, and community has been DEEPLY impacted (almost destroyed) by colonialism and how she has learned to reconnect with it and rebuild herself and her culture. We also talk about mental health (depression, bipolar, anxiety); The Residential School system and it's profound impacts on inter-generational politics; language revitalization; internalized racism; stereotypes; stigma; self-harm, abusive relationships (family and self); alcohol & drug abuse; calling parents out on sexism & racism; coping with feelings; living in settler society; suicide attempts; being an introvert but learning to be more outgoing; fear of change; finding purpose and meaning; hope for the future (children); and SO MUCH MORE! Ashlee is a true inspiration and a beautiful person; I promise you will enjoy this episode!    Access EVERY regular + bonus Feelin Weird episode at PATREON.COM/FEELINWEIRD Support on PATREON: patreon.com/feelinweird Buy M E R C H: kyeplant.bandcamp.com Donate via PAYPAL: feelinweird.com Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Email: [email protected]

Kay G (artist/musician) tells the story of her brother's suicide and the pain it caused her and the family; masculinity (& the stigma attached to needing support); existential depression & more! CW: suicide, death, self-harm We also discuss: depression, grief, family, loss, trauma, CBT, the physicality of mental illness, the importance of reaching out and talking, self-worth, emotions, feminism, the stigma attached to talking about feelings, mindfulness, meditation, and so much more.   This is a touching story, my friends, and this topic is SUPER important for us humyns to discuss and question.  Maybe you've never experienced depression or suicidal ideations, but I can guarantee someone you know has! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Levi Chase (musician) talks about acting emotionally abusive; toxic relationships; depression, shame & substance abuse; going to rehab; capitalism; ayahuasca; & 12-step support groups! We also talk: our personal relationship; loneliness & rejection; psychedelics, meditation & self-reflection; drinking too-much; being addicted to PEOPLE; taking responsibility for our actions; hating ourselves; escaping through phones; masculinity (and bros); misogyny & feminism (and how we can unintentionally perpetuate patriarchy); insecurity & self-love; transferring to new addictions; working in the mental-health field; NA, AA, & MA; and SO much more! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Mary (model) talks about the challenges of appearing able bodied but having chronic illness; people's projections of "perfection"; anxiety, depression; doctors, meds, Scoliosis & more! We also discuss: people's judgements + projections based on her outward appearance (appearing 'perfect'); body shame; social media and self-loathing; body positivity; the endless pursuit of happiness (hungry ghosts); privilege; having a terrible memory; being funny; lashing out when someone is hurt; psychiatrists; doctors; seeking help; medication; body shame; mental illness (anxiety & depression); AND SO MUCH MORE. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Ian talks: hitting rock bottom & the road to recovery; anxiety & depression; anger issues; drunk driving & DUIs; + getting kicked out of bars! Ian J (Musician) talks about his life slowly falling apart due to alcohol abuse AND his road to recovery.  Ian & I played in various bands together and have spent MANY nights drinking and partying together--BUT they're both sober now.  This is a REALLY good one and Ian has a heart of gold and is so inspiring--you will love him. We also talk: anxiety, depression, how to deal with feelings, self-care, anger issues, what to do when you feel "okay" and not HORRIBLE or GREAT, punk rock, "rebelling" against society, drunk driving, DUIs, getting kicked out bars, recovery, friendships, stress management and SO MUCH MORE! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Dion talks: being Two Spirit; OCD, anxiety & depression; coming out at 13; suicidal urges (CW); growing up on AND off reserve;  isolation; & pronouns. Dion Smith-Dokkie talks about their idea of home--sometimes we're not really sure if there is one DISTINCT place and sometimes it may be a journey.  We also talk: childhood, two-spirit, pronouns, "coming out" at age 13, feeling torn between places and people, mental illness (ocd, anxiety, depression), medication, feeling manic, doctors (who sometimes don't listen), suicidal urges, self-discovery, what it feels like to be referred to by a different name and pronoun than you identify with, growing up on and off reserve, First Nations' rights (and the struggle for recognition of traditional rights and spaces), isolation, the importance of speaking and learning traditional languages, and SO MUCH MORE.   Dion is a member of West Moberly First Nations (Dion's mother is Dane-zaa, Cree, Saulteaux and Scottish; their father's ancestor's come from the British aisles) located in Northeastern BC. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Max talks all things ASEXUALITY: dating; low sex-drives; coming out; low sexual attraction: + common misconceptions; AND being an HSP & introvert! Max Monday (Musician/radio-host) talks about growing up asexual and her journey towards self-acceptance. We also talk: EXISTENTIAL DEPRESSION, not having a sex drive, not being sexually attracted to people, dating, love, music, modern classical pianists, MILEY CYRUS, puberty, coming out, not fitting into LGBT norms or pride festivals, being a highly sensitive person (HSP), common misconceptions, things NOT to ask an asexual person, being introverted and SO MUCH MORE! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

My guest (comedian/musician) talks about living with O.C.D., anxiety & panic attacks, depersonalization, existential depression & growing up in a working-class small town! We also discuss:being too poor to afford counselling or medication; mental illness stigma; compulsive behaviour; Punk (and music in general); comedy; being a Maritimer (Nova Scotia) with a working-class work-ethic enforced since day one; high-school; reading; and SO MUCH MORE! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Nicole discusses struggles with Fibromyalgia, Chronic Pain, & Opioid addiction; detox; bad doctors; NA; depression; + challenging relationships & family dynamics. Nicole shares about her tumultuous addiction to doctor-prescribed (for pain management) Fentanyl! Nicole hasn't shared this story IT'S A GREAT EPISODE!   We discuss: drug addiction + dependency; detox; bad doctors; bad relationships; opiates; NA (Narcotics Anonymous); support systems; withdrawals; medical marijuana; depression; lack of motivation; the joys of opioids; weird family dynamics; AND SO MUCH MORE! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Kai Conradi talks about being trans, HRT, testosterone, trans-stereotypes, harassment, dating & growing up in a small town. We also discuss: being uncomfortable around men; feeling like and alien; things not to ask trans people; living in "meat bodies"; why we even NEED bodies? hormone replacement therapy; the gender binary; being young and transgender; trans narratives; parents (who support and also who don't "get it"); misogyny; patriarchy; the horrors of high-school; lgbtq2ai+ communities; non-cis people dating; and SO MUCH MORE. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Courtney Wendland returns to discuss the murder of her brother when she was a teenager: the devastation, PTSD, and recovery.  She has a resilient, beautiful heart and this is an amazing episode! We discuss:loss, trauma and recovery; street outreach; homelessness; hatred, death, pain; physical trauma and anniversaries; what not to say to someone who has experienced a death in the family; loneliness and school; PTSD; purpose; and RECOVERY! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Crystal talks: existential depression; rejecting beauty standards; self-worth; MAKING ART; purpose; coping mechanisms; spirituality; meditation; & more! Crystal (AKA White Poppy: musician/artist) and I chat about the anxiety & depression connected to PURPOSE, self-worth, and "success" (WHAT EVEN is THAT?). We also Discuss: the endless pursuit of purpose and meaning, challenging families, meditation & mindfulness, being a HIGHLY sensitive person (HSP), rejecting beauty standards (body hair), WHAT makes someone 'happy'/content, black-and-white thinking, distorted thinking, anxiety, existential depression, coping mechanisms, self-image, breaking habits and thought patterns, feminism, creating art, Buddhism, CBT, being "famous", and SPORTS!!! Listen to Crystal's music here: whitepoppy.bandcamp.com SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Gillian talks: sex positivity; feeling like an ALIEN; SSRIs; queer culture; Viagra; body dysmorphia; eating disorders & self-acceptance! Former Olympic athlete, Gillian C, and I talk about SEX! We also talk: gender alignment, libido, medication (and going off meds), navigating relationships, Peaches, puberty, and MANY other things they both feel weird about within the realm of sexuality and gender. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Sara talks: her battle with addiction; her rock bottom; abusive relationships; PTSD; self-care & RECOVERY! Sara (photographer/artist) the highs and rock bottoms of her alcoholism.  She hasn't really shared this story before and IT'S A GREAT EPISODE!   We also discuss: drinking malt liquor in Calgary; hitting rock bottom; abusive relationships; PTSD; photography; anxiety; self-care and self-love; The Clash; AND SO MUCH MORE. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Stephanie West explains ADHD, how it feels, how meds work, and how debilitating it is (especially when people don't take you seriously). Stephanie West was diagnosed with ADHD in her twenties, but lived undiagnosed for most of her life.  She explains what the disorder is, how it feels, how meds work, and how debilitating it is (especially when people don't take you seriously).  We also discuss: anxiety; panic attacks; therapy; parents on social media; Spice World; school; constantly forgetting everything you know and need to do; The Mighty Ducks (trilogy); depression; being nice (to yourself and others); having a strong support system; reaching for the stars; and so much more.  SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

(Pt 1) Mikey L discusses major depression, medication, being TERRIFIED of the phone, & having major SOCIAL anxiety but forcing yourself to be social anyway. We also discuss: alcohol, cannabis & anxiety; being a depressed teenager; having roommates; Kurt Vonnegut; rom-coms, ICP, & hardcore music; bad haircuts & pinstripe suits; dating, love, heartbreak; being old AND young; and SO MUCH more.  SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Courtney Wendland and I discuss anxiety, panic attacks, medication, therapy, traumatic events, obsessive tendencies developed to cope with stress, and Space Jam. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)